Someone from /b/ told me to come here. Since last year this time 3 of my pets died, I've become the sole provider of the family, and have been working non stop 7 days a week to make ends meet, and it's just been getting me really down, when I'm not working I keep thinking of my lost pets, and just worrying about who I might lose next, and when I'm working I'm exhausted from just constantly working and feel like I'm not doing my job fully and it makes me feel unfulfilled, and I'm too tired after work to work on my hobbies which used to make me happyI know I probably won't ever do it but I've recently been getting a persistent intrusive thought to kill myself, remove all the stress, all the heart break, all the nagging and constantly problems of life, it's a little worrying, but it's against what I believe to kill myself so I doubt I'll ever do itI just really would like some advice. I used to go to the gym, but between the depression and work schedule getting out of hand, I dropped it, not that it helped much desu. I've been planning on going to church but I'm scared the extra stress of being around so many people will bring be to tears as I'm already constantly on the brink of crying and I don't want to cry in a public space
>>34265640I'm really sorry to hear that anon. I'm sorry about your loss as well. That would devastate me.It sounds like you are working really hard and doing a good job. You likely feel underappreciated, which is honestly one of the worst feelings that a human can feel. Men especially will move mountains for people they love, as long as they feel appreciated. I don't know your situation, but you are doing a good job, and it sounds like you are loved. Even if it doesn't feel like it at times. You are a good person.Just know that it's completely normal to feel suicidal. Life can often be overwhelming, and suicide feels like the only option. But just remember you only have to take it day-by-day. One day at a time. If today sucks, try to accept that and not burden yourself with tomorrow. Nothing is permanent and things will get better, I promise. Try to take it easy on yourself. If you have no other time for anything, try to sit outside in nature for an hour a day. It doesn't have to be concurrent, split it up into 4x 15-minute segments. Our modern human life is not natural. We are of the Earth. Being in nature can be healing.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1RI2lZSKX18
>>34265759Thanks anon your response made me feel a bit better, I'll also give nature a try, maybe walk around the house a bit, maybe sit a little while at their gravesAnd that video made me feel both more miserable but also quite a bit better at the same time, got a couple good chuckles out of me, thanks I'm definitelysavings that one
>>34265785>Thanks anon your response made me feel a bit betterI'm glad to hear that. Everyone deserves to feel good.>And that video made me feel both more miserable but also quite a bit better at the same time, got a couple good chuckles out of me, thanks I'm definitelysavings that oneGood :) I recommend a lot of Louis's stuff. It scratches a certain itch. Life can suck and that's OK. We adapt and overcome. Some days you may falter, and that's OK. We're only human. Just keep pushing.God bless.
>>34265640Can’t the rest of your family help out?
>>34266664Depression wise, probably, but they already have enough stress because of their lack of jobs, I'd rather not worry them. Plus they have their own problems and stressJob wise, my dad is in and out of jobs, but he doesn't have anything stable, he is currently learning skills for a job I got him, but it's gonna be 3ish months before he can take the offerMy stepmother has been without work for 8 years now, we've given up, idk why she can't get one, she used to go to a tooon of interviews, but eventually just stopped trying
>>34267751That’s too bad. I don’t really have any more advice but good luck.
>>34265640Not helpful at all but hopefully not too offensive but either way the picrel and the topic of this post makes me think that Korra is just really depressed because her show was so bad compared to the original Avatar.
