It has been around 10 months since my ex and I broke up. She was my first girlfriend, and we were serious about going long term and actually commit to our relationship.But I fell on an error, that is concerned with my issue, that was porn addiction and a kind of infidelity. I started to get attracted to this hot girl in my school and we started to talk and all (she was also interested). And that was the sole reason my girlfriend and I broke up. She decided to end things with regard to my actions. I also agreed to end things because I was sorta falling out on our relationship and where to steer if there was even hope for us to continue (we tried and tried to resolve these issue but I can’t help and straighten myself out). There was also these influences on my school that was kind of driving me to go to the girl whom I was cheating with. I was aware of these influences and so was my girlfriend, but I really fell short on my choices and still chose to err.Now my main issue is my ex was my first sexual contact and I had put so much value and attachment to that. This was compromised. And I got on a phase of depression when I finally realized the consequences of my actions. That it was not worth it all (the affair I had with the girl didn’t work out). Every now and then I get these intrusive and self destructive thoughts about my ex being fucked by another dude. And I know it’s dehumanizing to think of her only doing just that (I know she also has her self-respect and all). It is me and my thoughts that is the problem. To the point of me wanting to kill myself over such self abusive thoughts. How do I get over this?
>>34202170If you find antoher girl to fill that void, you will forget her.It's also important to be a better person and not make the same mistakes.
>>34202170Fuck ten women more attractive than she was, and she won't seem so important.
