My mom is having heart surgery to fix a leaky valve. She's had an issue with her heart since birth. It didn't stop her from emotionally abusing me most of my childhood.She almost never calls me, and if she does, it's because I'm with my dad, and she wants me back. Today was the first time she has called me unprompted in years. She has never visited the apartment where I have lived for 12 year (minutes from where she lives), even to say hi. I'm pretty effectively shunned for the most part.Towards the end of the call she started crying and saying if she dies to be nice to my sister (ironic because my sister isn't nice to me at all and hasn't been ever). I want to feel something for her but none of this ever crossed her mind when I was upset or crying for my childhood (most of it), mostly induced by her. Is it weird to ask her if she wants to apologize before she dies? Should I just never mention it? I don't plan to attend her funeral. I just want to let her go. She probably wont die at this point. But I wonder if there's a backstory to her abusing me that she's never told. Am I wasting my time with a narcissist? She only cares about me because she's sick.
>narcissist backstoryeh, knowing that my grandparents were emotionally unavailable hasn't helped me any>ask for an apology you can speak your mind about how she hurt you, so you don't regret thatbut it'd have to be a grand fucking apology to fix anything, wouldn't it?focus on yourself rather than someone else's mistakes
>>34331597>you can speak your mind about how she hurt youi wishshe just instantly freezes and calls me mentally ill and tells me to get therapy for my feelings when i bring it up and uses it against mei feel like maybe it would be different if she truly gets near death but I could be wrong >focus on yourself rather than someone else's mistakesyeahI just don't feel like they were mistakes. It was deliberate suppression that she, haughtily, feels no need to face accountability over. i've never had an honest conversation with her. She's always putting on a front.
>>34331517I dont like you either.
>>34331631so much growing up to doavoid your dumb bitch mother
