i have a very low fucking self esteem i overthink everything >i see someone with an anime pfp>oh this guy is gooner he would get bored with me>i should try to be interesting>i say:hey bro how are you>he doesnt reply>isay:heyyy why you ignoring me you fat piece of shit>next i spam multiple times for at least 5 minutes saying random shit Now i stopped being erratic after forcing myself to be rude to people and lowkey insulting them and desu just saying wtv is on my mind results are>lower obsessing >increase in self esteem>calmer>actually can rizz since im not a desperate idiotwhy tf does this randomly happen how can i stay like thishow do i stop being like this deadass can someone also explain why ami i like thissounds like teenager behavior im not a teen
for context i dont even have a single way of contacting ever not for real life family nor irl friends nor online friendswhen i feel lonely i get on omegle or anything and try to text people i dont have friends nor cant make any since im erratici just be an asocial schizoid fuck who rarely contacts anyone which probably fucked my perception of reality to understand I DONT even have a single main account on anything >youtube>reddit >twitter>facebook yes i use that unironically >snap or wtv really anything you name it>discordeven ps accounts is all fake i stopped using mains and i keep ditching the fake ones cause i get anxious i literally have not less than 40 gmails all connected to different stuff ineed to be put down literally
>>34363783Have some meta-cognition. Think before you text.
>>34363829thank you yes i do that but i still have very disruptive crazy line of thought that wont change even rni usually take around a minute or 2 before i text back but this progresses into longer intervals and i obsess about my ritual of waiting a long time before answering since i think or start to think it brings luck or peace (which i had none of those before)sorry for long talk
>>34363783>i need to be put down literallyare you a dude or a girl?
>34364043why would that matter?
Try progressing in your life a bit further building skill set and self-confidence in yourself
>>34364125thanks anon appreciate it first time agreeing with u not gona lie
>>34363783You will never be a woman.
thnx mike*
>>34364201>>34364234You are welcome. I can understand how I may come across to others, I do care and want to help those in need just like I do when not onlineI take accountability for myself. Others do not understand that I am putting my Maria first and protecting us because unfortunately we are targeted to harm us.
>>34363783men love bitches and mean womenyou probably have some severe anxiety and uncertainty intolerance that you should work on
>>34363783Go touch grass and meet people outside. Join the scouts (pretty good for spectralfags), join a hiking club, get bicycle and join a cycling club, pick up a foreign language and go to meetings where people speak said foreign language.
