so i have this inflated self concept that i am some highly original creative genius and I am now realizing that i've failed with all my "genius ideas" as in i havent done the work, ive had the initial idea at some point for some music project, in another case a computer programming project. But i do not put in the effort to manifest the idea from start to finish. I've more or less been unemployed with some internships here and there..for 7 years, am now in my late 20s. And. i find routine work to be beneath me. So.....and it's rare that a narc becomes aware of its own pathology, so inb4 "ur not a narc" i might very well be one.Am attempting to get a job as an electrician now, i feel extraordinarily failed as a person because of this, being so late. And i anticipate that there will come great issues when dealing with the other coworkers or customers or people in general. What advice would anyone give me. in life. Problem is that 1) i lack the conscientiousness to make things happen as i believe dealing with reality in a practical sense is something that boring grunt cog-in-the-wheel types do. 2) I might also lack a great deal of empathy and compassion for people and look down on people who fail or get hurt.I know that the portrayal here of myself is a bit dark and twisted but it is a pathology and i suffer as much as the people i have to deal with so theres that...
you've been humbled, so be humblefocus on yourself, try your bestand catch your mouth if it starts running
>>34326752good advice. it does inevitably come down to that innit? Wellp. I look back on my experiences in internships i realize man, i was such a grandiose person who lacked responsibility, and i also felt that i was on the same level as the higher ups. As in i had a inflated view of myself. it gonna be problematic when i first do land a job, I'm gonna have to be smart about stuff, ofc i'm also going to have to repress a lot of my true nature, wanting to be flamboyant n shiet. In a tradesmans type of job too, something about it is very icky, everyone else being brutes doing manual labour, and then the romantically beautiful dreamer (me) has to lower himself to their level, behave like they do, using vulgar language, Ick...these people, probably bikers and hamburger eating fatsos on their spare time. sorry for the rant, but yes.. the humility, and just shutting up doing the work pretending to be a goodboy might be the best strategy
>>34326736Narcissism exists in everyone, to what degree varies, most functional people are private narcissists, they have the same impulses and inner feelings to be a bit narcissistic but they keep it on a leash and they don't allow themselves to actually believe their impulses and they especially don't express it. They override it due to a stronger belief or principle to behave as functional, and they also have empathy to emotionally convince them of it too, so every day person's narcissism never goes far outside of a few seconds of irritability or mini-manic emotion during high stress or intense stimuli. The younger someone is, the more unrestrained the impulse, the more narcissistic they appear on the outside. 2 - 4 year olds are the most narcissistic on the planet. Even NPDs can't touch them. Then second place is 13 - 18. Teens, basically. 50% narcissistic shitheads 50% functional people. By your early to mid 20's you should be being less and less narcissistic.If this hasn't happened and the human is mid 20's and still very high on narcissism, even their 30s, then it means there's a psychological-whaddya-call-it happening. Psych explanation is kinda shit, the realistic explanation:The narcissist lacks experience, and they know it. They never cognitively grew in skill or experience. They got lots of imaginary experiences but nothing in the real world. This creates an extreme insecurity that when possibly exposed, the narcissist has extreme pain and fear. A gigaton of shame. Trick is narcissists don't need to panic so much. Yeah it's true they lack in the things they claim to know. But it's only due to experience. Once the experience is gained all the mental preparation the narcissist had in their head pays off little by little. And when it does, the narcissist stops being a narcissist, because they find out that it is hard and it is a struggle and they stop feeling better than others who struggle and start feeling fellowship with them.
>>34326781>, ofc i'm also going to have to repress a lot of my true nature, wanting to be flamboyant n shiet. In a tradesmans type of job too, something about it is very icky, everyone else being brutes doing manual labour, and then the romantically beautiful dreamer (me) has to lower himself to their level, behave like they do, using vulgar language,I know a narcissistic tradesman, he gets on fine. All he did was mask the insults and degradations with banter and humour and people love him for it. He gets to see what he actually thinks but learned to smother it with a bit of playful misdirection and no one becomes a problem for him, he gets it off his chest and still gets social rewards for it.
>>34326736You fail your "genius ideas" cuz they were never good in the first place. You're not enough of a narc if you're here agonising over doing literally anything with your puny life instead of making a name for yourself and pursuing the shit you deserve
