The only time where im slightly happy or excited is when im dreaming, my dreams are amazing sometimes but then I woke up, and my heart is dry as fuck, and then I rot in the bed for the rest of the day until dark, where i have dinner and go to sleep, its been almost 5 years living like this.

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>>34369559
We all go through periods of darkness, but the road is always there to follow :)

Sometimes i feel the same way, i never had a girlfriend, i don't have many friends, i own almost nothing and am broke, will i give up? Of course not, it's hard to accept it, but in my judgement, some men are meant to live a humble life as a warning to others in this age where materialism and consumerism are everything. Think of figures like John the Baptist (pic related), who never owned anything, and his death came becuase some high ranking woman hated his guts, and yet he was glorified through the centuries.
You will have many things in life, you will be denied many things in life, but your faith is the only thing that nobody can take away from you, not even if the whole world is against ya, so if you can't follow, lead.
I hope it helps, stay strong.

>>34371908
i want to believe in Him, but according to st thomas aquina you need three things:intellect, will and grace from God.

Im afraid I dont have the last one, His grace to believe in Him.

>>34371969
Grace is granted as far as I know, you're lacking will

>>34371969
Don't think it's so simple, Aquinas himself was a Dominican, who focus on Divine Intellect, Franciscans focus on Divine Will, what i want to say is that whole religious orders and multitudes of people have tried to understand it and it's incredibly challenging.
I often also think that i fall from the state of Grace, but i also remember one thing, God is merciful, and even though i am not perfect, i refuse to betray, as the character of Job shows us in the Old Testament.

If you're not sure, examine your conscience and repent again, if you still feel like you're far from Grace, be certain that you're not morally culpable for something that you don't know. Lastly, your focus should be on the present and the future, what your potential as a person is matters much more than what you have done, God often chooses the weakest, most distorted or otherwise faithless people and turns their life around, so that the impact of His glory can be more pronounced. If degenerates repent or robbers and murderers become saints, how much more potential do you have?

>>34369567
lol

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>>34369567
I lived this way. Suddenly gained clarity at 35 for the first time. If you don't change you're going to regret it more than you can presently imagine.

being spiritually dead is a great starting point for something better. it's the people who think they are spiritually fulfilled by hiking and yoga and don't need anything else who are done for.

>>34369559
>only 23
You’re in for a rude awakening

>>34369559
>I believe im spiritually dead, i dont feel anything and I have no much desire to continue living although im only 23 years old
Yes, you probably are, maybe try asking God to receive a new heart, to receive ears to hear and eyes to see, and for him to give you a new spirit, to be born again of the spirit of God. Maybe you noticing you're spiritually dead is the calling taking effect, maybe you're one of his elects.