>guys I do have a problem that I have been trying to figure it out during my teenager years (14-18)>I have a really strange sense of time awareness like.. it's indescribable but I will try my best to explain it >I never feel okay or do anything unless time is past 12 pm to 6 pm. >When sun sets down, a weird, uncomfy feeling sets in. I become paralyze and sit, and wait for the night to go away>Naturally, I also have issues with sleep. I could sleep better at daytime but.. I force myself to sleep at 2 am and sometimes 12 pm.>I do engage with life a lot, study business, have healthy hobbies like art, baking cake, taking walks and organizing room. I got myself into college but dropped because I was a feeling a sense of alienation because of how differently things I saw. >I never feel alive before 12 am. I see early morning as something horrendous too.>In childhood, I was almost normal. But suddenly I got a weird sense of awareness and I can't remove it. It's stick to me like a glue and constantly gives me existential crises. >5 pm doesn't feel like 5 pm, it feels like it's 27 pm or something foreign. >Not sure what this is but I'm having trouble describing myself. I tried a lot to fix this issue and see things right, but timing always feel distorted. I also explained it to mom/family/friends but they don't get it
>>34274859It sounds like you have bad habits.I don't think there's anything wrong with the sense of time; day and night are the same, it's just that there's no light at night. Just use a clock. You must have things you want to do; what does time matter? It's just an indicator of events Idk.
>>34275029Anon, I don't have any bad habits. I do my all studies on time, do everything productive, but I see night as something entirely different thing. I do use clock all the time, but I become paralysed with dread when night appears. Even when I check the timing, the night doesn't feel like night anymore, nor it feels like morning. I can't bring myself to do anything. It's something that alienates me from everyone. I'm not sure if I have phobia of nighttime or time blindness.
>>34275134In my opinion, your sense of time is fine.From what I'm reading, you only seem to function well between 12 pm and 6 pm. After 6:30 pm comes sunset, which makes you anticipate the night that begins at 7:30 pm; from that moment on, the night overwhelms you. Do you have windows?And what about sunrise?Perhaps you should enjoy your time idk. Certain songs at sunset sound incredible. ^^
