I have nothing in my life at all. No hobbies, no career goals, no friend group, no skills or passions or anything. I lay in bed staring at my ceiling until it's time to wageslave. I spend all night at work high off my ass, then I come home and jerk off to porn before eating "dinner" (usually something unhealthy and non-nourishing) and going to bed. That's my entire existence. A pathetic dopamine loop.I dunno what to even do with myself, or how to change this situation. It's like I have no will to live. I should probably start exercising or something, that's a piece of advice I've heard a lot and you obviously can't go wrong from working out. But it's like I don't care about myself at all, so when I'm putting in the labor and getting tired it's really easy to give up. I don't care about my body or my health, I'd just be doing it to get laid. I'm so lazy it takes me weeks to take out the trash, or wash my clothes. I've had dirty dishes in my sink for like a month. I'm pathetic.The only semi productive thing I do is take walks, on my days off it's really all I do. And drink in public. I'm genuinely thinking about selling all my shit and just walking away. Just living outside and exploring the world while I'm still young and capable. Sleeping in the fucking woods. I'd basically be a homeless bum, but I feel society has turned its back on me already. At least by putting myself in that situation I might start to feel alive, not like I'm just waiting to die.
if you go, leave the fake dopa behind
Homeless men get killed and raped, maybe try to skill up and find a better job. Wish I could offer a practical route but I am likely much older than you and stuck in the same position/mindset.
>>34379566>Skill up and find a better jobFor someone like me (highschool dropout) that usually means a trade job. I'm not a blue collar manual labor kinda guy. I've got soft hands and no work ethic. I don't wanna work 12 hour days with a bunch of niggers and felons working on fucking pcp pipes or digging holes. Or cutting metal. I don't know shit about computers either, I'm only 25 but completely technologically illiterate. I guess these are just excuses or whatever, but don't think I haven't tried any of this. I actually was an apprentice once but they fired me for racism.>Homeless men get raped and killedHow common is that really?
>>34379474Same, I on the other hand, don't really care. Just accept you have no purpose in life and keep doing whatever you are.
>>34379474I'm sorry you seem depressed. You match every single item in the list.You must accept you are ill. It's usually hard to accept the physicality of your mind, but it's the first step.Have you ever been more happy in the past? For no "reason"? That's called mood, and it's just the health of your brain, like any muscle that happens to be strong perhaps some training or better nutrition did it.The seasons also influence mood. Perhaps spring will improve it. Or not.You never questioned why drinking make you happy? it's just alcohol that make anxiety dissapear. Drugs are just chemicals.Because your brain is just chemicals.You are made of flesh and blood, and you need something to heal it.Thoughts will not save you.Have a good day.
>>34379611I don’t know how common it is but it seems like living outdoors is pretty dangerous, would you consider CDL driving? Could be a way to see the country while not being so vulnerable/poor I dropped out of high school as well and have been looking for alternative career paths since I make shit money like you. Sorry I am probably not the person you want advice from
>>34379474Play your part
I am like this too. Nothing interests me and I just pass my day doing nothing. Not interested in any career or playing this game called life. Sometimes I feel ok and just pretend it's alright and then I become manic and freak out
