I don’t like myself very much
>>34273863Well if you don't like yourself then look for the why and workout the stuff you dislike bout yourself wether personality,body and such
>>34273863me neither it’s okay OP
>>34273877I dislike my entire existence. I hate my herritage, my ethnicity , my skin color, my hair, my nose, my body, my personality, how lazy I am, how sensitive I am, my past actions, everythingShould I just kms
> be me> always feel slightly out of phase with everyone else> conversations are improv jazz and I only know sheet music> sheet music is just repeating things I've heard characters in animes or TV saying and praying it makes someone like me> people form bonds automatically> I run post-game analysis on a handshake> want closeness> terrified of doing something wrong to get it> overcorrect into caution> get interpreted as absence> assume meaning must be hidden in every neutral interaction> build entire narratives from tone, timing, punctuation> none of them verifiable> days oscillate between effort and resignation> lift weights badly> count calories precisely> small progress feels huge because it’s measurable> social progress has no units> therefore brain declares it nonexistent> imagine future> extrapolate current trend line forever> call that realism> small kindness from someone> brain rejects it as statistical noise> brief shared activity> feel normal for an hour> immediately doubt it was real> want to be chosen once> not even permanently> just proof I exist in other people’s world> no invitations> no belonging> interpret silence as verdict> interpret politeness as pity> interpret enthusiasm as mistake> cycle repeats> keep participating anyway> don't like myself
>>34273863Well, for once you're in step with everyone else.
>>34273897Same
Me neither. To be honest I hope one day I have one epileptic attack so strong that kills me for real. I'm epileptic and I read long time ago that these attacks exists.
>>34273863I don't like you at all
>>34273863This is not an advice thread
>>34273863same
