Is there such a thing as Work Trauma? I can't pick an occupation. There's contradictions in every reasoning I make, I still want things like a child.Above all I want to feel important and receive recognition on my own merit, I want my work to stay mine and be rewarded for it. But working is just about survival, it's about doing the least effort for the minimum requirement since the fruits of labor are never yours. I want to be successful and to work in ethical ways, but the only jobs that pay high are those about ripping people off or fucking up the environment.I used to want to be a biologist and learn useless shit about plants and living things. I know that really doesn't lead to any industry, it actually opposes industry and thus is antithetical to the reality of this world.I ended up graduating medicine, but got sick of the abusive and impossible training. Everything is high stakes, every day there's something you were supposed to know but didn't, so everything feels like failure. The only way to advance is through contests of skill to get a multiple year comittment to training.Now it feels like no job is good enough. No job feels important, no job feels rewarding because there's always a tradeoff. My brain can't go back to that retarded ratrace of medicine. Every time I try something new, I collapse at the first challenge because I'm reminded I am not doing it perfect from the getgo as was demanded from me in medicine. It's like that shit rewired how my brain expects work to be.
>>34377686>Is there such a thing as Work Trauma?No. You were made weak by a less than solid upbringing. Just read this book, The Road Less Traveled. Take notes about it, refer to it as many times as you need to. It'll all be okay.https://www.mediafire.com/file/izw36z57zykeefy/The+Road+Less+Traveled,+25th+Anniversary+Edition+_+A+New+Psychology+of+Love,+Traditional+Values+and+Spiritual+Growth+(+PDFDrive+).pdf/file
>>34377686>it's about doing the least effort for the minimum requirementIt's about doing good work because your own pride and set of standards do not let you do any less, and maybe even being recognized for it.
>>34378586I already did that and I never got rewarded for it. There just are shitholes like that out there. No matter how much i tell you about the effort i put in, that's just a place that doesn't correlate with effort. They are engines combusting people's "dreams" since the surplus of those is infinite. But enough about medicine. The real issue is that I cannot appreciate my work anymore. I go to a basic coding bootcamp and I shit myself for not knowing to design, i stall at the design because I think "This should be great quality, this should not fail, this isn't the one way to do it, i can't find that way". Just wrapping it up feels like I did mediocre work. A lot of that mindset feels like it comes from medicine where i got shit every time for every thing, and I did my best to correct and be better, but now all that's left is that internalized shame and invasive thoughts.
>>34377686>learned in a shitty environment and now my motivations are all fucked upmushrooms or ibogain are treatments for this
>>34377686> Above all I want to feel important and receive recognition on my own merit, I want my work to stay mine and be rewarded for it.I have such a job.>But working is just about survival, it's about doing the least effort for the minimum requirement since the fruits of labor are never yoursI’m rewarded quite well for my work. We are expected to try hard at work. Minimum effort people are quickly removed.>I want to be successful and to work in ethical ways, but the only jobs that pay high are those about ripping people off or fucking up the environment.I don’t know about that. I don’t feel my job is unethical. I write productivity software so mu job is to save people time and money. I find that quite ethical.> I ended up graduating medicine, but got sick of the abusive and impossible training.This seems to be the crux of the problem. You want a meaningful job, but you are not qualified for the amount of stress in a field like health care. Any career or job that is meaningful will require a high of effort or stress tolerance. Maybe you don’t see any jobs as rewarding because you are looking at low skill jobs.> there's always a tradeoffThis is true of everything in life. The people that say they enjoy their jobs are not free from stress. They simply have a better time enduring it because they enjoy the rewards at the end, whether it be seeing the results or just having more money.
>>34377686i have respect for you for tryingsorry anon
>>34377686The reason why medicine demands perfectionism is because without that fire up your ass people die. Would you want a doctor or surgeon to be loose and casual about their craft if you needed their expertise to save your life or treat an illness of your loved one?
