It all went downhill after corona hit during my 8th grade year. That’s when my internet addiction actually went crazy. Instead of listening to classes I was just playing video games, barely doing homework. I almost failed that year.The next year was still online but I didn't even bother joining the calls anymore. I just spent the whole time watching youtube, twitch, and staying up late jorking it to hentai. Obviously they held me back to repeat the year, but this time I had to go physically. I lasted one month before I dropped out. I literally just felt stupid, like I couldn't pay attention or remember a single thing they taught, like I actually fried my brain or something. Everything was boring and I just couldn't care. Plus I felt ugly and super socially anxious so I just couldn't handle being perceived by people.My mom is very sweet but she kinda enabled me, she never really got mad or forced me to do anything. It's just us two living alone. My dad was never present in my life, he just sent 100 eur a month until I turned 18 and that was it.Since dropping out my life is literally just: wake up, pc/phone, sleep when tired. My hair has grown super long and I barely go outside. I have 0 friends. I shower, change clothes, and brush my teeth like once every 3 weeks. I don't help with dishes or cleaning. My sleep schedule is completely random, sometimes I crash at 2am, sometimes 4am, wake up in the afternoon. I just eat whatever my mom makes.I honestly don't even know where to start. If you were me, what is the literal first thing you would do tomorrow?
>>34074671Finish high school, go to the gym, get a job or go to college, work on your hygiene, try to make friends even if it's awkward.Minimize or cut out videogames, porn, and mindless videos.Thank me when you're older
>>34074671Get a job so you can buy some fast food for yourself, a lil social so you dont get bored of easy street, and potentially help yo mom out if she needs some support. Try Walmart, grocery stores, or fast food
>>34074671>I honestly don't even know where to start. If you were me, what is the literal first thing you would do tomorrow?Quit everything that gives me easy dopamine to the point I'm so bored that any task would be enjoyable.I would proceed by doing the following:Take care of my hygiene consistentlyClean the roomHelp around the houseStudy for 1 hour a topic I'm interested inFind ways to finish school or get the diplomaGet driving licenseTake care of my bodyRead the Bible
>>34074671I was in a kinda similar situation until I joined the military. In hindsight, that was probably a bad idea, but I turned out to have a pre-existing condition anyways and was medically discharged without even finishing basic training.
>>34074671>If you were me, what is the literal first thing you would do tomorrow?start with the free things first: personal organization. Get a schedule of what you need done per day and organize it accordingly. Wake up 0530 and begin to do your life goals: weather it be breakfast, hygiene, exercise, planning. You shouldn't waste your days. At night, you should opt to sleep in early to get in your 6+ hours of sleep in order to utilize the waking hours more. Clean up your home and dwelling area and clear/throw away/give away unnecessary belongings and clutter. Get rid of shit that only serve as sentimental memory devices and only keep what can progress your life. That means: clothes, important devices like phones and computers, weapons, tools and the like. Take care of your hygiene- get a good short modern hair cut and wash your body with adequate soap and water. Get a good hygiene regimen going because you are no longer a child.>Everything was boring and I just couldn't care.because you aren't living life with a goal- you are simply on autopilot, which obviously will never be interesting. Learn to have life goals.>Plus I felt ugly and super socially anxiousthis is also your childhood trauma surfacing. You are using this as an excuse not to succeed in life and you are called a LOSER in every part of the world for this. Fix yourself.>My mom is very sweet but she kinda enabled me>My dad was never present in my lifeyou are an adult. It is no one else's fault you are this way. Own it up faggot
>>34074953>>34074686Too big and bad formatting, he won't read
>>34075080If you can’t even be bothered to do something as simple as read those two posts, you are doomed. There’s no way you can even finish high school at that point let alone get a job.
>>34075121That wasn't me who said that.I read it. I appreciate the advice
>>34075121I'm not OP. Not everybody that replies to you is OP :(
>>34075135What are you gonna do now?
>>34075135You’re right. My mistake.It sounds like you’re intelligent enough to take that advice into consideration. It won’t be easy, but I encourage you to really try hard at it. Just accept the fact that you are behind a little and do the best you can.
Thank god that you're still young and start doing literally anything to exist in the real world. Because if you let this brief moment of introspection slip, before you know it you're old and 20 years behind everyone instead of a stupid young adult that made some mistakes.Just know that "I'll do it tomorrow" can easily turn into a decade.
Get a girl
