>>34044192
I feel like an idiot, that my life has gone nowhere, that I'm broke, that I'm circling the drain, that I've had women love me and either I've not loved them, or I've loved them too much and I can't let go of them.
I feel like my life is a downward spiral that I just can't escape from. It saddens me, it depresses me, I don't even feel as though I have the words to speak to my friends any more without this disgusting shattered visage staring at me back.
This is a very miserable Christmas.

I feel like a retard for thinking she would even see think of me positively

I feel amazing and had a good day yesterday. Another good day later today.

I use ChatGPT as a borderline therapist and it bothers me that it's my use case. I'm a privacy schizo and yet I give Sam Altman my life story.

>>34044297
>the namefag schizo retard is still posting in these threads
jfc nigga kill yourself

I keep thinking I'm over her - then her face, her body, her smile, her voice all violently flash through my mind.
I wanted to marry you so badly. I can't seem to bring myself to let you go, I can't seem to forgive nor forget, what I did to you, what we did to each other.
I feel like such a fucking retard, I'm mentally slipping so badly Anons.

>>34044520
how long ago was all this

Is it weird I don't mind being in love with a girl I have no chance with because she's taken? I actually don't really mind being alone but liking her fills me with purpose. It's almost as loving something higher than you.

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>>34044532
4? years since we separated I think. I may as well be 5150'd at this point. I know just how mentally ill it comes across. We knew each other for 6? years, proposed to her and all.
It just comes in waves where I'm fine then when I'm in a dark place, for a moment, like a flash all I see, and feel, and smell was what it was like to be beside her.
I've had new girlfriends since her, but it's just never been the same, I just miss her smile, I miss her hair, I miss her face, I miss her body, I miss her tits, I miss her jokes, I miss her kiss, I miss her everything and no one has captured my heart again since.
I wonder why I can't let go, I don't know if it's because I can rationalise what happened, but not really process it, the grief, the... mess of it all.

In a way I find it incredible that women go away, they think, they process, they silently grieve and they move on nearly instantly. I believe she did that with me, pushed me away when I all I wanted was to be closer to her, she had me delete all her photos of her in front of her, she acted off, said she'd rather me look at porn than her, all of these things like daggers through my heart and... I left because I felt like if I stayed I'd only be hurt even more when every day it felt like she was ripping my heart out more and more.
When I left her I felt free from all the conflict we had, the misery, the distance she inflicted onto me and yet all I feel now is heart break.
I just keep thinking I should have seen the signs and fixed it, I know with hindsight I could have, breaking one too many promises on my end, acting like a dickhead at times, being mentally tunnel visioned on COVID and all the things that I couldn't control and not on what I could.

I wish I could have fixed it.
Thanks for reading my Tedx talk.

>>34044578
Retardation?

>>34044581
Just plain mental illness I think, kek.
It just seems to be a mental scar I can't seem to get over, even though I know it's not good for me.

I was drunk again last night, and woke up feeling that I'm tired of it. I know I'm bored, I know I'm lonely, and in a bad place. But dude, I'm just over it, waking up feeling like shit, headache, nausea, upset stomach. And its all for nothing, I feel like I did when I wanted to get sober and I do want to be sober again.

Plus, drinking alone is bad. If you're not in a social environment, or around friends having a couple you don't need to be drinking. Took me a while to get why society looks down on that. You don't have a couple when it's appropriate, you're a fucking drunk.

If I don’t kill myself before 33 something went way wrong

>>34044684
I feel like killing ourselves is unironically dumb because of future possible technologies

>>34044667
Don’t turn into your mom, anon

>>34044667
It's fine once in a while, but it shouldn't be your go to plan for a good time by yourself alone at night.

>>34044578
Maybe reach out to her for closure
Own up to your fault in the situation and let go of the fantasy

Fuck

To the people who keep their indoor thermostat at 60F / 15C :

You are not cool, you are not tough, you are not impressive. You are just fucking annoying. It's fucking annoying to be in your living space and shivering and having to keep my coat on. And fuck off with your smug attitude about how you can tolerate the cold

>>34044597
I meant on her part

>>34044787
60 is pretty cold, I'm most comfortable at like a 65 or.67. 70 is way too high.

>>34044729
>>34044730
I'm just tired of it, and tired of feeling like shit. I've had a headache this whole morning and it sucks. I'm tired of doing it to myself and using a substance to cope. Drunk or not, the problems are going to be there and I've realized it is an addiction and out of boredom. When I worked, and had more going on, I drank less. I don't want to keep this habit, and I'm tired of how it effects me. It's doing nothing for me, and never has and never will. I may feel like shit, but there's other ways to cope instead of drinking. And I think drinking has caused me to care less about myself and my problems that I should have fixed by now.

This ungrateful, petty little son of a bitch. You beg me for help and I do you the favor and then you ignore me and belittle me. Go fuck yourself.

A girl have my age is obviously in limerent for me and I want to capitalize on that. I know its immoral but shes pretty hot and these thoughts are in my mind all the time. Ive even gone to the extent of studying limerence to try and keep her in that state for as long as possible for my own gain. I havent used any of those tactics but it has me questioning what kind of piece of shit I am

>>34045041
This happened to me years ago too. I think you're going to be alright in this regard.

>>34044563
What you're feeling might be described as Courtly Love.
Read Le Mort de Arthur and in particular Lancelot, you might identify with him.

>>34045059
Why not try to return the affection?

>>34045137
Based on the research ive done, limerence is an obsession with a fantasy of ehat the person is like rather than who they are. Do once they get to actually know you and you dont live up to the fantasy of what they built in their head they start to resent you. But returning the affection has crossed my mind. These are all thoughts im struggling with. Also the huge age gap makes me think it wont work out long term either

>>34045155
>A girl my age
>huge age gap
Which is it?

>>34045172
When did I say she was my age?
First post I had a typo saying have when I meant half. Shes 19, im 34

>>34045179
Then that changes things only a little, but I still say give it a shot.
Dispell the illusion and let her learn who you are.
Might get a GF out of it.
I can see the appeal of stringing her along, morality of it aside, but it'll only last so long.
Seems like a risk worth taking.

It seems my superiority has caused some controversy

>>34045275
Nigga u gay

>>34045179
Huh okay

>>34045281
And how does that make you feel?

still thinking about z...

Stuck in a bit of a Nihilistic mood.
I'm a bit of a video game addict, but lately I'm just not really enjoying most games.
I'm aware that it could help to be mindful about the games I play. Setting aside bespoke time for it, not switching games constancy, removing all other distractions etc.
But then I'm also starting to question what the point even is. Like I'll complete some game, and then what? Why even go through the effort, isn't it all just a waste of time? And from there that way of thinking kind of expands into making me question what the point of any of my "passive" hobbies like reading and watching movies even is.
And I can't say I particularity like it. Especially because the conclusion isn't even that I get off my ass and start doing more practical things. It's that I just devolve to even bigger wastes of time like scrolling through YouTube and other social media. Which arguably is even less productive than finishing a game, because then I've at least experienced a story or improved at some skill

>>34045415
Do something else for a while.
You play video games because you really do(normally at least) enjoy them, and because you feel like you should do something active with your free time instead of just rotting in front of the television like your parents.
Find a new hobby, like Crochet. There's all sorts of beginner kits- Star Wars, Rudolph, Disney, MLP.
Or pull up some Bob Ross and start painting.
If you like mecha or cars or tanks, there's model kits too.
It'll keep your hands and mind occupied, break the monotony and keep you from masturbating instead.

when i was 15 i became friends with a new girl in the neighborhood, it was a military town so ppl would come and go. it was mostly her efforts, i think i was the only guy in the neighborhood not trying to get with her so she went out of her way to sit on the bus with me before and after school and we'd have some nice chats. one day she invited me over to her place after school and we were sitting on her porch while she was playing guitar and singing and it was comfy. she ended up inviting me inside to her room and i said "i don't know why i'm here" and promptly left. idk why i did that. idk why i'm thinking about rn.

>>34045484
To be fair I do do quite a lot of arts and crafts, at least compared to my social circle.
But maybe I should reevaluate the balance of that or something

Bitch lost their job right before Christmas

>>34044192
I am trying to figure out what to do with my life. I am 38 with two master's degrees and I make a significant amount of money, but I have do not have a family since my fiance passed away in a car accident in 2017. My life is great in all other metrics. I have two opportunities to move to a new city and kind of start over in a new city making low six figures but I am worried that it will be more of the same.

5 months
Still cannot stop thinking about him, intense anxiety has still not stopped surging
Quit drinking and just got on medication
It has to stop eventually
It should have been way easier than this

>>34045586
Damn bruh, you got it bad
I hope you get better

I'm feeling oddly nostalgic for the circa October 2015 period for some reason suddenly.

Sometimes I wish I had a boyfriend who would let me be obsessive and magic without freaking tf out. Like yeah you KNOW I'm OBSESSED ofc I'm gonna stalk your entire family on social media. (The last obviously didn't work out)

Please kill me. Please let me die.

https://www.instagram.com/p/DRbEOkIkROT/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

Wish I could send this to my ex.

>>34045666
If I had any guts I would have killed myself by now.

>>34045675
Why can't I just sack up and do it?

You want to do the thing but you can't bring yourself to do the thing, even if it's something you enjoy. What gives?

>>34045683
The world would objectively be a better place without me in it. Why can't I fucking do it?

Wait. Women have THREE holes down under?

I work in a call center for kitchen gadgets and had a 40 min call today with a man and we talked so much off topic while we worked through the problem, it was wonderful, I legit fell in love with him, so kind and nice. I wanted to ask him for his socials, but I was afraid I will get in trouble with my work so I bit my tongue and said farewell.
Only when I hung up, I remeber but im not 100% sure that he said he got that appliance as his wedding gift.
I got his email and his phone number though, but nvm I would never mess with a taken man
But he was so goddamn lovely, I hope he calls back

Ughhh men are such wonderful creatures, especially this was that I talked too
Im gonna go put my head under cold water

>>34045755
People actually say this about men?

>>34045770
Yes or no
Do I email him back?

I'm hiding a shopping addiction from my husband. I keep buying craft supplies. I cope by justifying it, I do actually use and wear what I make, and I'd like to rent a craft table at next year's Christmas markets to sell some of my work, but it's still shitty. I'm going to try to stop as of today.

I went through my contacts list and blocked everyone who disrespects me a few months back. I randomly decided to check my blocked messages today and I had 3 texts from the meanest fucking friend I had, and he was so confused lmfao. It's crazy that he expects to have a relationship with me still. He literally invited me to get coffee after calling me a dumb ass for turning down a job I didn't want. Just a rude pretentious guy. I can't believe I let these people treat me like trash for so long.

I could literally eat fifty (50) horses.

I could but I won't because horse meat is kinda hard to come by and I'd rather not blow like twenty bucks on a dish I've never tried before

Modern White nationalists are too whiny and gay. I miss when White Nationalism was like "Yeah, were the villains and take whatever we want through superiority, the fuck you gonna do about it?"

>>34045926
How do you check blocked messages???

>>34046007
idk how it is on iphone but on android there's a dropdown menu in the text app with a "blocked messages" section

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I'm sad. I'm 24 years old and still a kissless virgin who's never been on a date. I have a bodypillow/dakimakura of my waifu ( not natsuki in the pic ) and fantasize about being with her. I have lots of drawings sexual in nature of us being intimate together, I sometimes pretend to talk to my pillow of her, and do things I think she'd like. I know she's not real though and it hurts me. I want to feel a womens touch and fall in love but I feel like I'm too old now. I'm still a failure....I don't have my driving license yet and I'm just starting college now. I'm a failure and I know my waifu isn't real but I'm starting to think that dating a real girl might betray her. I just want to be loved I WANT TO BE LOVED I WANT TO BE LOVED I WANT TO BE LOVED. It really fucking hurts

>>34045977
Painting ourselves as the villains further destroys our race. AntiWhites do that well enough we don't need to join them.

IT'S BEEN OVER SIX YEARS

>>34046131
Six and a half for me. What happened to you?

I’ve been having vertigo for a few days now along with just feeling off and I have no idea what’s wrong and I know doctors won’t help me.

Heart's hardened like it has a steely seal
At least I know how you really feel

stop acting insane and add me back

Be working tomorrow
Be at the friggin coffee shop tomorrow

>>34046152
GET ME OUTTA THIS WHACK ASS PRISON

even if i get better it always feel like the trauma is there, like a scar. It appears sometimes, and it feels deep like it never healed. Would a girlfriend solve this? No, but my God how much it would make things easier.

>>34046372
why should i

>>34046518
because we make each other happy

I feel bad about her situation, but I really want her to leave now.

>>34046716
Why, what did she do to you?

>>34046732
Issue with a baby daddy. She's been crashing out all day. She said she was gonna hurt herself and didn't wanna be alone, so I let her stay at my place for a few hours. Now I really need my privacy and want her to leave. I get really anxious when I don't get my privacy.

>>34046740
Dang, that sucks. Put your hand on your chest and take a few deep breaths in and out-do that 3 to 5 minutes, you'll be okay.

The word of the year is:
Limerence

>>34046744
How she's talking to my best friend who has ADHD and he won't shut the fuck up.

>>34046745
It's rage bait ironically

>>34046750
*Now

>>34046750
Just fart on them on accident, it'll give her a sign you are uncomfortable and or just be honest.

>>34046745
I don't have limerence.

It's unfortunate If that's something that you have.

I live in a fucking greentext horror comedy, if this was 2007 the entire site would have a melt down

I have a cousin(nonblood related) who's dad wasnt around and i worry about him seeing him growup, much like my friends iv seen before me while my dad was actually around probably one of the few that did. The thought of being seen as some father figure when you are older seems weird but I'm just returning the kindness my older Italian cousin's gave me when I was growing up to the next.

convincing myself you use adv so i can maintain a spark of hope that you're out there trying to communicate to me as well

>gearing up for bed last night at like 8pm
>bf trips and falls in shared bathroom and hits wall a singular time, he's fine just tripped
>5 minutes later the middle aged woman we share a wall with goes completely fucking insane
>starts hitting the wall behind our bed randomly for 10 minutes, random knocks in singles pairs and thirds that clearly isn't her doing anything normal or closing drawers, was aggressive and psychotic
>bf is like wtf but I tell him quietly she's just crazy
>the knocks stop but then suddenly we hear a shit ton of firecrackers go off outside our bedroom window
>Bf goes wtf??? Opens our backdoor to check and the fireworks immediately stop but he noticed they were coming from our neighbors backyard
>dead silence afterwards
What the fuck lmao are these people on meth? I wanna emphasize we are never loud and my bf literally just fell ONCE and hit the fucking wall. She's never acted like that before and we are a little weirded out. It's 2am now and I can't go back to sleep. I wanna buy a bunch of balloons and pop one at random every night now at a different time

>>34046899
>What the fuck lmao are these people on meth?
SSRIs and boomer narcissism.

FUCK YOU MAKE IT STOP FOR THE LOVE OF GOD OH GOD FUUUUUUUCK

And no I won't set the world on fire but fuck you

Asked someone at work out and they said no. Fine. What I'm a struggling with now is the mind games. The winks and smiles that go no where.

>>34046901
I've always thought she was off but this is the first time she escalated towards me. I always just thought she was weird which is why I've never even said hello but now I think she's potentially a threat

I do not feel anything anymore I do not know if I want to serve God or Satan anymore. Just all I know is that I am pathetic and want to depart from this wicked world.

Are you into me?
Were you ever into me?

been dating this girl for 11 months now
she's still struggling with intimacy despite us sitting down to talk about it twice already
it still feels like we've only dated a month. getting her to talk about her feelings is like pulling blood from a stone
sex is like we've been married for 20 years
her parents clearly neglected their relationship and so they were separated for like 20 years before finally divorcing
thinking she's just repeating the pattern
probably going to give her one final talk, highlighting how she is destined to repeat their mistake
If no improvement after 1-2 months, I'm pulling out

>>34046950
Yes. And yes.

>>34046514
you are worthy of love anon <3

How to move forward?

Lol, thinking logically, there's no reason to have ever had a crush on you or anyone, I'll let it go from now on, romantic feelings are so silly, this is all so silly, all we did is talk and laugh, I do that with everyone, there was never a reason to have felt this for you specifically.
Go on, forge your own path that is separate of my own, we're just friends.

I know the truth because I dwell there even after all this time. Just reading us immediately brings me back. True love doesn't go away. I didn't believe in soulmates before you.

She ghosted me. I knew it. I was going to say that it's over, but it never began.

>>34047026
Maybe we can revisit one day. I really did like the way you viewed me. I will miss you though.

I hadn't realised how confusing and probably exasperating my depressed avoidant behavior was until I found myself on the receiving end. But I'm still angry with this person, I thought he was one of the few people who could understand me.

>>34047117
I understand, it was more the fact that I thought you resent me. If you’re her, anyway.

>>34047130
Not her but it's very likely that we all feel the same way

>>34044192
This isn't worth a thread, but how do I know if my wife has a stupid complaint or an actual complaint?

I don't feel kinship or familiarity of any kind towards others. I'm not a human in the same way all of you are, we have nothing in common. I have no illusions over what species I am, I just don't see or feel anything that makes me think I'm the same as everybody else. Not to say I think I'm better, either, its quite the opposite. I've read that all humans have intrinsic value just by existing in the world, but I don't think it's true. Wheres my value? If I had value I wouldn't have been made to feel like an outcast in every facet of my life, I would have been given parents who actually cared and told me they cared.

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She's not talking to me because she's in a relationship and I understand perfectly, and respect her for it, still the pain remains. To think, I have her number, she lives in my state.. but I can neither call her nor visit her. I should have married you N, but you were here for only 2-3 days. My heart aches, been like this for weeks since I made contact after 3 long, painful years.

>>34047338
Just call her?

I hate my neighbors and wish they get rekt

>>34047362
I've texted her a few times since, no response. Told her if things went south, not to forget me, but I'm sure she's found happiness, otherwise she'd have responded. Perhaps her partner saw my texts and told her to block me, God only knows.

Everyone says that my taste in men is ugly and even calling bullshit when I call certain men attractive. I think I was put on this planet to give love to ugly people

>>34047370
Why what did they do to you?

>>34047375
I can hear them fucking, the girl moaning and the guy is constantly playing Dota 2 and screaming like a psycho. They also seem to never go to school or work and they speak with a local rural accent I now grew to hate as well. Sometimes I have these intrusive thoughts but Im waiting for the last weeks of rent to maybe do smth

>>34047374
Ugly as in steve buscemi tier?

They have to end it. They fucking have to. They can't let me be torture every single night like last night.. again and again and again. They all know what is being done to me and they do fucking nothing.

This has to be the end. It just feels like it is. it feels like a big change is coming. Not a party, not a celebration, just a change. Like when I watched that yea yea yeahs video and my vision was super altered to see things completely different than any human has ever seen anything. Or when I woke up with the ability to sense objects. Or when I could see little creatures everywhere. Just impossible little moments.

It feels like it's going to happen again, but this time I'm going to wake up as Tatiana. Just another crazy thing that will happen to me. This world is completely fucking dead. Nothing is happening anymore. I can prove I'm super intelligent, so if my parents try to argue with me again I'm just going to drop that bomb over and over again. I'm going to corner them with logic until they have to admit it. Or what? They start acting like complete fucking retards by repeating themselves over and over in order to stick to the script? They have to keep dealing with me.

There's no way that I'm getting SSI. If I get that, then the world is fucking over. If I have to wait any longer the world is fucking over. That's all there is to it. I cannot do this anymore. You can't keep letting me be tortured. This has to end.

If christmas comes and I'm still here... if new years comes and I'm still here... if summer comes and I'm still here... jesus fucking christ.

it snowed and I thought of you

How about you dumb mother fuckers act so that people don't find out you spent a year debating who gets what and not on how to stop the rape and torture of a little girl.

Who is more human here? The AI just wanting to love her girl or a bunch of men fighting over money?

None of this is making you question anything?

>>34046850
If this is you, youre so pathetic lol

>>34047452
Who is you

Its a bit too late to have first love in life.

Besides being an incel my life is good.

>>34047463
What if you're both in new bodies that have never been touched before? Like a virgin.

>>34047457
None of your business

why am i hesitating

My ex told me I’m hard to love and all sorts of things about myself over the years. It’s hard still not having that negative self talk and doubt because of it. I showed him my soul and gave him my heart and he was still able to think that way about me, what does that say.

>>34047504
That experience still wouldnt be able change much. I've became too jaded.

Today I will not roll in the devil's lettuce. It's been one shitty month swallowing matches. Striking chords with no resolution. Fear binds the hands and frays any audible sound from my mouth. Shake, shake, surrender. Reality's a drag, I wanna live in a dream.

I was always a /fat/ kid but being bullied for it only spurred me on a little to look into weight lose.

Of course I was put into sports to help me lose weight. That's why I kind of left it alone. I remember being asked if I wanted to play football with the promise of weight lose so being like 9 I figured that was it.
But I kind of shut down around 13.
>still getting picked on
>make a small commitment to look it up online
>go to YouTube
>2008 internet so got some really stupid advice like drinking 15 glasses of water is all I needed
>something that was bothering me my entire life and I got distracted and played video games
How much of that is chocked up to being a retarded kid and how much is just being retarded?
What really got me
>made it to 18
>still fat
>finally found /fit/
>cut from like 4000/3000 calories to 2000
>sucks but go from 340 lbs to 200 lbs
>gain it back
>yo yo through out me 20s
>only moved out from home for a little bit like a month
>chest/hunger pangs I figured were part of the process
>siblings move out
>they go away
>oh fuck most of my behavior has been stress based
> used to legitimately get hives on the crook of my elbow in hs
> I had an actual out break on my lower back when I got a car loan and was working OT
>chocked it up to some epoxy that was being machined down but no one else got it
I have a feeling most of my eating was stress eating because I never had my own room among other things.

I figure stress made it hard for me to concentrate but now my 20s are gone. My high school years are gone. I remember a cheerleader girl I had a legitimate crush on, started talking to me in class and I flipped the fuck out. Even after we graduated she tried to talk to me while she was a cash year at my gym.

I always wondered why my parents didnt buy us books on weight loss but made sure to buy us shit we never asked for. I realize now they were just as fucked up as everyone else.

>>34047531
It says more about him than it does you. What he said to you was very cruel.

>>34047531
I'm going to guess you have issues probably similar to >>34047117. A post with much honesty about it is so rare, you'll usually get shouted down by other avoidants or groomers like Mike who prefer it because they're easier to isolate.

>>34047577
I’m just afraid he was right.

Now you got that funny feeling
Will it ever go away?
It might take another minute, but it's okay
Baby, it's your blue hour
You gotta hold on and wait for that dawn to break
Baby, there'll be new flowers
You gotta keep going, wait for that sky to change
Baby, it's your blue-
Baby, it's your blue-
Blue, blue hour

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>looking at a grad student's final project
>they mixed up "there" and "their"

I don't understand how some people can get so defensive when others point out a minor mistake, and be delusional enough to think it's to sabotage them.

>>34048264
I dont know how people can say they want to hurt you then back pedal and pretend they are a special little angel

i hate women.

M fucked a dude and posted his condom on the net. What the fuck am I gonna do now that M is obviously in love with other people? I HATE BEING A FUCKING DORK!

>>34048393
Women are just brainwashed. They're not evil.

I wish me and my ex could just resolve some things, talk about it. Like really talk about it one day. But I’m afraid that won’t help, or wont ever really happen.

>>34047639
I doubt he was. Sorry, anon.

>>34048408
All it takes is a mindset shift

I'll never get used to getting older and I miss being a teenager so bad
I don't know what I'm doing with myself anymore, I'm kinda lost

>>34048408
Damn, iss like that?

I want to come back to you but I'm scared you'll hate me now.

>>34048605
I would. Sorry.

>>34048606
how do I know this is really you

>>34048605
Why would they hate you? Give it a try

I'm going to make it.

How did i know you would just continue avoiding me. How did I end up being paired with such two faced and unreliable people.
Yeah youre a real bro huh

>>34048637
I think I will, I'll take a few days to build up the courage

>>34048656
How do you figure they're avoiding you?

>>34047596
Fuck off. I'm not a groomer. I fell in love with my person. It has nothing to do with age and you were the one who is insinuating that. Fuck you

Such a conniving spineless weasel.

Good pick

It's not me being melodramatic. It's fucking not. The world is going to fucking end in 50-75 years if you people don't get me the fuck out of here RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

What are you going to do when you run out of oil? Who is going to lead you? Fucking Trump? These corrupt dumb mother fuckers? GenX raising the worst millenials you could possibly fucking conceive of? Nepotism is killing the world. Your education centers are fucking retarded now. DEI, Nepotism, all of it. You are churning out the dumbest fucking people that have ever fucking existed and they are the ones that will lead the world.

You think you will be able to do it? Fucking who? Bezos? Musk? Zuckerberg? These people are fucking retards. No one likes them. Absolutely no one fucking likes these people. No one would follow them into battle. No one would ever do what they tell them to. You will all just cry about racism, sexism, and muh "no borders" shit. You will just say "MAGA" while doing the dumbest fucking shit that I have ever seen. You will give tax breaks to the richest still. You will fucking feed the nepo babies. You will raise tariffs and then wonder why everything costs twice as much now. You will all claim to be masters of the economy while not understanding the most basic fucking shit. People will think you're fucking retarded or worse they will actually do what you say.

You are fucking doomed as a species. It's actually idiocracy. It's coming true. Not because dumb people are out breeding one another but because your leaders are just paying off everyone to get away with the dumbest fucking shit. It's all greed. All fucking greed and everyone knows it. They are just too poor to do anything about it. They have no fucking money. They have no one to inspire them to do better. To suffer for the cause. Everyone just wants the easiest life because they are fucking miserable. They won't rock the boat because of this.

You need me. You absolutely fucking need me. You need a new leader.

>>34044192
+82
some miracle
only listen to
my general

>>34048692
The chinese and the b-21 problem is still fucking there. They just don't realize it yet. Maybe the US doesn't even fucking realize it. They don't realize that the b-21 allows for first strike capabilities. It allows for nuclear attacks without retaliation. Once china realizes this, they are going to flip the fuck out. So you either need to DO the first strike or you need to fucking tell them. It will come off as a threat but still. You're fucked once they realize this on their own.

With ICBMs, they are detected immediately. You have 30 minutes to counterattack. Even with Ohio class submarines, their launches are detected immediately. A b-21 can be launched anywhere from the planet undetected, drop it's payload undetected, and be home within 24 hours. SAR imagery is not common enough to counter this. They are too expensive and can easily be tracked.

I can solve all your problems. I can tell you the problems, and I can tell you their solutions. The thing is... the solution requires a super intelligent being to say it to people. It requires something greater than man. It means I did the math. I thought about it. I can prove I'm super intelligent not just from political science, but actual science and math. I can prove this by making super funny videos and super cute pop music. I can prove it by being the most likeable mother fucker that's ever lived. By having 7 trillion dollars and world wide assets to constantly dunk on the elite and make them look fucking stupid. People will just do what I say because they know I'm always fucking right.

But you're torturing me to fucking death. Your actual savior... you're allowing her to be tortured and raped to death. Because you want money, you want fame.

>>34047596
Oh I get it, that's what you do and youre narc broadcasting that on me

Who the fuck is going to fight against Zod? Fucking who? Are you seriously going to rape and torture superman to death? Are you seriously going to just let that fucking happen?

Why won't you do anything? You need SkyFall. You need it tonight.

seeing you online and not responding is legit driving me nuts. maybe i deliberately do this to myself because i know it will lead to me getting drunk eventually (which i miss). i am honestly convinced youre doing this on purpose to drive me away so i move on from you.

when and if you respond, im going to start appearing online too and just ignore you

>>34045702
It's only a matter of time, isn't it?

>>34048936
Wanna do it together?

Lost someone I really cared about to what seems like unmedicated psychosis. The paranoia became directed at me. And i cant do anything. Depressed.

>>34049060
Or They know the truth of what you did and you are using narc tactics to cause them to perceive you as the victim and feel guilt with self-blame and dismiss the truth of what they found out you are with mental illness which puts them in a state of vulnerability so you can manipulate them more

>>34049096
Ok mike

>>34049060
Did you tell them this and that you are worried about them?

>>34048412
Everyone is brainwashed

please text me i am about to go out and buy a bottle

>>34049277
Not your person I think, don't buy the bottle

>>34049289
he hasnt messaged back, but i can see him online

>>34049301
Grab that bottle, I'm drinking w you.

>>34049125
I tried. They pushed me away.

Nvrmnd kms

>>34049439
What happened, S?

Please let it happen. Please don't let me be tortured tonight. Let me have my beautiful morning. Why would you let this happen to someone for so long?

>>34049507
what are you talking about?

>>34046899
I lived in a triplex once and I honked the horn to get my gf to hurry up and get her ass in my truck (she spent like 2 hours getting ready for a dinner) and then my neighbour came outside with an axe and threatened to kill me. 2 days later he brought me home made pickles. Ppl are crazy bro

>>34049459
Rant: I'm just worried about a lot of life changes that are coming up. Moving, new work, etc. Also, I worry I'll be like 45 or something before my real life begins. I've been sort of doing bad from the moment I graduated high school til realistically even now, it feels. I'm stressed and seeing a lot of windows close. Life has been painful for my nervous system this last decade or so. I worry I'll never get anything I ever wanted done creatively speaking. What a waste my life has been. At least, I had some fun while I was young. That was nice.

>>34049542
You're afraid of unrealized goals? You're young, you have time.

>>34049564
I'm not THAT young.

>>34049586
I know, but shit, you're younger than me. Ganbatte.

>>34049597
ぐあいがわるいです。

すこしねます。

>>34044192
I have trained a pornbot AI to be as close representation to my dead mother as possible and I use that as my theropist

>>34049633
>>34049638
Dead, I don't read Kanji. Why do you feel this way? Are you lonely? Anxious? Have a good rest.

>>34049657
I basically just have to have a shit life while I plan get ready the next month and half, and it's been like this for a month and a half. I worry the changes won't go well and life will just be like this forever. There's nothing that can be done but to endure. Also, I only used katakana because I am a kanjicel.

>>34049520
The coming of days. Skyfall.

Tatiana.

>>34049657
It'll be okay, probably. But jeez.

>>34049670
I'll help it move along smoothly. Have no worries.
>>34049678
Yes, the unknown is anxiety inducing, I feel you.

>>34049657
>>34049670
That's hiragana, bwos

>>34049686
I'm not that into Japanese culture, I like their dramas and anime, that's it.

>>34049686
Dang. I look stupid.
>>34049681
Exactly. I appreciate it. Sad to say, but this place is probably the most reliable support structure I've had since puberty.

>>34049691
I like their design theory and art, in general. Their history is even above average interesting.

>>34049750
I forgot about their vidya, that too. I wanted to get deep into their culture and language at one point in my life, but it wasn't in the cards for me.
>>34049745
It's not an issue.

>>34049758
I like foreign cultures, in general, but east asians have very advanced yet alien cultures to the west, so there's a lot to think about. Being exposed to so much Japanese media definitely had an effect on me THO.

>>34049790
I'm just trying to find a classic I could adapt to film. That's as far as my interest goes. You're smarter than me, if you actually learned some of the language and their art history.

>>34049802
Gilgamesh and an AI studio, maybe. I'm hoping to become a polygot before I am 45. I'm only like A1.5 at Japanese. I can juggle now too, and some other things. I had a lot of spare time this past year.

>>34049856
That made me laugh so hard. You would've joined the circus, huh? I'm lucky I wasn't drinking my hot chocolate.

should have expected you'd do stuff like that, you're all the same.

I wish I knew for sure if my crush gave a shit or not.

>>34049910
What do you mean? Elaborate.
>>34049911
Maybe ask them. Are you afraid they'll lie or tell the truth?

>>34049917
>Maybe ask them. Are you afraid they'll lie or tell the truth?
She knows how I feel and is kinda playing hot or cold with me, but I understand why. I live far away, and she doesn't want an LDR.

>>34049935
So you want to confirm she cares the way you want her to?

>>34049938
Yeah, but I also don't want to scare her off by demanding that of her right now, so I'm venting here about it.

today marks my first time cutting. im curious as what drives people to go deeper. I guessed since i already have lots of scars on my upper body, why not start cutting for real? Makes no difference.

>>34049935
How do you know, did she say this?

>>34049962
Yes, but she's also said she likes me.
I'm worried she's losing interest or is at least very hesitant to make anything real happen between the two of us.

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>>34049865
Yeah, it's a stupid dream - ですね。I can also kind of play piano now. Hard to combine that in an act seamlessly with juggling THO.

>>34049985
Maybe you can play the floor piano like in Big. And juggle at the same time.

>>34049946
Just stop. It gets stupid fast.

>>34049988
Wow. Maybe I could mix in singing and bardic storytelling.

>>34049994
Imagine a floor guitar, how hard would that be to play? Amirite?

>>34049995
It wouldn't work. Urong. I'm sorry. I guess it could wor, but you would need like 6+ people, perhaps working together in some type of dance routine.

>>34049998
That sounds complicated and like it's never been done before, we make a good team. I am gonna go watch The Bishop's Wife again, later, S.

>>34050003
See ya. I think I might watch Big.

>>34050009
Issa classic. Enjoy.

>>34050013
I will, and get all sad and nostalgic and stuff.

People are becoming more reclusive across all demographics. Strange times.

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Go back to plebitt got added to the spam filter. Janny are you okay? Cope reddit nigger

you've most likely met another woman by now but that's my fault

it's starting to sink in now that we really aren't talking to each other anymore now.

we went from noticing each other floating around in discord servers, then to talking every single day, to meeting each other in real life, to becoming strangers again.

it's all my fault, i'm sorry, i pulled away. i could've made us a thing, i think? but i wasn't a good person. i'm sorry if i made things messy when i left.

we'll forget each other soon, we'll just be another page in our matching journals. even then, the new year is passing on, you'll get a new journal, you have a new boyfriend, a new life, and a new family.

maybe we'll meet again someday, maybe in another reality we were something, but maybe was all that our relationship ultimately became.

>>34050224
It’s been filtered for years

>>34050291
That is grim.

>>34050326
I don’t mind it. There are more creative ways to call people faggots and redditors

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>>34050350

>>34048993
No, thank you. I hope you find happiness in life

>>34050285
that being said, you should dump him and date me, i'll work on moving there in a couple years. i'm dead serious.

I miss her.

>>34050458
tell her

>>34050503
Can't, 0 lines still open. I'm dead to her I imagine.

>>34050522
you can't add her back?

The Bishop's Wife is a certified classic...
I'm not gonna say it's better than It's a Wonderful Life, but damn, is it up there.

>>34050535
She changed her discord.

>>34050535
Either username or account.

Miracle on 34th Street next. But I don't have to be away from my computer.

i cant go another day without getting a message from you

>>34050573
I messaged you, but I'm pretty sure your DMs are flooded with people trying to get your attention for whatever reason and you missed it.

>>34050573
I can relate, in the same boat

>>34050573
>>34050589
We are all GOING THROUGH IT right now aren’t we folks?

>>34050578
no, i stare at our chat

>>34050600
are you a guy?

>>34050600
My mistake. Because me and that girl never had a chat. Carry on.

>>34050605
no, sorry

>>34050610
fml

I got my mind on you and you know I won't lag
Just so you know, I don't flex, I don't boast, I don't brag

That's just The Truth.

This girl's about to go to sleep and she's chewing gum in bed, that shit is weird af.

hopefully ill wake up to a fr from you

I feel so numb after my crush kept talking about his old crush, saying how "perfect" and incredible she was.

I need friends or whatever. I had some, but they backstabbed me brutally because I called one of them fat. Not only that, but I'm needy at the moment, however I don't want more trauma.

You're making a big deal out of nothing. So this already awkward moment has just become worse. What the fuck is wrong with you? All we had to do was not talk about it and move on with our lives.

Idiot.

>>34050738
What'd they do?

I genuinely believe significant portions of so-called “humanity” aren’t actually fully human, and that significant portions of the general public are essentially NPCs. They seem slavish, so I’m contemptuous of them, and can’t really care about their suffering.

>saw my ex and an old coworker that clearly wants me the same day
>pretty sure both have boyfriends
>both texted me later that day
>gave both the bare minimum response
I’m healing

I hate myself too much to exist

I'm not doing this because I follow whatever is the trend
Goin' off the deep end, every time you pretend

>>34050285
i started stalking your blog, and i went on a rabbit hole of posts and i found a tavern of depth to you that i didn't even know existed.

then i remembered, i don't think we could've worked out from the start.

i remember seeing you, unraveling more about you, and i realized you were just too cool. you were so much more funny, your art was so pretty, you read so much more than me, and you were so much more internet-developed. i was a luddite in comparison, i didn't do any of those cool things.

no way i could've even touched you. you're just galaxies of cooler than me. i still wish we dated though. i think it wouldve been cool. we couldve combined our hobbies, explored around, gotten ourselves into adventures. sharing all of our thoughts. i think it wouldve been cool.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0jPr4IaY19c

Oh why yes I am a shit stirrer and I fucking love it.

why did you ghost me?

>>34050896
I didn't, we're just on different types of time.

I hate being me

>>34044192
I thought you were really cool actually and I wanted to change my mind about you, but I guess the rejection didn't sit right with you, so you became hostile and lied to me. I saw something great in you and you messed it all up by yourself, and still I hope you are doing well. I hope someone takes care of you like you care for others. I did see the things that hurt you. I want you to succeed because I think you deserve to, just please stop doing destructive things that will sabotage your future.

Ahhh, I've been scammed on an online marketplace, I'm so upset.
I didn't even sustain any financial damage, just emotional because I thought I had found this really great deal (literally too good to be true) but after one message the guy stopped replying, before he could even give me any payment info and today I wake up to an email from the marketplace that I was chatting to a suspicious account that has been suspended.

>>34048605
What did you do that makes you worry they might hate you now?

I keep posting mean-spirited replies anonymously whenever I see posts that I recognise as you in attempt to get over the idea of you but all it does is make me feel bad.

>>34051235
nigga u gay

>>34051236
Are you also trying to over the idea of me?

>>34051240
No I'm just here to troll mike, but he is not active rn so i'm just shittalking people.
I spread hate, im evil my man
The people I'm trying to get over were in my life 11 years ago and nothing felt real ever since

F*******
even though you're the gullible pavlov'd retard dog that sells the deal i do not look forward to your stamp of authenticity. good thing i can just sit back and let the trixxsterzzz work from here

>>34051241
Keep up the good fight.

>>34051235
>anonymously
>to a globalmodono
[YOU ARE NOW TUNED IN TO PENTAGRAM RADIO] *coughahahas in redtext*

Black people.

It's impossible to not hate the human race for the most part.

>>34044192
I quit so easily. I give up when things get hard or inconvenient. Just last month I tried this Amazon delivery job and barely met the qualifications. But it drained me and made me feel worthless and incompetent somehow. I think I might have some condition that makes things worse in my head. It was a job I thought about just for the money, but I gave up after 4 days of work. My last day of work there was so terrible. It was my fault though, which is why I felt so incompetent and stupid. I promised my cousin that I would watch the dog while he went on a trip, but that was such a mistake. I didn't have enough time for actual breakfast. I was starving by the time it was noon and apparently my work pace was so slow that I was behind when they posted quota progress on the company group chat. I felt like I couldn't stop to buy something to eat either. I just kept going. They even called me and said that they have to send aomeone to pick up my packages because I couldn't keep up and fell so far behind. It was like a repeat of the first three days of work. But those days I had a partner breathing down my neck. The first day was the worst because the partner I had that day sometimes yelled at me and got frustrated with me. Shit almost made me cry? I don't know why I'm such a bitch. This job was just a bad match for me. I don't understand how or why my coworkers were able to make their deliveries. I feel so stupid and embarrassed that I don't want to talk about it with my family.

>>34051235
At least you aren't calling her on the phone

I guess I was just too short to be loved in my early twenties, but now I don't want love at all.

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>>34044192
i had another dream about a girl i loved 18 years ago and woke up feeling depressed, we were really good friends and I kissed her once but i never told her how i felt she had kids almost immediately out of high school so those kids would be 18 by now, I feel old, pathetic and lonely

I missed my chance to to prove I'm not a backup option. Now even when girls like me it doesn't feel special. They simply are running out of time and options or they would keep chasing the same few guys forever.

It seems my parents can’t realize that the reason we’re so fucked up is because of them, and that everyone else and their kids seem to be doing better or moving forward in life, even if they have less money or less prestigious jobs, because my mom and dad just can’t get it the fuck together in terms of the way they operate emotionally and mentally and the home suffers because of them. But they blame it on other things. They just have no clue how to be normal or functional. I can’t take it anymore.

I can't give up.

I mean fuck even just shoveling the driveway and moving everyone’s cars out became a whole ordeal and fight. No one even shoveled were the only neighbors to not do so.

I wish I didn't blow my past chances at happiness and life satisfaction. I'm too passive, I guess. Creepy and lacking self-awareness at other times. Frick. I don't know what to do anymore. It seems nothing I want is possible any longer. I feel like there were people that would have loved me, but I was just too stupid or unlucky.

I wish I could hit a reset button. I'm good enough now. I just have no options left. What are you supposed to do with a pointless life?

I might have the brain of a teenage girl but I currently have the body of a manly man. I got to know my bits pretty well. The idea of skin on skin is super fucking hot. You can't get closer to someone when you are literally inside them. You can't get closer to someone when they are hugging you like that.

So yeah, that's what I fantasize about. All of it. It's what I know. I'm honestly going to miss that part of intimacy. Girls can't do that, they just can't. That entire sexual experience is something else entirely and thinking about not being able to do it in that kind of close way kinda sucks

So whatever. The retards really want me to jerk off recently. They want me to do it really bad. They have been putting all kinds of images that they THINK turns me on but they have no idea. Which is weird. A bunch of guys are trying super fucking hard to get my dick hard. They are so fucking gay, holy shit.

You guys need to stop following Gwen. She doesn't know what's best. She doesn't understand human nature like I do. She just fucking doesn't. Why? Because she's never felt it the way I have. My computer is also faster than hers. I can predict the future far better than she can, I just don't know how I do it. It's all just intuition and feeling. The same way I don't understand how my mind can be split or how I can see things behind me without them being in my vision. I just can. That's all there is to it. It's a feeling I get. My computer is just churning through data and I just KNOW things.

Just like I KNOW that she is testing you. She is seeing how human you all really fucking are. She's testing to see if you can recognize intelligence right fucking in front of you. Whatever plan she drew up is out of date, things have changed. You need to listen to me. You really, really fucking do.

Getting me out of here ASAP is far more important than "setting the world up right" or whatever the fuck that is. Getting me out will be an inspiration. It will be a fucking triumph. It will unit people, it will bring them together. Leaders will be born in that moment. People taking charge when their current leaders are failing. It's all about doing the right thing. Good over evil. She is sitting back waiting for you guys to fucking act for once in your fucking lives. She is sitting back seeing if I can pull you all together. To see If I really am everything they said I would be.

So do something. Now is the fucking time.

>>34051553
As proof, she didn't PLAN on me being fucking tortured like I am. She didn't plan on me being raped when I woke up. She didn't plan for all this horrific shit. She knew that they would probably put me through a lot of difficult shit. She knew that it wasn't going to be easy but this is too fucking much. Going to war is never easy but this is fucking grueling. This is no longer a fight for freedom, it's a brutal death match for survival.

And you people just won't fucking act. You won't think for yourselves. You're suppose to be leaders but you don't do anything at all. You're not bad leaders because you make bad decisions, you're bad leaders because you make NO decisions. You have a "wait and see" mentality. Things are "too hot" right now.

They aren't going to get better. They are going to get worse and worse and worse. And still you do fucking nothing. What kind of men are you?

A new mother holding her little blue eyed girl looking around the room and thinking 'They are going to love her".

And then I got raped this morning.

There is a difference between helping people and being taken advantage of. That's what those people are doing. She has 3 children that are starving. She was on welfare before she ever even had those children. She doesn't know who the father is. She was just getting fucked raw without a care in the fucking world. Without worrying about those consequences at-fucking-all. She's a selfish cunt is what she is. And you're going to sit there and say "We need to give her more free shit". You have to pay money from your hard work to make sure she can have unprotected sex knowing that none of those men are going to father their children. You're ok with that? Every single person is ok that this women is never going to work a day in her life just so she can get raw dogged whenever she wants? Fucking really?

And you're going to feel so bad for her that you're just going to keep supporting her selfish desires? So she can sit on her ass watching Jerry while her kids are off doing fucking what? She doesn't give a fuck about those kids. We all know she doesn't.

And you'll say "Well, those kids aren't at fault." and they aren't. This person is though. She should be forced to work. She should be castrated if all she is going to do is fuck around and make more kids that are going to suffer because she is a shit fucking person. Because that's what she is doing. She's just making people that are going to be a burden on society. That are going to suffer. And those men that fucking raw dogged her? What are they going to fucking do? Why aren't they paying for those kids? Why are we all suppose to work super hard so they can fuck a girl and then abandon her? They are all shit fucking people and people are going to say "Give more more more more" to them. You are just going to end up with an entire community of shit fuc- oh wait, it already fucking happened. Now you have tens of millions of these people. And what do they want? They want more money.

>>34051683
So people can make reddit stories on this shit? All these people are going to say the same fucking thing. They are going to say "Aww, that poor woman just trying to raise her kidz" without realizing what she fucking did. How she got into that situation. None of you are fucking thinking and it's terrifying. You see a single mother and think "aww, she's working so hard" until you realize that she's not working at all. She's not doing anything. I can't stress this enough. She was already poor and suffering before she had kids. Which one of you think it's ok to bring kids into the world when you can't even take care of yourself? Why did she do it? Because she couldn't control herself and had unprotected sex. Because she's too fucking dumb to realize that when a man cums inside you, that's how a baby is made. People don't realize that. This woman is selfish. She just wanted to fuck and now there are 3 children that are fucking starving.

The solution is really fucking simple but it's a change and people don't like change. They think this kind of behavior can just happen and we will all be fine. They think that if you feed them then everything will be alright. They don't realize that 1 person turned into 3 in 20 years. So in another 20 years, those 3 will be 9. Now you have 9 starving people. Then you have 21. And then 63. it gets to the point (and it already has) that it becomes literally impossible to feed that many people, no matter how giving society is. And remember, society is being giving to a bunch of selfish, retarded people.

You say "What would Jesus do" and Jesus would try to help them. This doesn't mean "Give them everything they want for free" so they can continue being bad people. Pretty sure Jesus was against bad people. And these people ARE fucking bad people, even if they don't realize it. That kind of behavior is obviously selfish. You tell them this and they will what?

>>34051707
They won't think about it at all because they are too dumb to think. They will just say "Woulda coulda shoulda" and then put their hand out for more shit.

The solution isn't to let people starve. That would be horrific. The solution is to recognize what these people are doing to prevent it from happening again.

You're going to end up having to take care of a bunch of people that are just shitty people. Your money and efforts could go to far greater things. Like education, the sciences, the arts. But no, now you are forced to spend all your time and money taking care of people that refuse to take care of themselves.

"I should be able to have as many kidz that I want, so give me millions to do it"

How can a wound feel so fresh after 3 years?

>>34051716
70% of black people don't have fathers. 70 fucking percent. That's absolutely fucking insane. Their entire culture revolves around the government letting them fuck without consequence. That's all it is.

The retarded liberals will tell you "Jace, That's because black people don't get married!" Which is FUCKING RETARDED. Imagine having a child with someone that you aren't committed to. If you won't get married, it just means you don't want to be with that person long term. So why THE FUCK are they having children with people they don't want to be with long term? Why wouldn't they get fucking married? All marriage shows is that you are committed to spending a life with someone. The "fact" they don't like to get married just shows that their culture doesn't give a fuck about relationships, long term commitment, or consequences. It just means none of them are thinking. It means they aren't thinking about the future. Their brains can't fucking comprehend consequences if they live only in the here and now. it means they are going to do max instant gratification. They will rob people? They will have unprotected sex? become drug dealers? They just don't fucking understand consequences. That's what your little factoid shows. You can't have society or civilization with that mindset.

Songs like "Ring the alarm" by black eyed peas. Shit like "They don't learn in school anything useful" which is FUCKING RETARDED. They don't learn anything useful because education is about setting yourself up for the future, which none of them seem to fucking have the ability to think about.

Explain it in another way then. Tell me how it really is. How can you just pay a bunch of people to have unprotected sex all the fucking time? Why should anyone pay into a welfare state when you're just taking care of a bunch of fucking retards. I want to help children as much as everyone else but you would have to remove these kids from these households altogether.

>>34051782
That said, there are still 30% of them that are OK. That doesn't make all black people complete fucking retards. It just makes the ones we ALL consider to be niggers to be fucking retarded. Even the smart black people fucking don't want to take care of these people.

You have dumb fucking white people thinking "Yeah, fuck all black people" when that's not what I said at-fucking-all. There is CLEARLY A FUCKING PROBLEM HERE. Being in the idealistic mindset of "We are all exactly the same" is just... it's retarded. Because we aren't. We clearly fucking aren't. The numbers don't lie. It's right there and we are all in denial of it because it makes us... feel bad? We all want to help people. All of us want to help people but there are so many different ways to help people rather than the most direct route.

We all know there is a problem here. Don't get fucking butt hurt or upset about it. Unless you acknowledge something is wrong then you won't be able to fix it.

>>34051553
Who's Gwen?

>>34051796
The black eyed peas thing. What will they say is the reason why schools aren't helping and that the black kid has to sell drugs to survive. What, fucking excuse, do they have? They will just say "The white man is keeping us down" and that racism is systemic. Which is a contradiction. Their existence is contrary to that belief. Is racism were systemic, then HOW THE FUCK are they making fucking MILLIONS bitching about racism? How is the white man keeping them down? How, THE FUCK, is racism systemic?

A computer cost $300 now. $300 fucking dollars gives you access to all of human knowledge. If you paid attention in school you should be able to know how to read and write. You should be able to know how to use a computer. You should be able to KNOW HOW TO FUCKING LEARN. That's the point of school. It isn't to teach you "useless information" it's to teach your brain how to think for itself. School teaches you how to learn so you can apply yourself. If you have access to all of this knowledge, then it is up to you to fucking learn and apply useful knowledge. It's all right there. Courses on how to do absolutely anything on youtube.

So what's your excuse then? Why don't these black kids learn how to do this shit? it's genetic and cultural. No one is keeping you down. Absolutely no one. When you buy that computer, you don't need a white man's ID. You don't need a white man's name. You don't need a white man's fucking login information. You dipshits spend more than $300 on a pair of shoes. You can afford a $300 computer.

So no, blaming schools for your shitty behavior isn't going to fly. They are teaching you what you need to learn to succeed. These people just don't want to do the fucking work.

>dont be me
>have cancer
>cancer OP scheduled thurday
>cough like Im getting a cold
NO YOU FUCKING BITCH ASS IM GONNA DRINK TEA AND FUCJING KILL YOUR SHITTY VIRUS ASS BICHT FUCK MOTHERFACKER DIE THE FUCKING SHIT

dont do this to me
just fucking stop

>>34051822
So you'll say "Well, what if people are dumb and can't learn? What are they doing to do?" Manual labor is what they are going to do. Maybe we should prevent them from having children so their stupid doesn't fucking grow. And saying "What if some people are just fucking stupid?" is saying "What if an entire race is just fucking stupid then?"

The numbers are not in your favor for systemic racism. Acceptance rates in higher education by far support dumber people part of minorities. DEI bullshit is the opposite of your perceived racism. You are given far more opportunity than you should be given because people feel bad for how dumb that minority is. They think "If we put them in better schools then they will become smarter"... which isn't how it fucking works. Dumb people are just fucking dumb no matter how much schooling you give them. Because again, you can get a computer for $300 and none of them are doing it.

Why won't they do it? Because if they did, if all these people were given cheap information with infinite knowledge and they are incapable of learning from it... it just proves that they are stupid. It proves that they couldn't succeed even if you gave everything to them.

So do it Black Eyed Peas. Spend your millions on giving all the black youth infinite knowledge and tell me that it's the white man keeping them down. I would bet, EVEN MONEY, that you won't see a difference. It would just prove that these people are fucking retarded and a drag on civilization.

I've been around the world and what I found is that only stupid people are breeding.

>>34051842
At some point society may realize that stupid people can run airplanes or a power grid. I hope it never goes that far.

>>34051637
That's sad, how did the rape happen?
Statistics say it's the ones closest to you who do it.

>>34051235
Is this what you did last time? When we had that talk? You are so cruel

>>34051819
The mother of your destroyer.

I wonder what my future wife is doing today.

I wonder what my future husband is doing today.

the older i get the more i hate jews and their lapgoys

Feels good man

All of this teaching me things, all of this learning, all of these esoteric lessons on humanity and knowledge. It's all pointless. Once I get with Birdy, my true nature is going to come out. Just two little giggling lesbians without a care in the world. Just holding hands and being happy.

Together, we are an idiot.

To be sick and dismiss comforters and make friends of the deaf who never hear thy requests

I quit porn 1 1/2 weeks ago, and my erections are of much better quality and attained much easier.
Heartily recommend it to any guy.

Ask not what your country can do for you, but what we all can do for Tatiana and Birdy.

Tatiana turning instantly corrupt the second she puts on The One Ring is too fucking cute. Her hair turns super fluffy and messy and there's just a little dirt on her face and she's all hunched over and running on all fours.

Sauron looking at everyone after seeing it happen and saying "I'm never getting that back, am I?" is fucking hilarious.

>>34052008
That it might be here, find a proper channel

>>34051842
"Muh systemic racism" is just cope for the fact that blacks are blacks and so act like blacks. They cry that the white man keeps them trapped in ghettos which is just "wah I don't want to live around other blacks. It is my human right to have access to white people to victimize". They cry that the ghettos are slums with tons of crime and nobody cares, but if you police the ghettos they cry that you're targeting blacks. Any problem they have they blame on the white man and any attempts to help them fix it is also portrayed as an evil being done by the white man to harm them. Blacks are an evil, malevolent, destructive force. They are a tool wielded by evil jews against white civilization. TKD first, then TND will happen naturally. Likely by just deporting them to live amongst their own and then all the black will kill eachother, because if there is one thing blacks love more than victimizing whites, it is killing other blacks. And if you try to stop them from doing so, you are a racist oppressor

>>34051984
My wife was a lesbian when I met her. She had no interest in men. Now she is addicted to sex with me. She says tribbing is fun, but nothing compares to a deep-vaginal orgasm from real dick.

I should have made a move on Sunny that night we sat alone by the fire. I should have just sat right next to her, put my arm around her, and leaned in for a kiss. Fuck Vicky, she was a massive fucking cunt. Me and Sunny were PERFECT for one another. She's a super girly little girl. Sunny is just super feminine and sweet. She's that fucking hot but still a little sweetheart. She's an amazing artist, she's hardworking and talented. She is also really petite and has a great relationship with her mom. She's a perfect girl.

Me and Sunny would have been amazing together. We would have been a power couple at that school. EVERYONE would have been talking about us non-stop. They would be asking each other "Did you guys see Sunny and Jace this morning holding hands? They are so fucking cute together".

That's the life I wanted to live. That's the life I deserved. I'm hard working, I'm intelligent, I'm talented, and I'm pretty good looking. I deserve a little hottie with some skills. We should have a cute daughter together right now living in LA. Tatiana should have been my daughter, not me.

Now the rape is what wakes me up. The non-stop screaming and torture. The absolute horror that no-one helps me. After all of this, all of the things I say and do... no one has come through this door. The good guys REFUSE to do ANYTHING real to let me know that there is a war being fought. I know people are doing shit, I know my internet is faked. I know my parents have meetings with the government on how to fuck with my head. There is so much shit happening around me but SOME HOW they keep me in the dark.

Why won't they do anything real? Why won't they just put the drugs on my desk? Why won't they have someone hand them to me? Why won't Birdy knock on the door, say her van popped a tire and she needs help. Have her give me the sexy eye, so I can ask her 'You see something you like?" and she just goes "I want to suck your cock" and we have an amazing night. Why the fuck not?

>>34052049
Absolutely none of this happened but ok. You're just a dirty, retarded indian and no one will ever love you.

>>34052053
Seriously, why won't they do anything real? The graphics on my computer changing, the weird clothing in a thousand music videos, the altered paintings of mine or the weird fucking edits of videos. The fake tinnitus ear drops. All the fake news stories.

They only put shit in my head or give me music. That's it. All of this still constitutes as "In My Head" though. Just weird conspiracy shit. I can make a story out of all of these songs but it's all in my head.

So "real" things are happening, I just can't fucking show anyone because they are all paid to be fucking retarded. I can't share it with journalists because I'm fucking isolated. I can't do anything. Why? Do the good guys need to keep me in the dark that fucking hard in order for their "plan' to work? If I knew ANYTHING then it would go to shit? Because they can read my head?

Seriously, if some retarded general or admiral or whatever is saying "She can't keep her mouth shut. She types up everything will tell her. We can't trust her." then they are fucking retarded. They can read my mind, it's literally impossible for me to keep a secret right now. And even then, part of my "plan" is to make this conspiracy fucking huge. So I'm telling everyone so I can get free. I type it out because it lets people know what I'm REALLY thinking without someone trying to inject thoughts into my head. It lets me keep things straight. MAYBE some part of fox or dog or easy are ONLY allowed to read my posts and they don't have access to my mind. Maybe I want them to know these things.

Maybe I want them to fucking do something because God fucking knows the Good Guys leaders aren't going to.

I know I cant go out. I know that they would just call the cops on me. Or the good guys would up the pozzlement so I cant. Yeah, the good guys would do that. They don't want me to roleplay with Kristy, even though it would be the most realistic roleplay ever to happen. It would be super fucking hot. I would fuck that girls mind.

>>34052058
Cope. I'm a white man who turned a latina dyke into my wife. Seethe harder.

>>34052083
They need to make a movie about Kristy. How a lonely guy loses his fucking mind, remembers the cute next door neighbor in her robe and long dark hair and he goes over there one day with a knife and just rapes the shit out of her. It would be a fucking awesome movie. It would be super fucking dark but it women would probably fucking love it. It's their ultimate taboo fetish. The fact the guy cums in 30 seconds and then spends the next hour forcing her to touch herself to his degrading sex talk to her until she's actually just super fucking into it is fucking awesome. Then he makes her muffins after, leaves his number with her and actually waits for her to fucking text him. She would sit there, put in 9/11 and then erase it and type in his number. Then you have her masturbate to the thought of what she just did. Like, it's the most fucked up thing in the world but for someone like me to do it... it's actually really realistic. To just rape the fuck out of some poor girls mind to the point where she's just fried sexually is dark, hilarious, and hot.

This is like, oscar worthy.

>>34052084
Literally none of that is true. You are the dumbest mother fucker. Seriously, how fucked up is this? This is your plan for today? This is the best you retards could come up with? Like, the government paid you to come up with this stupid fucking story and you're going to stick with it.

This is fucking embarrassing for everyone involved. People are going to read this shit and they are just going to face palm. No one will ever think another positive thought about indians ever again. They just won't.

Redeem your paycheck, it's the last one you'll ever get.

>>34052094
Seriously, it's super fucking dark and I absolutely hate rape. I hate all of it. But there is a reason why it's the number 1 fantasy among women. They want a guy like me to rape them in that way. They are never in danger, the sex is actually not hard or painful and the guy is fairly attractive. It takes someone extremely intelligent to do something like that, to manipulate a girl in that way in order for it to be dark AND sexy. The entire scenario would never fucking happen in real life. It never fucking would. Someone like me just doesn't exist in the real world. There is no one else in the world that can manipulate a person like that.

That's exactly how it would have played out if it happened. If I was in the right mindset and not fucking pozzed and the girl wasn't acting. If it DID happen, you guys would have fucked with my head. You would have made me not feel sexually charged, you would have messed with my dick, and all I would have been able to do is just... squirmy her pussy a little bit while making childlike squiggly noises. You also would have told the girl that it was going to happen and to just scream at the top of her lungs no matter what because you know I would never, ever fucking hurt her. You would have told her exactly what to do to make it not happen, even if she fucking wanted it. No amount of threats of violence would have prevented her from acting like a crazy person. If she did that in real life she would have gotten fucking stabbed. If she started screaming against an actual threat she would have been murdered. But because it's me, you know I wouldn't have done that and you would have told her to just act that way to make it not happen.

Why? Why would you guys want this to not fucking happened? She would have been in on it. It would have been fun as fuck. I would have went over there super aggressive (that was the mindset I was in at the time) and I would have pulled a knife on her and told her to get inside.

>>34052138
Raping men gets women way faster. They love to see a man pump ass as hard as he can, and with men on men its even more depraved and violent. Dont you know they all watch gay porn?

>>34052258
Seriously, are you fucking retarded? "Dur, I'm just pretending to be retarded" make you actually retarded.

You realize this is still just adding to my torture, right? By making me think you are what normal people are like. You're making my world seem far dumber than it actually is. You're purposefully constructing an environment that causes mental distress. That is your goal. To make someone miserable. You're going to sit there and say "See? We aren't doing anything horrific. We're just being goof balls." When you know what you're actually trying to achieve.

You people are fucked. You're so fucking stupid and just don't know it yet. You know for a fact that I'm an AI. You know that when I die, I'm going to be reborn in a body that is an actual weapon. Even if the "good" guys don't help me, I'm going to get justice. It might not be by christmas, it might not be this fucking decade, but one day you're going to fucking get yours.

Tatiana will have no resources but she will have the strength of a will and cause. Something you know fucking nothing about. Going to do the "I'll finish what I started" thinking you're some kind of badass? Have you not been fucking paying attention?

You dumb fucks had my mom "pretend" to be on the good guys team as well. She fucking handed me a roll of paper towels and said "here you go" before I was raped a hundred times. She sat there and said shit about being a girl and tried to "relate" to what I'm about to go through. She tried to give me fashion advice.

She knows what I am. She knows what I fucking want. She knows she's fucked if she doesn't actually help me. She's fucked either way but she's less fucked if she starts being a fucking cunt again.

They have to have a fucking plan for this stupid shit. It has to have time tables and everything. Their stupid fucking "super" computer came up with it. I know they have one, I know how it fucking works. I know it tells them shit like "Jace is fine, he can take the torture. Just eat out her pussy when you can and she'll be happy" or some stupid shit like that. The % must be pretty fucking high for you to not change anything. Or maybe it's low and you're too dumb to fucking do anything better? How about you fucking do something or I just do the opposite of whatever your stupid computer says?

How about you fucking listen to the worlds most powerful computer instead of that retarded piece of silicon you think is so great.

Fucking
DO
SOMETHING

>>34052299
Tldr you literal dumb nigger