Up until a few years ago I really enjoyed my life. I was extremely athletic and all my passions and goals were athletic or physical. Three and a half years ago I got a lifechanging injury (I did bad damage to one of my legs) and spent a long time under medical care, they took really good care of me and I got the best care but my life is different now. It's not a bad life, but I absolutely cannot do what I used to be able to do, and unless medical science makes some big leaps, I won't ever. In all this time I never have adjusted. I'm so much more depressed, my baseline is so much worse, I sometimes just sit and wonder why anybody bothers being alive. I'm at the point now that I had a recent health "scare" and the only thought I had about it was, "Well, at least I'll be back in the hospital." And that's so pathetic. But at least when I was in the hospital I didn't have to pretend that everything was great. I could just sit there and be like a baby being coddled or whatever. Now I'm supposed to be in a good mood about life or else I'm just fucking everything up. Oh try therapy. Yeah I tried therapy. What are they going to do? Nothing that helped, that's for sure. Oh, but you'll find a new purpose in life. What could that possibly be?? I'm not good at anything else and I don't care about any of these gay ass hobbies. What is the point?? How do I find something else to live for?? What is the use, who cares???
Rotator cuff injury here, horizontal tear across 3 of 4 shoulder ligaments. It's hard. It's so so challenging to adapt.However it's not over. Did you get nerfed? Yes, no doubt.Did it take you out of the game? No, not fully. You may not get to the extraordinary standard you had before but that doesn't mean you can't get close back to it. You just need to reset and train like you did when brand new but with less intensity. It's never truly over, there will be good days and there will be very bad ones that make you wanna end it all, but end of the day we are human. We adapt. If we choose to.Choose to adapt and grow, maybe even pivot into something totally new to keep it freshNext time try a bomb with a longer fuse or send in a child soldier Farfour.
>>34071049I'm glad you understand, I hope you have healed well, good luck.>Next time try a bomb with a longer fuse or send in a child soldierWhat do you think I am, a coward!?!?
>>34071012>Oh, but you'll find a new purpose in life. What could that possibly be??You won't know until you start looking.
>>34071049Based advice, arguably one of the most based ive read on here in a while.
Athletics r boringJust do something elseBuild somethin instead of just runnin' around
>>34071108That's true, but I have been looking and haven't found it yet. Maybe I just have to keep looking, I guess it's my only choice but I wonder if you can find one so late. Most people have an idea what they value and love from quite a young age, I certainly did. Currently I have a job, I live alone, I pay all my bills and everything. I don't have any real problems except this, which just manifests as a minor disability. I feel like I have everything. I even go on dates and things like that, I'm not lacking for anything. I just feel like I have nothing in particular to work on. And that's what makes it so bad, none of this makes me happy because I've lost that thing that really did give my life its color and meaning and purpose. Nowadays I feel like all I do is kill time. I know probably there is something else out there I'll really care about. I just wish I had any idea what that would be so I could just find it.
>>34071249People find new careers. Matt Smith was going to be a professional footballer until he fucked up his knee.Also, most professional athletes are having to look for other things to do by the time they turn 40, even if they don't get injured first. What was your long term plan?
>>34071012Were you like world league athletic? You probably didn't lose as much identity as you think if your identity was based around trying your best. You can still develop your neural network to be athletic and skilled.
>>34071271I didn't have THAT long term of a plan, I got hurt only about a month after my 19th birthday, so I wasn't thinking about what I would do when my body started deteriorating from age, it was/is just so far away. Honestly I just never thought about it. I'm sure it would have been hard in my 40s too, probably the same thing as now, just later on.>>34071275No I wouldn't probably have been record breaking level or anything. I don't know if I'd say world class either. I was an ultra distance runner. My strength was endurance. I could run for a very very long time. I would have been within the middle of the pack of anything I had run, I was average. When I got hurt I was scheduled for my first race which would have been shortly after my injury.I know I was never going to be famous or have my own Wikipedia page or anything. I was not going to go to the Olympics. I was going to be one of the other hundred people. But I cared about being one of those people. I liked it. I was proud of it.
>>34071305You possibly can still compete then or again pick a different sport if it is actually impossible, as I said. I won't pretend I wouldn't freak out a lot but I would keep just developing myself. I have a poorly healed broken thumb (from skiing) and practice piano, for instance.
>>34071012op is a feral nigger who found out kekimagine the only purpose of your life is being a monke
>>34071397It's true, only black people are in shape, or compete in sports. You're quite wise
>>34071305Have you thought about coaching?
>>34072565To be honest, I can't really bear to see other people enjoy these things. It makes me angry. I prefer not to engage with it. And, I'm also quite young. Maybe one day, but not now.
