Why do I feel worse when I stop loving the people who hurt me? Like my capacity for love and happiness diminished. As cliche as it sounds I feel like I lost a part of me.They were fake evil fucks. I should be happier cutting them off and hating them. This is some bullshit.
>>34140974She does feel better and your words do nothing
You feel empathy, and you've known them for about half your lifetime. Maybe they weren't that bad. Maybe they were influenced by some shit people that got involved in a situation that wasn't theirs, for their own gain, and who hurt you did so partially because of that, and maybe they also have their fair share of brain problems that also lead them to act the way they did.Think about it. Or don't, it's your life, only you should decide how you live it.
>>34140978That's not even what I'm talking about you dumb npc
I don't get what you're fucking deal is Now you're admitting what happened
>>34141023This has nothing to do with you, save for the fact you're one of those shit people and you're the very last one that came to the party. Don't reply to me. Fuck off.
>>34140974Because hatred towards others is inherently self destructive and self defeating. No matter how bad somebody is, you should want that person to see the error of their ways and improve themselves as a person. Even if that person is terrible now, they could become less terrible, and that's what you ought to want for them. Wanting something other than that is the same as wanting them to get worse, and wanting them to persist in the traits that you hate them for is an insane, self contradicting and obtuse position to hold. It's the same as saying "I want the thing that I hate". That's why it feels bad, because it's cognitive dissonance. Maintaining love and compassion for everyone at all times, wanting what's objectively best for everyone, is what will make you feel happy and complete even in times of stress and betrayal.
>>34141073Most people are not cognizant sentient beings capable of that thoughThey're more like algorithms that keep repeating patterns. I know because they did the same thing they did to me to someone else too
>>34141083That's true, most people are too dense to improve. But improvement is still what you should wish for them, because wanting what's objectively worse is a nonsense position that leads to your own emotional distress. Plus, for the rare few who are able to improve, you'll have helped them and played a part in their development. There's no downside to it, because you aren't helping anyone behave poorly. You're only helping them behave well, insofar as they're able.
>>34141044Stop copying my words and regurgitating them as your own, creating larps to make others think badly of me, make me think badly of myself. You're just upset that she sees who you are now and is disgusted by you and wants nothing to do with you and you keep digging a whole deeper and deeper making more and more larps and she wants to be further and further away from you feeling trapped and suffocated by you
