I am your average 4chan user, I didn't really leave my room and spent most of my days gooning to degenerate shit. One day I chose to leave everything behind and start backpacking. It's been 3 years now since then I still feel empty and lost and I don't know what to do. I'm working at a hostel for food and accommodation but other than that I'm pretty broke and just as aimless as when I first started travelling. What's wrong with me?
Ur meant to settle/reproduce not masochistically aimlessly wanderPost best goons
You need friends and family. People who travel and say "I'm trying to find myself" are lying to themselves about what they really need.
>>34145807NTA, I was never meant to settle or reproduce. I'll be 30 soon and never once felt the urge to settle. In fact, every time my life stabilizes, it bores me to death and gives me depression until I quit my job, relocate, and completely change professions. Then repeat.
>>34145836Living to work not working to live
>>34145844I live to have fun and be free. The more free I am, the better and happier I am. The more responsibilities and ties I have, the more miserable I am.
>>34145805Can't escape the problem if the problem is you. I tried this, went on a cross country road trip. Worked for about 6 weeks but then "the call is coming from inside the house" hit. A new environment can be helpful but what you really need to do is fix your brain.I did it again with a backpacking trip this summer. I thought maybe it would give me a boost and get me moving, but after I got back everything I had set up for myself fucking fell apart and I'm back at square one seriously considering suicide.
>>34145944>I'm back at square one seriously considering suicide.Please don't Anon, you already know your problems comes from the inside, why don't you try to go through some sort of spiritual journey to hopefully heal your wounds?
>>34145933Balance freedom and responsibility/ties and you'll be happier
>>34145968Because then you (keep on building) build/construct on top of something, rather than stuff vanishing OR being stuck on 1 stagnant immutable thing
>>34145980>(keep on building) build/construct on top of somethingI already have my blog for this, and a few hundred people actively follow it. It helps fulfill my need for attention and works for some long projects, but it doesn’t tie me down as much as an actual relationship. Like, this year I took a two-month break from it and it was fine. I can ban people I dislike, too. With friends, or what’s more, family, I can’t just say, you know what, wife? I’m taking a break from you, or ban parts I don’t like. Actual trad settling would basically be death for me. After it, I’d cause a huge melty or rope myself.
>>34145963>spiritual journeyLike what? I don't believe in any of that. When I was researching for my backpacking trip so many people were saying it was a spiritual journey that really did something for them. It was just a long camping trip. I enjoyed it but I don't feel changed by the experience.
>>34146029I see, blog is another variation but in a sense you are still in "exploration" phase and not yet ready to transition into "exploitation" phase, which is fine but I do see an eventual settling in the cardsPost blog
