I have very ambitious goals for life that I wont go into but I want to push the absolute most massive and grandeous change I can, in order to do it on the scale I want to I need to autodidact a lot of different fields and get a lot of wealth and power as well as getting into good social circles. One of the biggest is law. In the USA, law and the rules are literally everything and bending them is vital. How would I go about autodidacting procedural, substantive and jurisdictional law? Im also most likely gonna do law school for the credentials.If I do not accomplish this goal, I will probably kill myself. I have realized that nothing else matters. I need to maximize the good I can do.
>>34159809>I have realized that nothing else matters.Did you forget that (you) matter, OP? That part is kinda vital to actually embody and believe because it's gonna be (you) doing all the effort to chase your grandiose dreams. You need to respect the vessel that is your body and the transmitter that is your own mind appropriately in the very least to acknowledge that you matter. If you feel you don't matter then there is no point in aiming for goals. Same as how there's no point driving to the edge of the world if you keep throwing a wrench in the car's engine.
>>34159836I feel like I matter, yeah. I really appreciate your kind words. I didnt feel like I was before but that has changed as I turned into a better person and helped change lives for the better alongside working on myself and doing a lot of soul searching, introspection and doing a lot of research. But it just isnt fucking enough...Ive seen some things in life, man. Besides the amount of corruption and atrosities I know about. People influence eachother and uplift one another, but how does that help save us from the predators that prey on us? Counselors help people cope with the horrible things they experiencr, but all they do is act as a safety net for people without fixing the cause of the problem. They die and they are mourned, but the world just moves and and keeps being terrible. They arent maximizing their impact... Looking back at their lives, what did they do besides influence a few social circles and made a few people happier and better? I just feel like I could be doing so much more. Seriously, what the hell am I doing? All of this fucking around and for what... Life after death isnt even gaurunteed. This could be everything. I cant stand not doing anything anymore and not trying my absolute best. I could do so much more, like I could actually *make a change*, you know? If not in my country or community then somewhere else where people desperatley need help. I want to live as frugally as possible too and donate a lot of my money saved to charities. I just want to know I actually REALLY helped the world and communities across it. I cant not do anything anymore. I need to be the best person I can be for others and to know I actually did somethin
No worries either, im not gonna destroy myself over this and push myself too far. But I definitley will be putting in a substantial amount of work. Ill have assistance too, im not schizophrenically pursuing this alone. But I cant live with myself otherwise. I feel like for once ive finally figured it all out. I know what I need to do now. Almost likd this is some sort of calling, y'know? Not that I believe in anything like callings or anything but I feel called to this.
Well.. I feel like I do matter but also I really dont unless I do something substantial for the world and the people. What else am I otherwise like I touched on? I just want to do good for the world. I cant stand the thought of being anything but this anymore. It scares me, seriously.
>>34159877I hear ya. I seen some things in life too, the kind that we can leave unspoken but it's the kind I think you and I both know exactly the nature of what those 'somethings' are. Cost me my innocence, grew up quicker than I should have. I'm glad you found clarity already and that you did the good old soul search, knowing what that's like, I can bet it took a lot of pain to get there. Yet you still want to fight? I say good on you. If that's how you wanna channel your life's meaning that's what you should do. I'd have done similar myself after my own private revelations and metamorphosis of perception, but this world, mate. Whenever it gains a semblance of peace, it throws it away. Within just a single generation or two, too. A great man could unify everyone and in his lifetime usher in an age of prosperity for the good of all. When he dies, the people grow fat on his glory and simply throw it all away. It's a cyclical pattern I have watched so many times like a broken clock that I never saw the need to fight in a worldly battlefield or serve the world. I think the world cannot be saved. But people, individuals, they are not of the world, even if they feel they are. So all I do is address people by the same way I searched myself, by the soul. It's all I can do.If you can do something for the world to benefit, go for it. Just make sure you never forget the fruits of your soul searching, keep those watered and protected as you continue on.
So uh, what the hell is OP's goal
>>34160951Find a way to make the largest and most substantial positive impact possible in the world through viscious planning and gaining a ton of knowledge from research, a ton of wealth, a ton of power and great social connections to bring about this positive change.
>>34161220Mkay solve resource scarcity then thx byehttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/34155975/#q34157646
