A few months ago, I remembered some repressed memories from when I was really young (4-6 years old) of my older sister sexually assaulting me numerous times while she was a teenager. I seriously wish I hadn't remembered any of this, and I can't confront her about it because there's no way there's any evidence. I can't really talk about it to other people either since it's extremely embarrassing and sounds made up anyways. But I feel a need to, because looking back I can see the ways it's subconsciously fucked me up.
>>34211832Assaulting how?
>>34211832>repressed memoriesnot actually a real thing
>>34211832You're aware there has never been a single authenticated case of someone recovering a repressed memory of sexual abuse? So I reckon there's about a 90% chance that you're someone with an incest fetish who is trolling, and about a 10% chance that you're sincere but the memory has been confabulated rather than recovered.
>>34211836She would pull us both under a blanket and force me to touch her breasts while she touched herself or groped my crotch. I know it could be worse, which is another reason why I don't really think I want to talk to people in-person about it. I don't think it'd be taken seriously even if they did believe me.>>34211840>>34211846My memory of that point in time is spotty from being young and having other significant things happening at the time. Suppressed, Unrecalled. I just figured it was the easiest way to describe me being young at the time and only recently happening to remember.And to be clear, I absolutely do NOT have a fetish for this crap. If I did I wouldn't be upset about it.
>>34211840>>34211846Oh my science!
>>34211832Op you need to find a good trauma therapist that can work through this with you. Watch John Delony, prob has at least one video that can relate to this. Don't be stupid and try to deal with this on your own only.
>>34211870You wouldn't be taken seriously because that's not abuse, that's rough play. You are mislabeling things because you have other loads of shit weighing on you. Where would you get the idea that groping someone is sexual abuse? probably a church or some radical feminist. Forgive yourself for being mistaken, forgive her for the situation she lived in led her to that. Start blaming the people who put the ideas of shame on you instead, and start walking the hard road to forgive those as well.When I was 5 I liked to grope the boobs of my teenage cousin because they felt soft and squishy, I was scolded for it. It never really flew into my radar, but something that did was, as a 7 year old, we had a tiny dance in the classroom for children's day, I was dancing with my 8 year old crush, other kids wanted their turn, I interrupted them and they gave me the cold treatment. This experience of isolation marked my life and made me think others should pursue their happiness and I should wait passively for mine. I'm a 30 year old virgin now and this weighs on my like crazy.
