i have been going to this psychiatrist for a couple of years but nothing really changed on the inside while i grew more composed on the outside so i seem more stable. i feel like i can't play pretend for much longer and that things only get worse. i still have the same mindset that got me to him in the first place but unlike when i first got there its not obvious anymore. How do i bring this up to him without it looking like a random episode? every online screening i take tells me to get help asap so if i put things straight it should be obvious to him but i talk rarely and with very few people so i have no idea how to break this to him. how do explain this? how do i start this conversion? i think of these terrible things so often but when im im the clinic i just get all polite and don't say anything...
>>34052469Dude, just say it. Psychiatrists have heard people say things a million times more fucked up than that. They are unshockable. Just say it all, straight out.
>>34052546the first words are what troubles me. i don't know how to start it. usually i just enter the office and he greets me and we waste 40 minutes of time. i can't think of a way to start it without my head killing itself from embarrassment. i don't know why its like this. the very first time he started the topic and it was fairly easy for me to follow up.
>>34052469"There's something I want to talk about today...."
>>34052469I have a very similar issue where things just get worse and worse but because I am too used to therapy and too good at masking to bring it up, and every time I try it doesn't come out right and they don't take me seriously. Have you tried therapy before? Although I am sounding negative about it, some people find it easier to talk to them about things since you see them more often then psychiatrists and they have a different focus.
>>34052593Print out the OP in this thread and read it to him.
