Every single characteristic of myself ranges from mediocre to below average, not bad enough to be a concern or to bitch about, but not good enough to be satisfied in it. There is not a single thing that I excel or take pride in that deems respectHow the fuck do I fix this? Am I just destined to be an NPC?
>neurotypical enough to make small talk/associate with people, too autistic to have close friends or date women>smart/disciplined enough to enter university, too retarded/lazy to preform at the median>have interests but never go through with them, at best half-ass them or absorb via osmosis over several years>work a job part time and pay my bills on time but too reckless to save it wisely
>>34039628starting from the bottom--->up1) An NPC would never question whether or not they are one, it just doesn't even register as a possibility2) Here's your starting point: You are already ABOVE average in self-Awareness, and possibly honesty to yourself.3) Barring mental illness or physical disabilities, anything you want to advance in requires one thing: Diligent practice. Whether that's becoming physically fit, becoming and expert in your "Specialty/Hobby/Feild", or just becoming exemplary in your work; It's going to require (YOU)'re input of energy and time, to get any sort of OUTPUT that anyone would recognize as above average--(and let's face it, the bar is set VERY LOW these days, while the screens often show people who've put little effort into having "exemplary wealth, beauty or power". )Finally, the Ancient Romans used to define Genius as the individual instance of a general divine nature that is present in every individual person, place, or thing.Somewhere out there, there is an ugly retarded person who somehow, uncannily, beyond all reason and science, can make ANY hotdog the most amazing thing you've ever eaten; EVEN if you fucking Loathe hotdogs.TL;DR: nothing grows or improves without stress or pain. Even those with seemingly effortless gifts have to push themselves to improve.*Do 10 push-up(or to failure) now.Then again in an hour, then again in an hour. By the end of the week you'll be able to do many more than that first time.
>>34039628You are just about the most ordinary person around.
>>34039628Identify one small aspect you're not happy with, change that slowly. If you're too reckless to save up, start by saving a portion as soon as you get it in an account that's harder to withdraw from so you can't spend it.
>>34039628>How the fuck do I fix this?Git good. Like take up a hobby and get good a it.
>>34039628What sort of question is that. Yes, maybe you are. What do you want me to say? Is there someone you want to be despite that or that kills your drive?
>>34043729I have no desire for anything at a rigorous level, so I guess not. I'm more content with fantasizing about several different things that sounds exciting
