I just feel like I might be one of those people therapy just doesn’t work for. Ever since high school I’ve been dealing with extreme bouts of loneliness and isolation. I've been diagnosed with ADHD and Autism since kindergarten which definitely doesn't help. I’ve tried counseling, psychiatry, behavioral therapy, group sessions, meetings, and I’m on multiple prescriptions and it all just feels like patching a wound to pretend its not there. Every time I reach out for help, I leave feeling worse than when I started. Nothing improves. I take steps, but none of them feel real or substantial. It’s a constant loop of trying, failing, and ending up right back where I started. Talking to people just reminds me how much it feels like I failed. When they ask about my life, I have nothing to say. No close friends, no relationships, no prospects, overweight and spending most of my time alone in my room when I’m not working.People in the same position as me are too dysfunctional to form real bonds with, and people who aren’t feel impossibly out of reach. I either screw things up or pretend to be normal, which feels unbearable and still leads nowhere.It’s especially painful watching others socialize effortlessly. I can try for weeks to get close to someone, only for someone else to succeed instantly with that same person, going to parties, hanging out, actually living.It feels like there’s no solution beyond endless trial and error, and that only makes the hopelessness worse. Every attempt turns into platitudes or meetings that lead nowhere. I don’t even want happiness anymore, I just want these thoughts to stop. I hate being reminded of how dysfunctional I am. I hate being reminded of how alone I am. I hate being reminded that no matter how many times I try, I still always reminded of all the things i hate about myself.
>others socialize effortlessly. I can try for weeks to get close to someone, only for someone else to succeed instantly with that same person, going to parties, hanging out, actually living.All memes 21st century media propaganda brainwashingReproduce and ascend the next generation (+ your own), not your bullshit le party hard live fast die young showy offy eye'm so popuuularr!!1! retardation
