How do you fix this? I'm also pretty convinced I'll never really have satisfying sex.I've both had sex before and been in a relationship, yet for the other person, I felt nothing by the end of it and I doubt myself whether I truly loved them at all because of how unbalanced our relationship was.I truly want to love and be loved but I think it's just never going to happen. I'm already on the path to become a shut-in, in any case. Just kinda sucks and I want to be positive but battling those depressing thoughts is really difficult and crappy.I don't know what to think. I'm just entering my 20s and I don't want to piss them away. I'm not sure whether I should hook up with someone or installing...Tinder or whatever, going on dates, I don't know really. I'm not a virgin but I still feel really inexperienced with romance and sex, just kinda going nowhere with it. But even then, I think to myself, if I really had someone, my jealousy problems and maybe my depression and stuff would come to the forefront. I'm going to see a psychiatrist about that and possible BPD but it's just like, a frustration of mine (mostly sexual).I can jerk off and I'm perfectly happy with it but man, I really just miss that intimacy. It's kind of pathetic in a way. My brain thinks about sex too much because it's biologically programmed to seek out sex and it makes me frustrated so it can nudge me to keep on searcing for it. But even if I had more of it, I don't think anything would truly change, would it? I've had bad sex (and some good times, I guess) before and a middling okay relationship but I don't think it was true love. I still long for something more, to experience more of that because I'd feel really shitty if this was my last time experiencing something like that in life.The lonely feelings get even worse during the holidays since it's really cold and the days are shorter. Don't really know what to do with myself.
>>34072746as someone who turned 20 just like 2 months or so ago i can relate to you. i feel very sexual as well but i had a relationship around the second half of the year that meant a lot to me, even though nothing came out of it and we're in a weird spot now, plus it was e-dating so i guess if you're one of those people that think that stuff is lame then yeah there's that too. i think the main thing to remember is that the beginning of our life is happening now if anything, especially if you're still in uni or in your early 20s in general unless you have some money or luck. we shouldn't judge what will happen or what we should do. we're barely adults now, cute subahibi cg nonny i always loved this part of the game.
>>34073265brainfarted here on "what we should do" you should of course keep yourself accountable for shit but what i was trying to say is basically we can't read the future. as a fellow shut in living in a shithole i plan to move out of here eventually once im done with uni, since that was always a big factor in a lot of stuff including the downfall of my relationships which i really fucking hate. keep your head up nonny. just try and do your best
>>34073296also i dont know where you live but if there's conventions and stuff for things you like you should try and go out to see them. i don't have anything like that going on where i live but if you do have the chance give it a shot and socialize. dont think of them as partners, make friends and then see what comes after. isolation ruins a person in many ways. t. person with no irl friends
>>34073265I also had a sort of e-dater type situation but I did visit him and we did have physical contact and hung out together irl.And yeah, I really like DTRH I and II, they're very cute parts if you don't know anything that happens afterwards and after you finish the story, you look on with a sort of fondness on them.
