My room is clean, I try to find a way to clean it again. I have a computer, I rebuild it just so it's that 1% cleaner. I sell most of my stuff because I can't deal with it taking up space but I still feel compelled to sell more. It's like a project that is never done I just can't feel comfortable enough to let go and stop cleaning things. I'm worried I will hate cleaning if I starting doing fun things again. And will still have to do it anyways. Right now cleaning is the happiest thing I do.
>>34143389I am exactly like you OP. You need to take up your mental time with something more beneficial. Minmaxxing is a downward spiral
>>34143396What's more beneficial than cleaning, working out and preparing for the future?
>>34143389You're addicted, literally.
>>34143453It's not really addiction. It's more of the only outlet I have for my extreme anxiety. I start to panic so I can and fix things so it feels like I did something. But then when it settles down I panic again and need to find another thing. I'm so anxious all the time it hurts. Nothing feels right.
Stop cleaning start reproducing
