Yes anon, it’s okay!! Losing your virginity is usually awkward due to a combo of nerves (which can make your dick not work) and lack of experience. Also you drove a shitton and she maybe wasn’t honest about her appearance. It is okay <3 it will get better with more experience.

>>34208147
This person is right and gay

>losing your virginity to someone you never met before irl, the very first time you see them
lol, lmao, lmfao even
people that do shit like that deserve to have abysmal sex
>service her
ahahah

>>34208119
>sex outside of marriage

>>34208156
>>34208167
Fucking christ cucks.

>>34208156
B-but that's what Honey Select labelled it as.

>>34208119
First time tends to be bad, yes. It will get better.

>>34208288
Are blowjobs hurt normal? Felt like she was squeezing hard

>>34208119
>Likely a combination of driving 5 hours across states in the night to meet her
Damn this nigga is STARVING.

>>34208119
It's not meant to, but it often is. Even two people with loads of experience are likely to get it not-quite-right their first time with each other

>>34208604
That's a relief and worry. I was hoping to build experience and be better. But at least it's normal.

Are you me?

>>34208119
Thats about how it goes.
When i was 19 i lost my virginity to a 420lb 36 year old I met in the gym parking lot after her first (and only) personal training session. I showed up to her apartment we kissed for a while, she sat on me and then I lasted like 5 minutes and she could barely feel anything. Then I tried to eat her pussy and almost threw up from the taste then texted her awkwardly for about a week where she sent me nudes every morning before saying it wouldnt work out.

>>34208119
first time always sucks, and even when its good its nowhere near what u are going to experience next in life

>>34208119
That's how it goes often. I suspect that i will havr sex too at some point and in the beginning it will be like this.

>>34208119
Oddly enough I posted in another thread about something similar. But yeah you're not doomed. My wife and I waited until marriage for sex and the first couple attempts were complete non starters. We've got penetration down now but still haven't figured out how to get each other off. Not saying that's ideal or normal, but my point is that things improve with practice.

To address some specific points:

>But blowjob kinda hurt
I saw that you said she was squeezing hard. You'll just need to tell her / whoever you get a blowjob from next if it isn't good. This is kind of a skill issue on her part. I wouldn't worry about it too much. If something hurts you gotta say something.

> though I lost my virginity by putting it in, It's only for a few thrusts before I went limp
Happens to me too. This could be a million things. Top ones imo would be that you're tired or dehydrated. If you're on any kind of anti-depressant or brain-correcting drug that could also explain it. Yes, even if you're "fine" for jerking it. One other thing is that if you're thinking too much or worried you won't be able to stay hard. It's not that literally the blood from your dick is going to your brain instead, but it feels that way. You have to be in animal mode a little bit for things to work.

>>34208119
The first time always sucks. Its fine.

Sex, like everything else, is better with practice. I don't think that means the first time is automatically always bad. It just means it's pretty hard for it to be good since you've never practiced. I've been fucking my wife for like 10 years now and I definitely think sex is better now on average.

>>34208119
Yes it is normal the first few times. You'll be less stressed and learn more every time.
If you wanna do it with a fat girl, you need at least 1 week nofap no porn.
Also you did it immediately on the first meeting, a negative first impression matters a lot. You had your hopes up, and saw she was fat. You need to have a plan in advance on blind dates: You do her no matter what, or you bail after certain conditions. If you keep deliberating, it just messes with your mind.
Next time you can try more foreplay, it's easier to come to a blowjob than to sex with condom. Sex with condom is very different from fapping. You need to go for it and actively try to come, or you will go limp.

Also, sorry, but you didn't lose your virginity if you didn't come.

>>34208242
Too real bro, that's where I get all my experiecnce from as well.

>>34208367
>Are blowjobs hurt normal? Felt like she was squeezing hard
I'm not sure I would say "normal", but it's depressingly common that women have absolutely no idea how to give a good blow job. It's not by any means all their fault, of course. Men do actually vary in terms of what they want and need. And unfortunately most men are unbelievably bad at explaining what they want her to do; so how's she supposed to figure it out?

My current gf has an almost magical level of skill with her mouth - makes me feel things I had no idea it was possible to feel. Not coincidentally, she also absolutely adores doing it - clearly enjoys it even more than PIV. But it took months of practice and communication for us to get to that point.

>>34208119
Heh your first time was much better than mine - mine was an absolute disaster. But, like all things, practice really does make perfect. The last few women said that I was the best lover they’d ever had. Mind you, that was 15 years in the making.

Give it time. Find someone who wants to try as much as you do. Also, you were expecting a non-chub and she catfished you, so of course you’re going to react badly.

Spend some time lowering your body fat, and increase your sit ups to get some definition, you’ll get more yes’s then.

>>34208119
First time collides fantasy with reality. You are subconsciously underwhelmed by the fact that it is a human you are going to stick your dick inside. There is no more imagination, just the raw fact that your dick is inside another woman.
You get better with time, as you adjust to reality and learn to separate it from fiction.