>Just turned 30>Returned to the Catholic faith ~1 year ago after 10 years of absence (born and baptized Catholic)>Attending SSPX; committed to traditional practice>Praying the Rosary daily (at least 5 decades); strong Marian devotion; praying to be seated with Our Lady>Recently ended a 12-year relationship (high school sweethearts); relationship marked by long-term sexual sin and emotional imbalance>Living in chastity for 9+ months now>Actively trying to order my life as a man and live in a state of grace>Struggling with temptation after extended chastity (pornography/masturbation), trying to avoid mortal sin>Potential engineering internship opportunity coming up soon>Seeking discipline, stability, and spiritual integrity; asking for serious advice from others who’ve walked this pathI've never gone this long without sexual activity and honestly I'm afraid that I'll never find a wife or good career. I know I need to have faith. The dispensers of grace depend on proper faith. How do I persevere in justice and get providence and good wife? I am afraid I am slipping and may fall soon. Is there anything to it? I thought my life would change a lot more after being chaste for so long. I know I'm a foolish sinner but I'm looking to succeed.
>>34075729you abandoned your only potential wife now your only choice is serious drug addiction
>>34075731I will pray for you, that is wrong. All is possible before the Lord.
>>34075757thank you anon, i will be praying for your dad to turn gay
>>34075729bump
>lose access to sex>immediately 'rediscover' catholicismlololololololololololololololol
>>34075729It's okay anon. Women may hate you for being an ugly disgusting bald manlet incel but Jesus still loves you.
>>34075858Being an incel is against Catholic teaching.
>>34075729in similar position op. feels good to be in church. imo, feels like if you entertain these thoughts then you will fall. also depends on where your attention goes throughout the day. reels and 4chan catalog can add fuel to the fire for example.
Doesn't Mosaic Law state that you should marry the woman you deflower? Anon, if you were the only person your ex ever had sex with, how did you end up breaking up with her instead of sanctifying the relationship through the sacrament of marriage? Is she anti-Catholic or something?
A wife is a gift of the Lord that you can't earn, it's a gift from your Heavenly Father. Focus on being the best man of God you can be instead of focusing on claiming what belongs to God.How is God supposed to trust you with his daughter if you can't walk closely with Jesus?The ancient Israelite kings had a commandment to have the priests read them the Word, every day. We are a royal priesthood, a chosen generation. We are adopted into the King of kings family. Accept your status as a son of God,you belong, you are accepted before the eyes of the Father through Christ's sacrifice.Act like a righteous king should, act like Jesus, read the Word daily, accept the challenge of spiritual discipline. Embrace the virtues of wise as serpents harmless as doves, blessing those that curse you, kindness, compassion, mercy, forgiveness(forgive yourself), love thy neighbor as thyself, discernment between the holy and unholy, if you hate your brothers or sisters you're in darkness.Ask God to ask the right questions, seek the right things, and knock on the right doors.God knows your desires for companionship, but he knows when desire becomes a covetous idol.Put God first and all things shall be added unto you.
