Hello guys, Back again. I would like to thank you guys regarding helping me with the sin of lust. I am doing better in this respective and slowly reducing how much I relapse over time. Your advice really helped.However, Since then a new issue has arisen. Its to do with general feeling of dismay over the state of the world. It seems however hard I try I still sin. That its pushed upon you by society to sin. Its really a struggle to keep inline with christ. It feels as if I will go to hell no matter what I do. That as much as I repeant and try I am destined for the hot place. What has resulted me hating quite simply all of modern society and peoples. It feels as if as close as I try to be better. I will never be good enough to be forgiven and allowed into the kingdom of god. So I have been having the thought of how great martydom would be since would be sacrafice that shows I give my life to my creator. I know this is not a good mindset. It feels as if antichrist has already won. That when I go to heaven christ will say he never know me due to my sinning. How do you guys attempt to live a christian life style in this day and age ? When it feels as if everything is engineered to make you fail.
