Recently I was hit pretty bad by a flash flood in my area, a lot of my possessions are gone and I'm waiting on being relocated semi permanently. I will be compensated for this but obviously as of now it's not ideal and is a large setback, trying to avoid a blogpost here but that's the gist of it. My biggest problem out of all of this though is I've become increasingly apathetic about life in general after this shit went down. I still have moments of happiness and satisfaction but never to the extent it was before. I've become more numb to pretty much everything, and it feels as if the range of emotion I experience has been limited in some capacity, but not by a whole lot.I've also become unafraid of death now, which is very unusual for me. This is definitely the most bizarre thing I have experienced psychologically, I currently live in a very chaotic environment but even still, it is strange.I've had depression before and been through much worse but it feels different than this. Rather than crushing sadness I now feel as if no matter what I do or achieve in this life, I will never truly be satisfied, whereas before, I could imagine this feeling very well.At the moment I'm just very confused, I'm considering some professional help but I don't have the faintest idea what is afflicting me right now or if it will go away. In short, I need help figuring out what the fuck is wrong with me.Restoring stability to my life seems like the easiest fix but I can't see it helping, nor is it possible right now. Genuinely it feels like my life has gone past some imaginary expiration date and I'm only 20.
You won't convince me otherwise. No words matter. Keep talking until it's over. Idc.
>>34272918You lost important stuffs, thats what made you shocked, my recommendation is go walk at some park, rest by the beaches, eat at restaurant, work with community is all. The important part here is, your emotion has become dulled, so take some beautiful rest cause you need it. Time will heal but talking with friends or family would help in not feeling hopeless. As much as items are concern you are alive anyways, so you can still start over and chisel your heart eh?
>>34274313Ty anon, speaking with friends seems to help somewhat. This feeling isn't grounded in any sort of rationale so I suspect it will go away eventually but time will tell
