https://voca.ro/1a9K7NEbuQmJIt seems useless yet i have hope why do i?summer is coming up, but in the back of my head i think the nightmare is going to continue. I thought that only happens during the winter it was just all the time i just lied to myself. Anyways happy time happy time :-) this is satire im sane happy and healthy ^-^ b
>>34331085Do you possibly have a mood disorder...? I felt similar to what you described a few years ago. Was extremely fucking depressed, insecure. I felt really numb and like my emotions were chained deep down inside of me, but then I became sort of unstable. My mind felt like a ship sailing through an ocean during a storm and I had all these bad thoughts. ;_;
I really want to get help, i dont know how to i just got health insurance so i might try do something with that. Its jsut hard to trust that its gonna work it all unkown, also how is your life it seems were similiar i just wanna know <3
>>34331145>i dont know how toYou never do know how with these things. What did help me unironically though was self-reflection (trying to understand why I was feeling that way and what caused it e.g trauma) Once you figure out what your issues stem from, it is a gazillion times easier to try and 'fix'/regulate yourself! What do you struggle with?>health insuranceIf you're in America or... well... basically anywhere, I feel like therapy is corrupt and it takes a long time to find the right therapist>how is your lifeI'm not sure, kek. I haven't finished it yet. Right now, I'd say I'm pretty okay though. You?
>>34331177>what do you struggle with?Idk, really i ,just feel like a dog, I feel like i cant do anything and when i get sick mentally which is often. it feels like a reset to all ive been doing to not feel like this. Plus the people around me arent the best so its pretty lonely and no to good when they go on their "tirants">health insurance i hear therapist have sex with their patients hehehe, but my brother goes to therapy and it worked for him so this is why i wanna try.>lifefucking sucks right now but thats how life goes waiting for this "high" even though im not really working for it since this recent "low" was a hefty one so i need to recover from it and still going through it.thanks for talking to me <3
>>34331236also here a little something about me like a ero scene from a vn you get a little fun fact!!!! one time i was scared to ask my gym teacher to go the bathroom so i thought it would be better to just piss like hella so my pants are all wet so no one would notice. It worked after gym class was done it was already dried and only had one girl mentioned i didnt really care
>>34331236>feel like i cant do anythingHow do you feel about meds? Like anti-depressants and stuff? I usually don't recommend them since they... bleh, make you lose your entire character/personality BUT maybe the pros will outweigh the cons for you :^) >people around me arent the bestWhat do you mean? Why don't you just leave them if you can't rely on them?>therapist have sex with their patients heheheIdk, the female ones probably do, kek. I think that's a breach of conduct tho>brother goes to therapy and it worked for him so this is why i wanna tryWhat happens if it doesn't work for you?>fucking sucks right now but thats how life goes waiting for this "high"True, I get that. Vidya and shit like that makes it better for me though>thought it would be better to just piss like hella so my pants are all wet so no one would noticeKekw sorry, I don't want to be mean but that's slightly retarded. Would have been stinky af ;_;
>>34331317Idk it seems the path forward is gonna take a lot of my person and i really cherish my person, so i really hate it.>Why don't you just leave them if you can't rely on them?They are my family and i live with them so i dont know. i feel like if i leave ,when i come back they would resemble a horrible image I really have nothing else so i rely on them
>>34331493>my family and i live with themYou're a uni student rite? Are you broke? You can technically get a part time job and save up, try to leave your family if they're weirdos like that. My dad left and my mom was insane so I left too.
>>34333535nah im dropped out at 14 mental issues and got my diploma at 18 ang got a job at 19 and like a broken car finally on the road, i was prone to breaking down so i shut myself in for the whole year and im just now trying to get shit together. So thats the main goal but i really want to help my family because i feel like if i dont im never going to see them again even if its terrible. But i know deep down i dont know why im really here still, if i could i would leave.
