>>34163965
That's a great picrel

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i wished to die in my last two birthdays. i dont believe i will get over it

When my health starts declining I'm gonna use my last bit of strength to kill myself. I'm not living in a hospital, and I definitely have nobody I care about enough to live for

I can’t stop fantasizing about us dying together. Usually it’s a mass shooting where I hold her against my chest for and try and comfort and shield her before the bullets rip us to shreds. Or being stuck on a plane that’s about it to crash into the mountains with 100% fatality and all we can do is close our eyes and hold each other before the impact

Life just feels so hard and uncertain sometimes and it’s so scary. I don’t even know if I’ll love her forever, much less so if she will love me in a years time, let alone forever. I don’t know if circumstances might break us apart in some way or that we might have to suffer through something awful together. The finality of death together is so appealing to me and I’m not sure why. Is this depression?

To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die

>>34164004
>>34164115
>>34164313
/thread

>>34164313
Creepy

I guess the more I start liking a woman the more anxious she makes me
Women who are more wild give me head pains

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One of the things that helps me when I feel like I'm fucked up to the entire world, is remembering my grandmother loved me despite my flaws and that my parents and brothers do as well. I remember despite how much trouble I get myself in and how much of a bum I am taking on a shitty job and still in college at 31, that my family was there for me through it all, and still am. That is what keeps me going in this life of me being a mop bucket feeling piece of incel white trash.

>>34163965
i fiucked up my entire life. married a mentally ill, but very sweet, woman who im not attracted to. now im 38, everyones having kids, and im gonna have a divorce. massive porn addict too btw, been separated for 2 years, no reason to live desu. just useless malaise

Found out the real reason why M did not like me. It was because I'm fucked up in the head. It is what it is. She's just being practical trying to find a man who is not fucked up like me, and is instead someone who is properly an adult and who has a life compared to some freak like me.

i cannot fucking banter at all and whenever any of my friends gives me even a mild zinger, especially if im in a good mood and not expecting to have to be on the defensive, i tend to flounder and overreact to their banter, then get in my own head for the rest of the night as a result. how do i stop doing this? maybe im socially anxious or something. i mean im fine if the conversation isnt bantery or ball-busting, but once it moves there i naturally get uncomfortable

its almost like i dont even care much about what they are saying, but rather, im frustrated in my lack of ability to respond in a quick and snappy way, so i end up sounding flustered and frustrated, then i get in my own head about the way i sounded and then im like quieter than id normally be for the rest of the night. how do i fix this and break this cycle?

i dont want to have to read a joke book or become a comedian, and its probably overreacting to completely leave my friend group, as they arent doing nasty personal digs, but its like, they call me gay or bust my balls, then I just get in my own head about the lame way i responded. id feel like a pussy telling them to treat me with kid gloves. anyone know how to deal with this gay shit

I'm thinking about contacting my narcissistic ex just so I can feel something again

>>34164716
Try Marvel movie tier dialogue. Basically, just say anything with a fun playful vibe. It's acceptable.

i knew a girl with a speech impediment that gave her a cute vtuber vibe and i really wanted to date her

but she had tats and a nose piercing and didn't take care of herself super well, despite carrying the weight well

>>34164709
What the narc attempts to do is say that I'm mentally ill or some bullshit when I'm clearly not. She knows how I am in real life, when I was with her.

Maybe there are people out there that live chaotic lives and only want someone that matches their energy

>>34164716
Difference between banter and a narc manipulative conniving posts. Fuck off with your garbage

im 35, i feel i don't belong anywhere anymore. I'm like an foreveralone incel now, but had gfs before the world went insane. One time I went to the incel site, and got kicked out for not being incel enough. Plus they were all just shitposting retards there, so that's not what I was looking for turns out.

>not mean enough for the rightwing,
>not gay enough for the left
>not left enough for therapy
>not devoted enough for the true christians
>not normal enough for outside
>anything I try to say on any reddit or most social media is censored away

I have no idea where to go for what the internet used to feel like

>>34164873
You're in good company.

>>34164895
S you said you left for ukraine 2 days ago. Said you were not posting anymore.

I'M SO FUCKING HORNY THIS GUY IS SO HOT

>>34164826
OH MY GOD MIKE I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT MARIA!

>>34164930
Using that picture on that thread. F off.

>>34164004
don't worry, it gets esier and more reasonable to ask for it every year.

>>34164904
No, I did not.

it's over.

>>34164931
Mike, I think you're high again.

Introverted AF and soooooo much happier for it. Socializing has always been something forced and draining to me. Yes I know this has the effect of me being isolated and also coming off as a bitch in social situations. But I genuinely could just sit with you and not talk about anything at all and feel happy with it. My older coworker is the complete opposite and being around her is the worst.

>>34164924
Go text him.

>>34165024
Forrealllll

>>34165024
I'll be expelled from my college and targeted by his wife because the hot man in question is a college professor

I'm so sick, i'm so in debt, i havent feel happy in the last 4 years, everything is so overwhelming. I cant sleep i cant enjoy anything, i thinking about kms. I'm looking for a job but its always the negative, always turn me down, it sucks

>>34165062
One of these days I hope one of you young ladies stops latching on to men that are a challenge and start latching on to men that are there. I'm hoping at some point I am as good of a leftover as leftover takeout pizza from papa johns. A young 31 year old man like myself is really hard to find in these days. Yeah you have to deal with psychotic behavior, but there's a reward to it. This reward has been instilled in me by the outcries of women throughout my life. It's feminist approved if you catch it right.

>tfw born in a shithole country
>indoctrinated into believing it was small but humble and great (due to histories and shits)
>got exposure to English internet
>realized it's so primitive and shit nobody even cares about
>plenty who been here have muted hatreds toward it
>which actually match more closely what locals in the country feel about it, not what the propaganda have to say
>can't find many things to criticize it, since it doesn't even have many things let alone to criticize

>>34164985
Real

She wants a leader not a follower, that was why.

>>34163965
My girlfriend is really driven by weird instincts. Caught her touching herself while wearing my worn boxers.

>>34165131
I wish I had a boyfriend so I could touch myself in his gross cummy boxers </3

>>34165168
She's also worn my cummy boxers under her outfit while we're out in public. Idk what kind of shit goes through her kinky mind. Mind explaining to me?

>>34165131
Ya'know I wish I had your girlfriend. It beats having to pay women to date you and have sex with you to fill an empty gap that wasn't there from your high school and college years. I wish I had a love story. Hell I wish I brought a girl over to my grandmother's house to tell my grandmother about her and her joke and laugh with her about how silly we both are together. Thing is though, that'll never happen in my life because she passed away and all that my family and this world hopes is that I'll get a job and piss off in a hole just doing dumb little things to pass time for happiness. Do me a favor girlfriend haver anon, don't be a bitch like a lot of men are about having a girlfriend. It pisses me off so much so many men act like a god damn bitch for something I can't ever have. I mean literally the gift of having a best friend in life, and people go bitch about it like the first world problem it is.

>>34165173
You definitely deserve a gf more than I do. I'm actually a degenerate 0__0

>>34164832
genuinely what the fuck do you mean? is this a test to get me to banter with you or something? are you the local board schizo?

>>34165172
cum is hot and the funk smell of a man you really like is intoxicating. Imagine wearing a little bottle of her squirt around your neck.

>>34164934
There's a thread by someone named s who said they were leaving to Ukraine. R9k. You can archive search it

>>34165173
And there's how you can tell it's the larper


Annoying

>>34165217
Ill banter with those worth bantering with.

>>34165219
So why is she wearing the funk instead of smelling it? LOL.

>>34165229
Ftm autophallic fetish

I've been consuming pornography since I was 12 and have had a growing addiction ever since. When I was 13 I found out about "femboys" and remember being obsessed over the whole aesthetic. I loved the idea of being cute and feminine, I wanted that, but I knew that I would never be a girl. Sure, I could do gender reassignment surgery, dress feminine, etc. But that felt like too much and still not enough. It would never be the "real thing". I tried to forget about it and convinced myself this was my porn addiction's doing. That it was a fetish, like many other degenerate fantasies I've had before. I thought I could suppress it and move on. I was going through what I considered to be this "self-improvement" journey and thought I was working to better myself at the end of high-school.

Starting uni things changed. I started to feel miserable around the second semester. My porn addiction got worse than ever before, to the point where I'd miss sleep to spend hours watching porn. I was stressed and miserable all of the time over uni. I started to hate everything and lost the passion I ever had for anything. I never fully moved on from the thoughts of wanting to be cute and feminine either, and they have been getting worse recently. I always feel jealous looking at these cute looking "femboys" on the internet. I want to be that too. I'm wondering whether I might be trans. I don't like the things associated with being a man, I don't like being "assertive" or "strong". It's not like I despise being a man, I've lived with it fine, but god I wish I looked cute and feminine and didn't have to deal with things expected of men.

Am I trans? Maybe I'm just a lazy porn addicted fetishist looking for an excuse. Even if I did transition though, what if I didn't look cute enough? What if I didn't pass for a women and everyone thought I was a weirdo? Could I even look feminine enough? I'm already 21, maybe I'm past the time? And what if I regret it later? I'm just so lost about this.

>>34165245
Anon, how come you can’t be a feminine man, or “femboy”? I don’t think that necessarily points to you being a transwoman. You could get nails done, wear more “feminine” colors like pink, etc.

>>34165264
I don't think that's what I want though. I'll still be a man. I'll still be seen and treated as a man. If anything it might be even worse because people will think I'm a degenerate weirdo. This is not a "socially acceptable" thing to do.

If only I could be certain that people would be convinced I'm a woman if I transitioned. If I had that guarantee I don't think I would have any doubts.

I recently cut myself for the first time. I understand now why so many do it… it got my mind off of my intense negative emotions and pumped me full of adrenaline. And I felt proud of myself seeing all the blood, and the sting of the cut throughout the next day. If I ever got a boyfriend I truly loved, I think I would carve his name on my skin somewhere.

I'm technically a leftist but holy fuck woke people are so annoying. I just got my ass chewed because I said crediting the artist was sufficient and country of origin didn't matter. Idpol bullshit is so culty to me.

Virginity sometimes brings me shame.

There's two birds in the tree they might ... I don't know how to put it.

There are women that don't want to be feminist...never thought i'd see that level of stupidity

Something I realized is that none of those people care about me at all and caring for them gets me nothing
So why try?

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>>34163965
Trump believes in everything—just put a layer of gold on what you present, put his name on it, and you’ll be accepted. Even if your project is very abstract and was just made to gain more money. xD

MARIA

MIKE ONCE MET A GIRL NAMED MARIA

HE THINKS SPAMMING WILL ALLOW HIM TO SEE HER

I'LL GET (YOU)S BY SAYING I TOUCHED HER VA GE AH

Mother in law was visiting so I spent the week generating my wife's porn with AI which burned out my dopamine which made me angry, irritable and unable to work. Wife stressing over her mother's visit lead to her breakdown once her mother left and I could not support her emotionally because, again, burned out dopamine.

Porn/AI porn is very very very bad, it does indeed wreck dopamine receptors. Some people are more sensitive to dopamine, some are less sensitive. I am sensitive and got rekt and failed to make the money I could've easily made.

I am too dumb for women to take a long term interest in me, but handsome, good at sex and caring so they string me along for months
fuck my unlovable himbo life

>>34165673
Sounds bizarre, I've never felt like a woman cared for my intelligence ever in my life. I think if you are competent in some real life sphere that should be enough, no?

>>34165221
I believe you. You know, I don't assume every Mike is you when I'm out and about in the world.

>>34163965
I just applied to ICE. I need a job.

>>34165781
Please get training and dont end up like those other men that end up on videos. Please don't get hurt or hurt others.

>>34165791
Where am I supposed to get training? Doesn't the government train me?

What makes a cognitive delusion? I feel like that's a term used by people who don't have the same lived experiences or same reality as me. And yea, obviously they're different experiences, but these aren't just thoughts and feelings I pulled out of my ass because I felt they were fashionable traits to wear. My so called delusions are validated by 30+ years of real world experiences that have repeated time and again over many different years and many different circumstances. To me the real delusion lies inside the person who says i should keep trying the same thing over and over again when the result is always the same.

I hate this fucking cuck so much, he's so fucking annoying. I'm trying to talk to her because we work together and we clearly get along, she likes me, things are going well. Then this cunt goes out of his way to come over and interrupt us talking because he has a thing for her too even though he's married and has kids. Last night at work I had enough so when I saw him coming I deliberately tried to get her attention and started talking about something so she ignores him and doesn't even see that he's coming over. Then that fucking cuck just stood there for like solid 2-3 minutes, he's not even supposed to be there, he works on the other side of the building, he clearly goes out of his way to come over which btw he's not supposed to do. Its so obvious what hes doing because when shes not in, hes nowhere to be found even if hes doing the same thing at work. But when she's in, he goes out of his way to just "happen" to be around, then I always see him looking over to her when he walks by hoping she notices him. He tries so desperately to the point where he sometimes comes over and interrupts me mid sentence to get to talk to her. Annoying fucking cunt. I don't get these people. Why go out of your way to go after a woman that has interest in someone else while also him being married apparently, what a disgusting person, and to just stand there like he did the other day and wait for her to stop talking to me so she can give him some attention is just fucking sad. I talked to her about something for a long time on purpose so he fucks off and he stood there, waiting for nearly 5 minutes until he eventually walked away, but jesus, get a fucking hint, he's just getting in the way. I fucking hate people like that, just makes things annoying for people like me. He's well in his 40's too which just adds to his desperate childish attempts at getting her attention. I wonder what his wife thinks about it? Tbh the girl I'm talking to shouldn't encourage him either.

>>34165812
>this post
HAHHAHA
2 things.

First you are a cuck LMAO just tellher you are into her.
Second if you don't do anything about it but impotently post on the Internet, congrats.

You are GAY! Next time that BVLL comes over you should drop your pants and ask him to insert your asshole because you just fume up like a teenage girl instead of addressing him directly and telling him you are busy.

Faggot detected :^)

>>34165795
Yea

>eating pitas and baba ganoush
>check the calories
>each pita is 150 calories
Fuck my fat nigger life

>>34165815
did you forget to take your meds today? you sound like a 16 year old trying to project something. I feel like you've either been, or are in that cuck's position yourself and you're just mad
>m-my girl, n-need to get in there so she likes me more than him!
kek what a faggot, how about you be more likable and less desperate?

>>34165845
>misreading my whole post
Holy kek you are probably a nigger too
Enjoy that BVLL fucking your girl HAHAHAH

>>34164895
no im not, this site is now mostly zoomers i can't even relate to in their brand of lonely that never gets fixed and even here has a spam timer now

>>34165705
You have to keep them entertained and have a "PASSION", unless you are the rizzler they will find you boring eventually

>>34165795
There could also be training videos on handling confrontational/descalating situations with civilians. How to be emotionally in control of your emotions during protests/riots etc.

>>34165842
Are you anorexic?

>>34165872
Dude we're in our 20's and 30's now. The fuck you mean? Don't you realize your ATi card from 2004 is collecting dust from the amount of years it has passed by on?

>>34165898
No just trying to diet before summer and didn't realize I was eating so much. Now I can only have 1 sloppy joe tonight and will try to fill up on vegetables. I think my post would make more sense if you saw how THIN and tiny the pitas were it's seriously fucked up

>>34165781
I applied to border patrol because I have a feeling all of this shit on tv is fake and gay.

>>34165907
30s I'll take but there's barely any here last few weeks I checked. 20s are a completely different species saying bruh bro living on tinder and tiktok talkin bout x-pills and x-maxx and sigma and groyping and shit as well as games i've never known or tried. I work with those kids in real life i cant even communicate with them and around me, the one white guy at the job, they speak spanish instead.
i think my crowd either grew up and somehow got successful and now have families and careers and no time for the internet, or gave up and became an hero. and then there's me, who can't do either, stuck in this limbo surviving in the endtimes

>>34165726
That's basically what happened here that caused me to lose who I love through manipulation of perceivement of me.

I don't understand why people don't just leave me alone. They take it personal when I tell them I don't have time to hang out. They double text me again and again. They keep pushing and pestering me to make plans. Why? Why is everyone so damn obsessed with trying to spend time with me when all I want is to be left alone? Is this some kind of curse where the more you want them to stay away, the more obsessed they become with trying to spend time? And then they always try to guilt trip me about it too. I'm so fucking tired of it. Can you all fuck off already? I'm not funny, I'm not interesting, I don't want to listen to your problems, I'm not entertaining, wtf do they want from me...

>>34166146
Self sabotage is what you got

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My step aunt is 25 years younger than my uncle so my age but i was a basement gnome at thge time she moved in so i did the incel thing of insulting her. I wasnt a virgin but i was sick of being dumped and cheated on.

Called her dog faced, goblin all that i rarely left my room and only went to night classes
One night we had a bon fire and drinks and i was told i had to go meet people.
I was playing halo trilogy and eating taco bell and didnt want to be around women who at the
time i was hating.
So i said to her
sup bulldog?
she said that was mean for such a cute man to say.
wait/ im cute? i hadn't changed clothes in 2 days.
she grips me by my shirt and says "follow me"

we end up fucking in the closet and start a multi year relationship under my uncles nose

I go back to college, meet some one else and get married, me and her still have a open 'fuck me if you are around and we are alone" policy

>>34163965
I don’t like my job anymore but I get paid so well and my family relies on me so I feel trapped.

>>34166253
whats ur job and why dont u like it

>>34166261
I’m a system administrator of sorts. I wear a number of different hats, but a lot of it is making sure things keep working and sometimes supporting end users.

I’m just so bored. I don’t care about anything I do or who it affects.

>>34166282
is the pay good at least

>>34166304
I make about 80k, which is enough to pay for my mortgage, car, food, and vidya.

I just feel so empty. I know it’s a common sentiment, but it’s harder and harder every day to push myself through my work. If I didn’t have lives depending on me, I’d have probably killed myself by now.

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About to get a root canal
Send me your energy anons

>>34166253
Same.

>>34166240
The fuck is a step aunt?

>>34166212
Been there. Learned my lesson.

>>34166499
Stepparent’s sister?

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I am high on Cocaine RN, AGAIN...

Sigh.

I’m. This is crazy. Dating is really weird. I never understood the hype around it, just avoiding people left and right. Then I actually let myself crush on someone and it made me feel really vulnerable and intense. I get it now, why people go nuts. But I can’t get over the feeling that pursuing a crush makes me weak. Makes me a lesser version of myself.

I don't understand what it is about other people that makes them go out of their way to start shit and try to bully people. I entirely keep to myself and barely speak but even then people still keep trying to fuck with me. I seriously don't get it.

>>34166569
You keep to yourself so they feel like you’re an outsider. Outsiders get punished by the group, regardless of whether you deserve it or not. Herd behavior.

>>34166569
I’m assuming you’re young. Teenagers are fucking retarded like that.

>>34166569
I have been bullied my whole life and have made a point to accept others, love and heal them. But raising my young, it is important to teach a level of resillance to instill determination and will power. Not everyone is born with drive, and usually it is easy to recognize in others. If it is your job to try and help someone help themself, sometimes its necessary.
What was that japanese term about the gold mendind the broken dish only to make it stronger than before?

>>34166569
>I don't understand what it is about other people that makes them go out of their way to start shit and try to bully people. I entirely keep to myself and barely speak but even then people still keep trying to fuck with me. I seriously don't get it.
They're lives are miserable, boring, they have problems/issues they rather take their issues out on innocent people. They really shouldn't, that's why shootings happen, killings etc.

>>34166330
my root canal finished

your total lack of support has caused me to sustain an injury at the dentist
thanks for nothing assnons

Todays internet is the biggest cancer humanity has ever faced.
>duh just use what you need, dont look further
Im hardwired to spend (waste) time in useless bullshit. When i dont do it i get headaches, anxiety, paranoia and lots of FOMO. I feel physically sick. On top of that i have thousands of problems piling up in my head. Now i understand drug addict relapses, because i am one of them .

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How often you think about your own death?

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>Get dog
>Destroys the house
>Shits everywhere
>Prone to violent outbursts at strangers or flying into loud barking at random moments at people walking by
>Have to spend atleast a few thousand getting proper training
>Eventually becomes senile one day until it explodes into vomiting and shitting everywhere
>Take it to vet
>Vet sticks it in the ass with a needle
>Charge 100+ dollars for a fucking 10 cent needle
>Get the ashes have no idea where to spread them so they just gather dust in a living room and are forgotten

These things should have stayed wolves

>>34167115
A bunch most days.

>>34167153
I think about my own death almost every day.

>>34166542
Again?

>>34167174
I don't have access to gaming right now, but sometimes I get really into a video game and don't think about dying for like 16 hours.

>>34167192
Same thing happened with me but change videogames with movies and manga/anime. Now? I ''lost'' it. I completelu lost it. I'm nothing more but a corpse walking.

>>34167127
Leave your dogs ashes in an urn and bury it with you when you pass away

>>34167115
Daily. If not hourly.
Don't do it, anon. At the very least, don't do it sober. Spare yourself from seeing it coming.

i need the shallow hal effect but without the fatties looking good part, i just need the soulless whores to look like the demons that posses them and not smoking hot, beautiful women who can often effortlessly lower your defenses

>>34167290
so, if vr headsets ever get sleek enough to wear in public i'm definitely wearing one and getting a whore blocker program that at least does this superficially by detecting exhibitionist clothing and tats and piercings and short, dyed hair and warps the person's appearance to match a ghoul

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I sometimes get a little sad when looking at naked anime girls. I'm a perv and have naked anime girl figures, lots of NSFW images saved, and even have a waifu dakimakura. Lately though I've been lonely. I've never had a girlfriend or been intimate with a women besides a whores boob and ass I touched at a strip club. I don't know why I'm feeling this way lately. I guess I wish I had a girlfriend......
>>34167115
Every now and then. I've been thinking about it more lately and if god exists. My waifu is a demon so I wonder if Jesus or god will hate me because of it
>>34166330
SENDING YOU MY ENERGY!
>>34164004
I hope you get over it anon. It's rough out there
>>34166569
Yeah bullies suck anon. I'm sorry your going through that. Wish I could do more to help you but sending love

why the fuck should I be grateful to god when he intentionally gave me this stupid pathetic body?
If only I still had innocence. Now I am too mentally disturbed to be a monk.
Why should I be a joyful, merciful person when I was given the short hand of life? I exist only to be ridiculed and mocked.
No, I would rather turn to the enemy and turn into a Warlock instead.
No more Mercy, No more Love.
I choose death over life. Hatred, Envy and Revenge shall be my desire

>>34166974
Sorry anon, I'm low on energy to send

>>34167402
Reads like the cd insert of a black metal album

>>34167402
A waste of energy, anon.
Their world will always be one of vampires and thieves.
Just try and be a dim beacon of something better. Maybe some will understand. Most won't.
You'll at least rest easy; you'll show the way to those who can understand.

>>34167446
You don't understand anon.
I don't want them to understand.
I envy the world of man, why would I want to wish my enemies well? These filthy flesh creatures don't deserve mercy.
Even if it is true the demons world is of vampires and thieves we both have a common enemy.
Mankind.

You say it's hard, but you get attention like you naturally do
I don't even need you to tell me if it's actually you

I would have been reluctant, but not worried about my brand
But that's what it is and I know where I stand

When a woman flirts with me and then turns around and flirts with an ugly bum ass motherfucker because she's either testing me, or she's seeing what's out there, or she's comparing me, or she doesn't know what she wants, or she genuinely likes him
Then I stop giving two fucks about her completely

I know my worth and I know I'm not equal to some ugly bum

>>34167469
>You say it's hard, but you get attention like you naturally do
It don't matter.
It don't matter what kind of attention I may get initially.
That spark is only temporary, especially when they get close to you attention dies. It will be especially be true for me who is unremarkable

>>34167466
I haven't had my mercy beat out of me. Not yet.

I won't presume, my dear anon. Just don't make the world a worse place than it already is. Please.
My faith is all I have.

She sent that message for three reasons
She wants to fucking taunt me and make me feel insecure
She's a goof and wants to text those she works with
She's interested and wanted to shit test me a bit

>>34167544
Idk if you are who I'm talking to. Post 1 if you're sure I am.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2qQDHz6ueE4
This song is in my head now because of Druski, bro. Too funny.

Travel in my mind more than the ones who take the bus do
Like you for your mind, but the looks are a plus too

Turns out I actually can flirt and have an attractive person to women, it just takes 8+ drinks

I feel the real you, while the ones who wonder hated
To them you're overrated, to me you're underrated

We could have been a good fit like tryna get a cast done
Nothing else to say, I swear this is the last one

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>>34166240
we might have the same step aunt, sorry you fell prey to that

I lost 50lbs this year and my boobs haven't gotten smaller at all. Idk what kind of sorcery this is but I won't complain.

>>34168190
>losing 50lbs in 17 days

Is it wrong to use drugs hidden from your family if youre ok and it doesnt affect them ? It makes me feel guilty but i think its a useless type of guilt since i only do it rarely and it doesnt affect their life

A girl I was doing online RP with got really high and then as we were talking normally about our personal lives, we both shared we have spouses. Suddenly, unexpectedly, she sends me a message saying she's extremely horny and asks if I want to see her tits, because showing off gets her off. I told her that even though I would love to see that, I should not because it is disrespectful to both her husband and my spouse. I elaborated that I don't want to hurt anyone. She said fair enough and that was that. I did the best I could relative to my own personality and vices. I am disappointed I did not emphatically say NO and lecture her or something, but I am also grateful I was able to refuse the proposal. It was hard enough to get that far. I feel like I barely deserve to be where I am with a loving partner for not being more militant, yet I also wanted to smooth things over and defuse the situation coolly.

>>34167371
God doesn't exist and If he does he's a fucking cunt.

I'm so unfathomably horny lately it's crazy.
Probably a side effect of quitting porn a few weeks ago, though the worst part is how it makes me feel super lonely

>>34167115
Not too often, but lately I have a couple of times.
Often when I'm trying to fall asleep and it absolutely terrifies me.

>>34163965
Over the last 7 years I’ve turned my girlfriend from being a normie to a kinky twisted freak
And I love pushing the limits

I really really wish I had someone to talk about the afterlife, and how time works, with

its all so confusing
like this are getting better, started working out a little bit my arms and legs feel much better but for some reason my self esteem issues just got so much worse but there isnt even a reason for it i know that i have people that appreciate me but fuck man

>>34168190
Maybe you should see a doctor just in case anon

>>34168473
>wish I had someone to talk about the afterlife
what do you want to say about that?

>>34163965
My life would be better without my parents

Pulling black women is effortless if you're white

>>34168708
same with indians, and asians, etc

it's only worth it if you're equally yoked Jesus freaks, otherwise you're just a race traitor

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>>34166542
https://youtu.be/9oC-IPWjVp8?si=-xY4HRxw0bohr3Di

I've been having so much degenerate sex with hot girls (paying) that I don't really see myself going back to a normal relationship with a 6/10 or 7/10 anymore.
I should have stopped when I had that threesome with that couple of 18yo instagram thots, it felt like fulfilling a bucket list item and a closure of some sorts, ever since then it has become so normalized to have porn tier sex for me that I don't see myself having boring 2year long relationship a friday night anymore.
but I tried dating one of these girls last year and that doesn't work anymore, their lifestyles are just not compatible with mine.
I'm in a catch 22 of my own making.

I think my life is ruined. I genuinely do. I think my future is doomed. I have no hope. I think there is only one way out. I don't know what to do. Life will never be anything but bad ever again. I just know it. One slight setback and I'm doomed to lonely poverty forever. I feel like there is only one way out of suffering for the next several decades.

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>was in accident 9 months ago
>still in pain every day

I am so tired of this

Bros, when I say I got serious family shit going on at the hospital, is it due to autism my friend just doesn't ask how things are going and instead complains about the most minor annoyances going on in his life instead?

I'm sorry. I calmed myself down. Though I still feel a lot of anxiety.

>>34169119
Could be, but also if his life is generally horrible in his mind it can make it hard to think about others.

Hopefully you still browse this forum, although I’ve never seen you in this thread. I’m going to try to communicate with you anyway. I will never be able to say this to you directly, so I’m putting it here in the hopes you’ll find it.

Seeing you again brought back a wave of emotions. I have missed you so much. I wanted to hug you more, and be able to kiss you again. Do you want to try again? I’ll be moving out. Do you want to come? Or will you stay home? I want an adventure every day is why. So if not, don’t reach out again.

But really, I’ve missed you so much. It was so comforting to smell you again. I miss and love you too. I wish you had communicated all of this before. I will be waiting for you in the future. We are bound to each other.

>>34169123
He makes a lot of money, has a gf, and parents that let him stay at home.

>>34169126
I would personally shift to seeing him as a not very nurturing person, but like he still might be cool to hang out with and do certain things.

>>34169140
I don't usually care when my other friends don't check up on me, but with this guy it feels very one sided because he always vents to me and expects me to be that kind of nurturing

>>34166542
What does it feel like?

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>>34163965
The constant mood swings are completely draining me. I don't have anything diagnosed (yet) but some kind of BPD and bipolar (probaby 2) is so fucking taxing on my psyche it's killing me. There are days when it's good, and i find it hard to believe that i could ever be depressed, i feel like i'm gonna fix everything this time for real, achieve all my goals, then i wake up the next day and feel like shit for no reason at all, crying into a pillow like a little bitch. It's actually hard to believe that normies just don't go through any of this.

>>34163965
I have the feeling that I am not really able to love other people. A few family members (including our dog we had for 13 years) died and I sadly haven't had a single negative thought about it. Another close family member was diagnosed with cancer and he will probably die in a few months. It had as much impact on me as someone telling me he got new shoes. I don't care about shoes. I had a "girlfriend" for a few years and didn't feel anything that could fit the description of love.

More people will die soon and I am scared that they will notice that it somehow doesn't bother me. I wish it did. Maybe it will. I have a very loving and social family and they would be heartbroken.

>>34169124
Is it u, Jo?

for years do nothing but complain about this guy. says she doesnt want to be with him because he acts like a child that cant take care of himself.

just last month complained about how she had to find a way to demold the cabinets because he put the dishes away while still wet. and the month before that how they had to throw away food because he left the fridge open, or how he doesnt clean the house and plays video games

gets pregnant....

>>34169173
I'm assuming you're not on medication yet. I don't think anything will help the way we want it to, but once you find a med that "works" for you it will make the lows less low, the tradeoff is that the highs in your life will feel less high as well.
It sucks because there's so much virtue signaling about mental health but no normie actually wants to be patient or understanding about any of it.

Yesterday I was spazzing out over her and couldn't stop thinking about her
Now I'm chill about it and more focused on my goals
I don't get why I'm dwelling on her

>>34169179
I’m not your person, sorry! I’m C to C.

>>34169204
>lows less low, the tradeoff is that the highs in your life will feel less high
At this point i'd take it. I just need some consistency in my life so i can get a job and be able to hold it, move out, get my paperwork done, basic things. I just recently turned 22, so i hope it's not too late to fix all the damage.

>>34169294
I started meds when I was 22, took a year to find a combo that didn't fuck me up too much. You got plenty time still.

>>34169142
That's annoying, but perhaps there are tradeoffs. Maybe he is more susceptible then other friends to influence and is willing to do things you want to do more often or something. Relationships have lots of axises. They can be balanced in strange ways. Maybe you kind of suck in some way too.

>>34169351
I'm sure I do, but he is rather blunt about things, so I don't think it's something where he's tried to drop hints I haven't picked up on. I try my best to be self aware and I always apologize after I recognize a fuck up.

>>34169367
Is there anything good about him in your mind? Maybe just support him less if you find it burdensome. Maybe you like being supportive because it makes you feel valued and smart. Iunno.

I am thinking of enlisting in the Airforce at 30.
Tell me why that's an awful idea.

>>34169377
Whatever punishment they expect your body to take, it'll be more lasting now

>>34169500
stay strong anon, your brother wouldnt want you to suffer

>>34163965
I think my cousin has the best boobs I have seen

I fantasize about having a hot white daughter who travels back in time to fuck me now

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>>34164717
joever acting as a pedo and trump as hitler

>>34165273
anon that sounds exactly like you’re trans. fucking do it or you’re going to live a hollow empty life as a man no matter what else you’ve accomplished in your life. this will always nag at you. it will seep into your personal friendships, your relationships with intimate partners, anything. do you want to be you or do you want to role play as a man you aren’t ?

>>34169377
I say do it, honestly.

>>34169124
A to A? If so, yeah I wanna come with you

i keep having these super realistic recurring dreams where i had sex with my sister and am always faced with the choice of dodging her or having sex with her

she did keep inviting me over for what basically seemed like netflix and chill when she was single but i kept my composure and was a good brother, luckily she made no moves despite seemingly teasing me

My life sucks, especially on weekend nights
I will never be a normalfag, I get it, I hate it, not like I asked to be special, I was just born different

>>34168397
Should have said yes because for all you know it could have been a dude pulling up a random photo from Internet

>>34166146
How does one gets to be popular like this?
Is it just attractiveness, is it personality, or both?

I have no idea why she did a 180, I'm tired man.
I've never known love and I'm just tired of feeling lonely.

>>34170048
Find your own special. Learn a different card game every week until you are a real magician.

I am so fucking sick of dating and courting and all of this fucking bullshit. I'm fucking sick of showering boring women with no interesting personality (all of them) who've fucked dozens of guys with compliments and praise until one of them gives me a teeny tiny bit of attention and decides she's going to spread her legs for me too all so that after a couple years of me being her therapist for free and eventually paying for her meals and room and board I can put a ring on my finger telling everyone she owns me for the rest of my life and can tell me to do anything and can spend all of my money and if she ever gets unhappy she can just leave and take everything and leave me for dead. I was so much happier when I wasn't dating and spending time and money and effort on my friends and hobbies and interests instead but now that I've gone down the rabbit hole I honestly can't believe men go through this their whole lives and put up with this bullshit and think it's normal and okay.

>>34170340
Like the worst part is that all the worthwhile girls are obviously taken at this point too but you're still competing with dozens of guys over the bottom of the barrel. You're expected to praise and worship ugly women and/or women with blatant personality flaws and they're still looking at you like peasantry because if they want they can just go fuck some other guy at literally any point and just leave you alone and back at square one. Honestly I'm glad I dumped this shit because it's convinced me to just drop out of this rat race and go back to being happy alone.

>>34169124
Are you a woman and he's a guy?

>>34169804
Record yourself fucking her and send me the video

I miss him

i miss her so much.. would have been together for 10 years this summer but 2 weeks ago she cheated on me and left me for him. i just cant handle the images in my head of her getting railed by this piece of shit. she was perfect for me, literally a female version of me. we had our differences that ate on her until she could not handle them anymore.

after the breakup we hungout everyday, cuddled and had sex almost everyday and i felt like i can forgive her cheating if she just took me back but she said she has no feelings for me anymore and that she wants to see the guy again and find out if it was just a drunk fling or if its true love.

i cant fucking handle this, i want her back.. i have 0 friends because as soon as i got her, i didnt need anyone anymore. she is so cold to me today and i sit alone in my flat and just stare at the wall. im in my mid to late 30s and i dont think i will ever meet someone like her again

Im done checking her social media knowing shes doing the same to me. I hate feeling like I regret it all even though she was a piece of shit to me for the short time we were together. I will move on and be the best person I can be

Everyone could use a break from social media now.

I'm upset because I don't have the life I wanted at this point in my life
I'm irritated because my job asks for a lot and still stresses me out
I wish I had more money to take care of my family and find a partner to marry

Companionship is a falsehood and we were meant to be alone. No one has ever shown me unconditional love or genuine compassion. I have never felt someone truly fall in love with me and envy the ideology of being the 'apple' of ones eye. while I settle for being the gum on the bottom of a shoe.

Just so you know, I didn't do a 180 on you. I've been actively moving on since 2021 and got engaged in 2024. You wouldn't know that because you were never a friend and never attempted to be one. You'd always assumed I was still waiting for you. Instead of working on yourself or fostering any type of relationship with me, you spent the last 6 years in your misery assuming I'd come save you eventually. Stalking my socials and not developing your career, for starters.

Yeah I still think of you because I did love you and still hope for you to get the best out of life. It was extremely hard for me just to remove you from my life like I just recently did. The constant reminders of your presence were not only hard, but honestly, really annoying. I think you need professional help and I'm not the one to be your emotional tampon anymore.

Growth comes from within and I hope you start realizing that soon.

she has my soul and now she's going to betray me
they always do
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

>>34170744
Why?

>>34170652
I am sorry that this has happened to you. Life sucks, but is still worth trying

I think vaginas are kind of gross

>>34171116
You've probably only seen roasties.

>>34170859
This post reminds me of them.

I have never felt so low

>>34170859
Initials of your person?

>>34171210
what happened

>>34171210
AND INTO THE SEA
GOES PRETTY ENGLAND AND ME

>>34171220
Its my fault

My best friends age 24 have gfs but I don’t and one is getting married but i don’t want to get in a relationship for the sake of it yet I feel insecure

I don’t think I’ll ever try again. I wish I’d known better. Phew buddy, I get real sick when I think about what happened. Like real sick, my stomach gets cold and I just wanna curl in a ball and die. I didn’t tell anyone about it, not really. Just laughed it off and pretended it was just your typical heartbreak. I just feel real sick when I think about it. I’m so glad I don’t see you around anymore. I wish the best for you though. Have good night.

>>34171357
Don't worry, the longer you wait the higher the chance you see their marriages crash and burn
Not that I want it to happen, but because it's more than a 50% chance now

I think I don't love my girlfriend anymore. I have very serious feelings for someone else who happens to be an old friend's sister. I have no realistic way of contacting either of them, so I've just been sitting alone making up stories in my head about how I wish things would go. I'm not sure what I want anymore. I think I'm gearing up for several years of being very alone.

I'm 25 and don't fall in love anymore. does the ability ever come back?

Buffets hate me. I could go through more plates than I can count at a good buffet. At least on one hand
The chinks are the meanest about it. American style buffets don't make a fuss about it, but I know they still hate me
I'll sample practically all the food at the buffet. I don't get sissy plates either, sometimes I double layer the food. I've even gotten good at arranging the food now
/Burp

>>34171387
Unfortunately, yes

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>>34171378
Well I hope they do have successful marriages because they are my friends at the end of this misery of a world. At the same time it won’t be me disappointing them. I’ll be be more careful with my age. I’m not getting younger

i fear my asexuality will be the reason i'll continue to stay single for the rest of my life, it hasnt hit me that hard since im still in my early 20s but i just know the dread of it all will really start to creep in as i get older. i just wish we lived in a world where sex wasnt seen as such an inherent and even mandatory thing with adult relationships as it currently is.

I've never been this close.
Lights are on full blast. No one's home.

They wouldn't think twice. Neither will I.
Not this time. Enough.

Bro, why couldn't you just reject me straight up instead of blocking and ghosting me...
Literally an emasculating comment would be better than this

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I'm only gonna say this here but I don't really like how her care for me is just conditional, and based on whether she randomly feels like being completely alone to the point of complete isolation or not. And I especially don't like how that can just switch at any time.

All I want is housing, food, healthcare, and a little money for my drawing hobby. Is this attainable without working a job that makes me wanna kill myself? NO!

I mean, I reply to her even if I'm not feeling like talking to anyone in the day. I don't get why she can't do the same. It's incredibly easy.

Please, now I am genuinely concerned about your well-being please don't tell me you attempted self harm

>>34171456
what makes you assume that? maybe she thinks she annoys you and that’s why she’s so off and on. people can’t always speak their true feelings


care to share more about it?


t. I think this might be about me lol

I sincerely believe that getting on speed would fix my life and all the problems I have

Last year around this time I was in a slump too
I managed to get out of it by being a menhera bitch for no other reason because the brainworms told me to and throwing everything good I had once away and making my life worse because my mind STILL thinks I don't deserve all this happiness because I've been bad to a few people on accident. Fucking self sabotaging myself and whenever I try to fix myself up it works for a week or so until my mind unleashes the brainworms again. I've cut off so many of my friends so many times I am afraid of talking to them because they're tired of my shit so I just ghost them and it sadly works. Haven't wished most of them merry Christmas or a happy new year while I keep spiraling into another slump. I need help but I don't want to bother people again. Fucking hell.
No wait, I can fix this. I know how.

>>34171409
There's no such thing as human asexuality, you're just too involved in filling your brain with internet goyslop & SSRIs (check the side effects in the packet) and its killed your libido.

>>34171542
i'm not on any ssris or any meds at all so its not that, nor is it a libido issue, my libido is quite high actually, i just dont feel a single desire to ever have any form of sexual interaction with anyone. human asexuality is very much a thing, its just rare.