I do stuff like go to my friends’s therapy sessions, hug them when they need comfort, etc. But it’s a very logic based kind of empathy? they need X so I give Y. I can’t emotionally connect like I used to. I had BPD, been in remission for like a year and a half or so? So I used to be overly empathetic that I’d just spend nights crying trying to figure out how to help friends. But it never actually helped anyone so logically I’m beter now. But my friends seem to find me a little cold.That said when I forget to take my meds for 4 days (adhd bullshit) I start randomly bursting into tears from the thought of bad things happening to loved ones. And then laughing while still crying when my friends say something lol. It’s very draining, like my head hurts because I’m not used to crying. But It’s not like it annoys my friends? They just find it funny and say I should take my meds less often.I want to stop them so I can be more human again but I’m scared I’ll start feeling negative emotions more strongly too? I don’t have any therapy to fall on if it goes wrong, and I know my GP isn’t gonna help me emotionally lol, so it feels risky. I know I’m going to get jumped for the BPD stuff but lol
>>34073850>That said when I forget to take my meds for 4 days (adhd bullshit)adhd is caused by parasites and toxins and it curable
please talk to your fucking doctor who prescribed this shit to you and not to retarded schizophrenics on 4chan
>>34073850>I know I’m going to get jumped for the BPD stuff but lolNah I’m not gonna jump you. I think that your fears are correct, if you stop the meds your emotions will crank up in intensity. And you already know what BPD means, it means the ‘volume’ which you feel emotions is 200% higher than everyone else around you. Extremely high, and that counts for all emotions, the good the bad the in between. That’s one of the core traits of BPD among other traits. Now the problem with BPD is not the intensity of emotion, even though that will very much feel like a big problem to you since you suffer with it. The problem happens when someone with BPD has not yet got therapy or got diagnosed, it’s when they have 200% volume emotions non stop and they react at 200% Their behaviours become 200%. And then you know how that goes, relationship problems happen and all that. So the point is: Maybe it’s okay to let yourself feel at 200% intensity. So long as you choose heathy outlets and ways to express those intense feels, then you can still get to enjoy functional relationships + keep your authentic part of you, which is hypersensitivity.Which you can turn into a gift btw. You should try and get into acting or theater. That hypersensitivity and being able to feel emotions at max volume = you get to perform emotions very convincingly
>>34073919Can’t lol, I maxxed out my time at the place I go to and they can’t bring me back in. BPD isn’t even in my medical records anymore. Just RDD which doesn’t really fit either because I’ve been very happy go lucky besides a day or two lol. If i wanna see another psychiatrist just for this, I gotta sit on a waitlist for a couple months. I’m running out of the year long amount of SSRI’S my last psychiatrist gave me before I left, so that’s why I’m considering quitting now.>>34073939Thank you anon:) I’ve been through therapy. 3-4 appointments per week for a year. One of those being a group thing. The 1.5 year remission is since I stopped going. I haven’t had any major fallbacks ever since. But it’s def my meds helping me, being able to stay clear headed. I want to hope that I’ve healed enough to learn how to properly cope. The fear of regressing is pretty daunting thoughI’m just kinda dumping my thoughts here desu, needed a place to anonymously share my worries>>34073905anonchi I don’t have autism lol, my adhd isn’t too bad too. I don’t take meds for it (Mainly because it’s not covered and expensive as shit.) I just need 500 alarms for everything, but with that I’m fine lol
>>34074063>I want to hope that I’ve healed enough to learn how to properly cope. The fear of regressing is pretty daunting though.I hear ya. I got cptsd in remission and some antisocial tendency. I also fear that regression too especially now that I’ve got a life going. Would be crazy to blow it all up at random. But nah I don’t think you got anything to worry about. Last I checked, regression only occurs if you are faced with the same or similar stressful environs or crazy life events that had shaped your former BPD to begin with. Then it could come back, but even then I wouldn’t panic because chances of that are slim & you have control to avoid things in life that could cause that and dodge them in advance. And I hear remission 2.0 happens faster than 1.0, so you can get back on the saddle again. Good luck and congratulations for fighting the good fight and living to tell the tale. Mustve been real hard work and I respect your struggle
>>34074100Thank you:)) wishing you the best too!! Didn’t expect such a happy interaction on /adv lol. Yeah my situation is a LOT better now. Thanks for giving me hope ^^ I’ll probs go through a just in case remission plan with close friends
