What am I supposed to be doing in life? Nothing is fulfilling, meaningful, or brings any amount of joy. Currently I'm just waiting to die.
>>34246803Opiates? I would recommend heroin or tramadol because they are my personal preference. I remember when I was really high on tramadol once everything I did was fun every song sounded amazing and every movie I would've watched would have been the greatest movie ever. Of course you should only do this occasionally and not get addicted, good luck anon.
>>34246818I thought about stimulants and psychedelics before, but I don't really have a way of getting them. I wouldn't even know where to begin looking and what not to trust.
IDK I am in the same boat. Lemme know if you find out. Also mind altering substances have given me some insight into stuff but haven't resolved any problems.
>>34246803 why not at least TRY to make your life awesomeIt won't be accomplished in a day, but incremental daily steps can lead to major outcomes....it happened for me
>>34246803>What am I supposed to be doing in life?Search for a life partner. That's always what it comes down to, I suppose.
>>34246803Get a girl pregnant. Everything changes when you have a kid.
>>34247225>>34247233I don't think that's possible. I'm pretty neurotic and have lost all friends one way or another. Never been with a woman and I reckon that won't change.
>>34247323Fat girls are always willing. Just get a fat girl pregnant and breakup with her. Then take care of your kid. Having a kid gives you something to live and work for.
>>34247323>pretty neuroticKek, there are plenty of crazy women out there that can accompany you. :^)Either way, neurotic in what sense?>Never been with a womanYou've tried, right?>>34247337>take care of your kidPlease do not have a kid if you aren't financially or emotionally ready.
I'm going to share with you a deep secret that helped me out a lot. I'm going to helo you find your internal state of being. I want you to go into a private quiet room to start off.Okay good you are. Here are the steps (I am not fucking chatgpt by the way).1. Close your eyes and start trying to get into a restful state.2. Get to the point where you feel your heart deeply.3. Okay now try to the best you can imagine what life was before you were born in your mother's womb.4. Now feel deeply your heart it's being.5. Now while in your meditation feel your way to wonder what life for you would have been like.6. Feel the time you were without movement and being in complete darkness.7. Now feeling your heart feel it deeply.8. Now imagine this dark feeling in both life and death within you.9. Feel it deeply. (4chan I'm trying to help)10. Feel this feeling again.Congratulations you have found your internal state of being. At least through the hell you are in you have this. This is also referred to as your conscious. Rely on this when you feel down to at least know I at least am being through it all.
>>34247337mega retard
>>34247371>neurotic in what sense?I really can't find the words to describe it. I'm just a very eccentric individual.>You've tried, right?Only asked out one girl in my life and got rejected. So I guess, but not really.
>>34247520>can't find the words to describe it. I'm just a very eccentric individualDoes that mean you perhaps struggle with a mental illness of some sort? There's a lot of info I don't know about you so it's a bit difficult to give you advice. I'm projecting here, but maybe being friends with non-normies will bring you joy...? >one girl in my life and got rejectedSadge, hope that hasn't put you off.
>>34247377Hi I'm not OP but your parens did make me chuckle. I tried meditation a couple years ago but I didn't really end up sticking with it.>5. Now while in your meditation feel your way to wonder what life for you would have been like.Is this fantasizing about being another person?
>>34247577>mental illnessNone that I know of or suspect. Had to visit a few psychologists a couple of years ago. One said I lack human contact, while another said I'm averse to human contact. I still got the diagnosis. And when you say non-normies who do you mean? I doubt I'd fit in with any group, I've become really antisocial.As far as the rejection goes, it was meaningless. Random fast food worker, nothing deep.
>>34247623>One said I lack human contact, while another said I'm averse to human contact.Sounds like these are both true. You can have the need for something and still have resistance to it. A need doesn't have to be a want.Btw the word for what you're experiencing is 'anhedonia'. If I'm to guess, a challenge with it is an apathy for trying new things. That the effort seems not worth it. Is that true for you?
>>34247641Not just new things, it's everything. Nothing is worth the effort. I walked around for a few hours around the woods today, came home and regretted it. There was no point, it was just wasted time and energy. So my thoughts always go towards "why not just sit behind my computer all day?", hence the original question of what I'm supposed to be doing in life. There has to be something better than doomscrolling.
