If this sounds stupid, I am sorry. This morning, I was using some tools and accidentally cut myself on my finger. Now I have been on an apathy streak for a while, but this made me feel unbeliavably alive. I wont be cutting myself anytime soon (too pussy) but what are some ways that I can "accidentally" cut myself and feel alive like that again? I need to draw blood like that. It's been 10+ hours and I'm still on that high. You can call me a faggot, gay, retarded, whatever. I just want to feel alive.
>>34267728BPD?
>>34267730I experience most symptoms but I have not been diagnosed by any professional. Why ask?
>>34267733The urge to cut yourself rings a bell
>>34267728maybe go donate blood ?you could depending on where you are earn money and do something good if that would give you the same kick. Its probably not the same but maybe similar enough
>>34267728Use more tools.
>>34267728Foremost, are you a woman? I will give advice as a man for men, have more humans with good energy around you, absorb it and soon when you mimic it, it will be real and feel real. Easier said than done though.
Anon you have issues, the fact you get a kick out of self injury, injury, being injured or what you describe as an apathy streak isn't really normal. I wouldn't presume to suggest what the issue is, but pursuing this new found sense of... whatever it is.... probably not a good idea
>>34267849I am a man anon. >>34267854I feel like I could transmuatate it into a healthy outlet. Got any ideas? lol
>>34267733>I experience most symptoms but I have not been diagnosed by any professionalPlease seek professional help
>>34270517But I don't need it. I just want to feel alive. Talking in circles does nothing.
>>34267743This is virtuous but just doesn't have the same feel. I'll still do that some day, but most of my days are filled with apathy. And that jolted me and made me feel more alive than I ever felt in a very, very long time. Made me feel young again.
>>34267728combat sports. i used to do kickboxing and you get a similar rush. i stopped because i became a perfectionist bitch about it
>>34273568I was seriously considering this, but the possibility of brain damage is absolutely harrowing. Ik I wouldn't kdo it for long enough to actually get that, but A punching bag is enough. Time and money for the possibility of brain damage is not worth it imo. I'd rather shadow box.
>>34267728sometimes when I hit my knee really hard on accident against a table or something like that I miss the way I would hurt myself while skateboarding when I was younger, it's such a nice manly feeling. cutting myself IDK about that though. I don't like cuts but I like bruises. My teachers would always ask me if I got beat up at home rofl
>>34267728Unironically you could start praying and fasting, wanting to cut yourself is influence of evil things. Or just lifting heavy stuff maybe. I used to do it to relieve frustration and seeing blood coming out was sickly satisfying because it meant emotional pain was "coming out".
>>34267728find a spot in nature where its quiet and youll be alone, take a bookbag with some water and fruit of your choice. go walk for a few hours.
