What I mean by the subject is quite simple: I have a habit of cycling through hobbies in chunks of 1 month or more and it drives me insaneThis, coupled with a good amount of procrastination and other distracted habits like fapping lead me to having feelings of wasted timeIt’s not as if I literally do nothing with my time, but I know that I could be doing moreThe thing is, the hobbies or goals I want to do in my spare time (language study, drawing, reading, gaming, anime — some of these could be interlinked) aren’t even really “possibilities” in my mindIt’s not as if I go to bed thinking “man…another day without doing X” but I feel like they should be. If I were to be the person I envision myself being then I should be the sum of my parts, with these being the parts I mentioned procrastination before but it’s less that and more about the feelings of fog, lack of awareness, nothing concrete planned daily, cycling through focuses on monthly or longer basisI know using your time efficiently feels good as I experienced quite recently for about two months after banning social media but now I have 180dIs it habit or willpower, or willpower to form habits and change the person you areCan the mind be manipulated greater through banning things and prevention or through striving towards something and willpowerRecognizing the worthlessness of doing nothing and especially doomscrolling isn’t enough to inspire actionWell etc etc text limit and all that
>>34054523Write shit down. The more you write, the more you will do things that bring it all together. Many great people in history left crap for us to read.. Writing was invented for performing magic.
The cycling is fine. That's just your type of personality and you don't get anything out of committing years of your life to a single thing (if you really did think it's worth it you would have done it), not everyone is meant to do that.As for procrastination yeah it sucks but that's probably mostly because you're punishing yourself for not fitting the mold you imagined for yourself and you obviously don't want to continue doing what you don't wanna do. Shoulds in this context are fake and only sound good on paper but reality and doing it is different. If you removed the guilt you'd be able to double down on your tendency to cycle and be happier doing it. Also if it really is just a general distraction remind yourself that it's all algos designed to waste your life away on them and that you would not miss a single thing if you never looked at them again.
>>34054702Writing is writing, can be useful or useless depending. But it was indeed invented to preserve things to allow building bigger things
>>34054523I do thisNow I'm in my late 30s and I'm finally getting pretty good at all sorts of things and with each cycle through the myriad hobbies, I do cooler and cooler shit. Branching into synergies and new things with the skills and knowledge from other hobbies.Its a peaceful life. You won't ever reach the heights reached by those who specialize, but you'll understand them,and you'll always have something to talk about and something fresh to try.Keep a journal. I keep slacking on it but it's helpful.
To do lists my dude.I've travelled my entire country (sure it's only the size of US mid size state) but still.Managed to never miss an appointment or forget anything of importance in years.
I haven’t read any replies yet at work so I will bump for now
>>34054523sexo miyutan
>>34054912In all honesty, I think it really comes down to just eliminating shitty outside distractions for good and my mind will meld back to normalI can probably accept a little bit of the cycling I mentioned and realize I can’t do everything every single day (I can but not infinitely)But I dunnoThis is less me not having time to do the things I want to do and more me wanting to shake myself into an idealized version of myself - I don’t have an intrinsic desire to do things, but, I do enjoy doing them kore than anything elseImagine being content with having a flatline 7/10 happiness vs striving for a 9 or 10/10Does that make sense?It’s mostly just juggling hobbies and study and sometimes a mix of both and truly I think social media is what gets in the way of, at the very least, having more time and CERTAINLY a clearer mind that actually resembles being conscious, so I’ll start there (again. This worked for me back in September - October but I stopped in November)
>>34054523Just say iz wot it iz m8 everytime the thought appears
>>34059936Yooooo
>>34054523Damn she has great boobs
>>34060125Indeed she doesIt’s a good eye catch for an OP
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>>34055183Doesn’t seem very motivating
>>34054702Perhaps this could be usefulBut also doing this daily seems oddMaybe plan things in a weekly manner?Idk
Well I have another three day weekend since I saved my vacation time for years end hopefully I don’t waste it
finally banned social media again idk if it is a cause or prolongation of these inactive moods
