During lockdown 2021 I spent nearly $4k on Onlyfans girlsI am no longer a coomer, and got into therapy but I feel immense guilt for being such a wimp loser back then. Even tho I have gf now, and blocked those sites I still feel immense shame for spending that much, given it was only picsIs it even possible to move on & not be so hard on myself
>>34332781Why not be hard on yourself and make double that money back? Would not even be that difficult. Vow to yourself that you is going to get good at money.
>>34332781i did the same thing and i was probably a little more than you , i regret it with every ounce of my being and i feel actually disgusting that it ever happened. It happened during probably the most stressful and depressed period of my past job and finding people online to do that kind of thing with is probably my deepest regret. I havnt done it in 2 plus years but it still hurts my soul
You already did the hardest part : you changed. You stopped, went to therapy, blocked the sites, and built a real relationship.You can’t undo the $4k, but you did learn from it. That’s the only part of the past you’re supposed to keep.If the shame still sticks, sometimes talking about it with someone you trust helps shrink it. Most people have embarrassing past mistakes too.
>>34333126this is me -> >>34333126I am severely depressed any time i think of it even though its been 2 whole years
>>34333157>>34333041
>>34332781>Is it even possible to move on & not be so hard on myselfStep 1: QUIT BEING A FAGGOT
>>34333041i just cant move past this one ,the level of depravity was unmatched and im so embarrassed by it all. I hate myself for ever letting it get that bad
>>34333219>I hate myself for ever letting it get that badwell, then kysi did much worse during 2021-2023. Probably six-digits worth of damage (though I had it to spend). You cant change the past, so WHAT DID YOU LEARN ABOUT YOURSELF to make that a valuable experience?the biggest regrets in life are the actions we never take
>>34333230I learned that its not who i want to be and that version of myself i totally hate. It stemmed form lonliness with working 100 hour a week on rotating shift work for 6.5 to 7 years. i didnt know how that life style would trickle down into bad decisions but it really did, never smoked or drank but just deep dove off of the gooner pill.
>>34333430>>34333430>I learned thatgreatnow quit bitching about ityou got a $4k lesson
>>34333451I'm not OP - however i was in a similar situation and for sure spent more than 4k overall - over the most nonsensical bullshit just to feel wanted/needed.
>>34332781Its normal to feel like and idiot after doing idiotic things. So the shame is normal and correct. Just be sure you don't do that anymore and treat it as a retarded moment in your past.
>>34332781>Is it even possible to move onyes
just stop being a pussyive fucked troons and sucked off like 3 guys in my twenties (not gay, just a dark period) and i dont even dwell on it anymore
>>34332781 1 Corinthians 13:11 "When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things"
So erm why do they spend money on porn when there's infinite free shit out thereDo they want to feel special that bad that they'd pay money just to pretend for a whileDid they get click baited or something How does the business of selling something where infinite free variations of it exist work
