i wont say how , but essentially I've become somewhat a bitcoin millionaire equivalent within my career field through some clever plays and ventures. I thought I did a good job of keeping it under wraps but some characters are starting to come out of the woodwork of my past that has me thinking life. I've lived in this city my whole life, but to be honest I've been nothing but humiliated, mocked, laughed at, etc. I'm a quintessential short nerd btw and still incel at 30 so I have some other problems at work probably but really I just kept my head down. Sure I've met some decent people over these years but these last few years, I don't know what happened but a really obnoxious and toxic vibe took over my social interactions. I did my best to be kind to everyone and still, people just discarded me. So far I've kept my cool and just playing the polite and humble card with stuff like this. But what should I do with my life with regards to living space if you were me. Ultimately this place was home for like 25 damn years, im seeing calls to "invest in my community" - but I've seen the faces of these people when I was down and I'm going "wtf do I owe these shitheads for?" But then simultaneously im like - I'm probably lowkey autist or something , how much can I really blame em? I do like the weather here and its a great place to financially retire if that makes sense but so are many other places. Should I start fresh in a new community? Or is it worth becoming a bit of a local personality, there are some good kids here coming up - it would be hella nice to do something for them or mentor a bit, but again - when you've been bullied , you know the damn feeling - it doesn't feel like forgiveness , it feels like capitulation by still sticking around at the scene of the crime.
>>34095008I've met countless new people after my big win , so I could probably heal or counter my image here but simultaneously all the skeletons and awkwardness and all my fumbles are buried here (this is a North american city) and I just cringe and get so stressed when I think about them that somebody is gonna bring it up and fumble my new image I'm tryna build. im thinking of moving to singapore for a bit to chill out for now, but long term... choices..choices
does xyz make my life better or worse.. and in what time frame an hour a day 10 days 100 1000 10 000 so forth