Im 18 and I’ve only worked at one restaurant before, as an intern doing a bit of everything (deliveries, waiting tables, cleaning, baking). I wasn’t scared when I started, just anxious, of courseBut now I’m going in for a trial shift at a Japanese restaurant, and I don’t even know what my role will be yet (it won’t be in the kitchen, so I’ll probably be waiting tables again or something like that)And I’m terrified. I’m so anxious and I feel like crying (I’m not usually someone who cries under this much stress, but here I am). I don’t know if it’s because what I went through at my previous restaurant was traumatic, my boss was an impatient guy and I was clumsy when serving tables, but I’m panickingHonestly, I can’t afford not to try because I desperately need a job. My senile grandmother is kicking me out of the house and I’m still in high school, so I’m pretty screwedI don’t know what to do. I don’t know where this anxiety is coming from. I’m fucking terrified they’ll reject me. I don’t know how to calm down, and I can’t sleep. It’s just a trial shift, but it’s been agonizing because it’s the only place that called me back out of all the résumés I handed out. Actually, I didn’t even drop off a résumé at this restaurant, the manager and I only know each other because of family birthday parties, and he asked my aunt for my numberHonestly, I just wish I could get a job as a stock clerk, without having to deal with people or expectations, but this is urgent. Still, it feels desperate. I was humiliated so badly before, and the restaurant pace was intense. From the Google review photos, this place looks slower, which eases my stress a bit. More than just being rejected, I’m scared of doing something humiliating and embarrassing again like what happened before. I’ve never been this cowardly and anxious. I think I’m a messed-up guy. I need comfort, advice, anything to help me calm down
>>34061916I’m not going to read this until you calm down.
