After you read the following story, you will be left thinking that I'm such a loser that I should never have been born, and you're probably right about that. In 2024 I was on 11th grade at a nice school. In the second semester of classes, a girl entered my class - I will call her Beatrice. Beatrice quickly made friends with a few girls in class, always got good grades and seemed pretty intelligent by the way she talked. She was just a perfect-ish girl. I was the outcast of the class and would occasionally say some dumb shit to grab people's attention, from the start of the year, which was my first year at that school. I was also seen as dumb because I didn't pay attention at the classes, didn't do homework and used to get terrible grades (which is why I dropped out). Finally, our school is private, pretty renowed and the tuition was expensive.I ended up dropping out of school but took a test and got a completion certificate, which allows me pursue higher education. I took the entrance exam and was approved in the best university of the country, a top 100 in the world ranking... but in a meme course (I will try to transfer to the course I actually wanted to get into). Beatrice tried medicine on the same university and got far from being approved, but as I saw in our school's webpage, she was approved into a good humanities course, though at a university that's not as prestieged. Plus, she will have to pay tuition while I won't.So, a few days ago (which I will call "Day 1" for the sake of simplicity), I texted her some unnecessary shit. I don't know why I did that desu. I used to have a very small crush on her on the 1,5 month I was together with her at school, but it wasn't anything significant at all.I sent: "Heyy! I got into the best uni of the country! You was only approved in that not-so-prestigious university, right? How did you feel knowing that I was approved there and you wasn't?"
She actually talked to me sometimes. She mostly smiled and started small talk at times, but always had a very confident look. She sat close to me, which favored a higher frequency of interaction (where people sat was determined by the school, not us). She would sometimes laugh at me and I thought she was making fun of what I said, I would feel embarassed. I'm fat, so I don't think she was any attracted to me (still don't think) - it was just her outgoing personality. I have one memory of a day where I argued with a colleague of mine and she said something with a mocking tone to her friend. Anyways, back to the recent happenings:She then sent me a few random stickers.I followed: "You and your friends would laugh at me everyday at school. No one of your group was approved at a tuition-free and some of your friends haven't even been accepted anywhere. How dumb can you be to not pass anywhere?" - and then "Enjoy paying tuition to study at a uni that's not even among the top 1000 while I will study for free at the country's best". Then I mocked her for reading Colleen Hoover and left at that.On the next day, Day 2, I sent her:"Do you regret aiming too high and applying for a difficult-to-pass course at the top uni when you would probably be approved if you chose an easier one?" - then we exchanged some words until she mocked me for being approved into a meme course. At that point, I thought she didn't know that I was approved into this specific course. Then I mocked her again for her shitty literary taste and she mocked me for being the friendless dude I am (lmao).
On Day 3 I was very regretful for being a shitty person to her, when she didn't deserve any of this. I was also curious to see whether or not she had blocked me (I thought she would have blocked me at the first few messages I texted her). She hadn't. I texted her:"Hey, sorry for what I've sent you. I actually always thought you were pretty smart, in a simmilar way to our classmate Daniel. One of our teachers also said this about you. I will now erase your number from my contact list".No, I didn't erase her number. I didn't tell her the reason I would delete her contact info - it was because I didn't want her to feel threatened or unsafe in any way (she probably didn't, actually). Also because I thought to myself that I had to stop texting her.She replied: "LOL. No worries. I never laughed [negatively] about you. I also thought some teachers were unfair to you at times" (they were). She then said "Bye".-------Day 3 was the day before yesterday. I haven't texted her again. But I've been thinking that I would love to be her friend, maybe because she mocked me about being friendless. As I said, she has a nice personality and seems smart. And I really do need friends. My mental health is not good right now, I've been friendless for more than 10 years, probably depressed, and lately I've been feeling down - I'm on a trip, which I'm tired of, and I haven't done sports for 3 months because of vacations and because I'm away from home now.SHOULD I TEXT HER AGAIN AND ASK HER TO BE MY FRIEND? This will probably be 10^∞ times pathetic. My other option is to just try and forget her.What do I do?
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>>34270320>>34270323I sent a text to an ex-classmate that I haven't seen for 1,5 years mocking her for not being accepted into the country's best university while I was, even though I was known as the dumbest dude in the class.Read the whole story, it's a good one, you will have fun. I want to know if I should ask her to be my friend or if I should leaver her alone.
>>34270307So basically you act like an asshole with a huge ego and want people to like you ? Anon, let go of this woman, it's already FUBAR. Your best chance at a normal life is to go to your new school and act normal. Talk to people. Don't do weird jokes. Make new friends that don't know about your cringy past. Also stop acting like the biggest asshole on Earth.
>>34270383>new schoolYou mean UNIVERSITY?I will try to see if I can make friends at university, but the people there all seem to be weird. Don't mean to sound like a /pol/tard, but certain DEI politics adopted by my university made it so that the general quality of admitted students fell significantly (basically 50% quotas for poor people, which makes it easy for them pass the admission exam). I will try to find my people at uni but I fear I won't find cool and worthwhile people there. But maybe I have the wrong impression about my seniors.
