I've been expat in spain from Russia since 2023 August. My visa ended in 2023 so I decided to stay illegally. Somehow my family managed to help me with finances until 2025 September. Now I'm by my own im in my early 20's and I've been working in bar for last 5 months obviously without papers and now I lost this job and have my last 9 euros on bank account. My current rent ends at 31 of March I still don't know where I'm gona live after. So basically no documents, no money, nothing. Almost no food I had this situation already in October and I dont want to repeat this experience. I've been threated by my neighbor in house to pay asap or leave from house also he wanted me to work for him doing massages to his clients and give him 50% of income. Every week he came to house and was pressing me to pay in cash to his hands to avoid taxes. And asked me to write him every week if I did put money to box so he could collect em later to send to owner. He was even earning money from subrent. Im living in less than 3 m square room.i don't know what to do and I'm thinking about ending my life at this point. I know I can ask help of charity but I don't want to feel so miserable. I just see it as the end. What you would do. I have a lot of ambitious obviously but I'm too unstable that this thought killing all ambitions in me making me depressed laying in bed. That's the end of story. I don't know what to do.
>>34334889Have you thought about going back to Russia?You could always try begging for money, i heard pan handlers make good coin?I think Spain has some farm work you could do, can't remember if they have vine gardens. Picking grapes sucks, but might be okay pay?Don't kys, just think of something other than that.
If go back to russia goin to jail in airport
vabshe jobnutij pidr?why did you stay illegally? why didnt you prolong the visa? what do your parents say? were you afraid to be sent to the front in ukr?you can go to church or a monastery and work there for free. they have bed, room and food. but they might even want to check your documents/health insurance (if you have hiv/aids ect ect)hablo espagnol amigo? do you have an accent? if not chances are higher that they wont press you on documents in the monastery, but i dont know, i have no idea.
>>34334889>I have a lot of ambitious>fled conscription to go be a depressed bartenderidk brohave you tried working really hard?
Seek help from others Russians and Orthodox Church, if they don`t help then say you are Ukrainian from Donbas, Crimea or some Eastern Region occupied and go ask for help with Ukranians or some NGO, or even the local government.
>>34334889why would you go to spain instead of a country all the other russians were seeking refuge in? get a job for a month and save up, and go somewhere that's accepting of russians and easy to stay in for as long as you'd like, probably something like serbia since they have hundreds of thousands of russians and ukrainians, don't discriminate against you and are the easiest option to stay in legally. or go to georgia or armenia, anything but spain lol
>>34335038Can you claim some kind of refugee status, because you are technically escaping war or conscription?
bro you still have like 18 days until the end of the month you can probably figure something out in that time. You said your family used to support you financially until September 2025 so I think you should try to ask for help from them again. also If you can ask a charity for help just do it bro cuz sometimes charity money ends up going to people who don’t even need it or deserve it ( like my uncle )and you already managed to find a job without papers before sooo you might be able to do it again the same way .maybe try contacting your old job and see if they can take you back or ask your family or even other russians you know in Spain for help It's early to start thinking about suicide there is some hope , laying in the bad wont help you .you still have time
Last comment gave me strength but still kinda depressed as he'll but thank you Op I appreciate it.
