>>34355711sup /adv/. u havin a good time?I know I am not. might have a mental problem or something.>be german>be 32, male>live at my parents'>2 brothers (one older, the other younger) are also at home trying to fix life, same as me>omw to become a system admin/technician since I have figured out what I want to do>be intern for said vocation>actually like the job>absolutely get depressed about the concept of work whenever I think about it>absolutely get depressed about going to classes to attain knowledge for this job branch>constantly have to lie to my parents that I am already done with my education and working regularly>get about 600 euros a month so I don't really have much money as my retraining program is being paid for by the governmentin actuality my life isn't too bad for me compared to others. my thoughts are all over the place as you notice. I am not sure what I should do.all I do is go to work, take part in classes and then get home feeling tired. playing vidya later during the day helps out a little, though I don't get to play them all the time since I feel emotionally drained in the evening. however, I feel drained most of the time during the day.any suggestions as to what I should do? therapy would be pointless I imagine.I have at least shaped up because a /fit/ body helps you mentally apparently.there's probably also some stuff I ought to start doing like drawing and creating projects to keep my mind from feeling like this.
lol, messed up my post. typical
>>34367631Why are you lying about still taking classes? I'd think your parents would understand that you need to take classes for the job? Well, you're in the lie now, may as well keep up with it and get the job. You're fucked if you don't get the job.There is nothing wrong with dreading work or wanting to be home playing video games. It sucks to not have energy when you get home to do the things you want to do. Learning new skills is also more draining, so look forward to being done with classes, whenever that is.When you have breaks during classes, try to give yourself something to look forward to during that day. Maybe there is a place nearby that you can get a special treat from. Get used to not buying more games until you start making money. You're not playing them anyway right now. Being /fit/ will help your energy levels, but you need to also be eating right to fuel your exercise. You may be tired from exercise too, especially if your food prep isn't good enough. Water is the gas and food is the oil of the machine that is the human body. Make sure you eat right before a workout, and not too much either. Also, give yourself rest days where you might game instead of working out.
>>34367631Ok I am younger than you and unemployed and kind of autistic so with that disclaimer out of the wayI always perceive everything as effort and as boring so I've been thinking recently about how "work" is basically focus without dopamine, also how we always say we're "tired" after a long day but it may just be our drained ability to focus (+ our dopamine system getting less rewarding late in the day)Now my friends always tell me I'm depressed and I need hobbies but I tell them I lack the initial "energy" to get hobbies but maybe the problem is not a lack of energy but just no habit of doing things without "reward"In theory the solution is to go running late in the day because that way you practice to work when you think you're tiredYou said you are fit, I am too, but the gym requires no mental effort from me and I suspect the same for others.
>>34367631No one is free OP. Work or you are a slave to the streets.
>>34367659if I didn't lie my mom would just have a reason to tell me to go fuck myself. I know I messed up a lot. my mom already suspects that I might still be taking classes. she hints at forgiving me if that is the case but I won't bite. we brothers have been manipulated way too much during our growth anyway.I love my mom and I won't ignite our relationship.being fucked if I don't get the job also makes me think that if I really didn't get it what would it matter?guess feeling like shit leads to a pretty bad case of apathy.right now I am in class (online that is) and I am not missing anything rn so I am looking forward to gaming in the evening. dunno if I'll commit to it though.I won't be exercising since my muscles are strained from the weekend. what really helps I realize and what I look forward to is food. eating is so good, makes you feel good. pure dopamine.exercise doesn't emotionally drain me though so I am looking forward to my next session which might be tomorrow or the day after.>Also, give yourself rest days where you might game instead of working outyeah I wish I only had rest days if you catch my drift :)>>34367677thanks for replying. I am also autistic I'm afraid. which is why I am on 4channel, like you and other anons. maybe I am looking for long-term rewards idk but an activity's rewards usually don't do anything lasting for me.>>34367678sadly true. I'll grit my teeth and get that job, then hopefully reduce my work hours per week if that is feasible.
>>34367694>mom already suspects that I might still be taking classes. she hints at forgiving me if that is the case but I won't bitewhat the fuck is wrong with you?
>>34368012you make it sound like you have a healthy relationship with your parents. good for you.I'll have to be careful because mine isn't.it is upsetting me, too but to feel less like shit I have chosen to proceed the way I am.
>>34368023>healthy relationshipyeah lol, i grew up and told them the truth: they're delusional assholes who poison any assistance they provide
