I'm at a point in my life where I don't know if I can improve from here or should just end it. I've worked a few office jobs as a structural engineer, but I just seethe all day while working due to brain damage from a suicide attempt 7 years ago, and don't want to go back to work to just seethe and gain weight for nothing. I'm basically an autistic retard, even though I have degrees in civil engineering and computer science. I really wanted to code for a living, but that's dead, and I just keep getting rejections. Never had a gf, but I fuck hookers constantly and thats getting boring. All my money is in a stack of gold I bought a while back, but if I eat through it, I'm literally fucked. The only thing I'm looking forward to is losing weight and getting gyno surgery to feel more normal. I feel like a reverse tranny where I'm a male that just wants to remove these fucking asymmetrical glands on me. I would have ended it, but I don't want to die before getting a normal-looking chest. Also, last year I had a full-on psychotic break and was in literal hell, feeling like a rabid animal, but got better after moving back with my parents and got put on sped meds. The fact I sort of got out of that hell makes me feel like I can get out of this hell, but idk how. Being a cuck seems pointless.
Just own the moobs fag, if it's not a functional surgery then fuck offInstead of letting some lopsided moobs define your entire life just figure it out the best you can, joke about it and then move the fuck on from it
what you want advice about, or did you mean to post this in the /gioyc/ (literally in your case, kekerino) thread?
>>34376794I have no clue I'm just bored out my mind. Never really post here so wanted to rant i guess
>>34376794Actually can a person like me ever have a girlfriend or am I too autistic
>>34376805I'm autistic as fuck and had several gf's. Sure I fucked it all up and I've been alone for eons now but I did have gf's. So yes you can have a gf too.
>>34376748That does not sound like such a bad deal.
Sounds like you have depression and your manboobs are an explanation attempt why you feel that way.They probably aren't. Getting rid of them won't fix your life, at most it will improve it, which is something, but don't expect it to be the holy grail.Losing weight is a good idea, finding a job that doesn't annoy you would be even better.You might also want to get checked for depressions, medication can help you while you get better habits.Good luck
>>34376748Try carnivore diet. It's good for losing weight, fixing hormone issues, and schizophrenia (could be because of low carb or no gluten). For me it fixed my body dysmorphia and tranny fantasies.
>>34376748Seconding this guy >>34389717 Getting cock in my ass also helped with fixing my body, oh and drinking cum - always let them finish down your throat. DON'T pull it out while they're throbbing and pulsating in the back of your mouthFixed me right up
