How do I cope with the fact that everyone around me thinks I'm a retard and assumes the worst from me to the point that every interaction feels like a trap because they already decided I'm wrong before I even say anything>someone asks me how to do something>I answer>immediately watch them ask someone else the same question and get told the same answer>only then do they go and do it because my word wasn't good enough apparently>get asked a vague question about some shit that happened>obvious that they're trying to blame me for some perceived wrongdoing, say why are you asking?>OMG STOP DODGING JUST ANSWER THE QUESTION AND PLAY ALONG WITH MY SUBTLE INTERROGATION EVEN THOUGH I COULD JUST TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED AND HOW TO ACT ACCORDINGLY MOVING FORWARD I NEED SOMEONE TO BLAMEEven small talk feels like people vetting me to sniff out my autism and it always feels like I'm being accused of something and there's no option for me other than to own up to whatever they're insinuating and if I do try to justify whatever minor thing they felt the need to point out when they could have just ignored it, they just keep pressing me with more "why" questions until I can no longer explain myself.I wish I actually got bullied in school, then at least I could beat the shit out of my problems. There's just no winning in this passive-aggressive feminine world where everyone's an insecure faggot who feels like they have to have the last word and do all this power move bullshit, and I look like the asshole for calling them out on their bullshit because it's just subtle enough to where no one sees it. I'd rather be called a straight up retard to my face than have someone do that BS where they tell me to do a basic task and then immediately explain how to do it because they just assume I'm a stupid retard and don't even leave it up to me to ask for more thorough instructions myself.
I always just keep quiet and let it go and let them believe what they want to believe because I don't have the energy to defend myself or get into arguments, but I can tell they internalize all of these interactions and it gets used against me. It's why I don't like asking people for clarification before I do something because they just explain the whole fucking thing to me like a retard when I only asked about one specific part and then the next time it comes up they talk down to me because they remember the last time I "didn't know how to do it" and they had to "teach me" and they do it in front of everyone else so they pick up on the "hey this guy's a retard" signposting. Or they say "remember how to do this, anon. Remember how I taught you, anon" like I would have forgotten after basically being humiliated. I'll even do that annoying shit where people chime into other people's conversations to demonstrate their knowledge just to communicate to those around me that I understand certain things and they'll still remind me of obvious shit because my previous exposure to them wasn't overwritten.And anytime I get fucked over because someone didn't do their job and I have to point it out to them after someone questions me when it inevitably comes to light, everyone turns on me like I just threw someone under the bus instead of letting myself get incriminated for some shit to be a "team player". I always try not to point fingers in situations like this, but that doesn't stop people from namedropping me to use as a scapegoat for something I had no part in.
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>>34380070relatable. have you tried acting more retarded than you actually are? like full on retardmaxxing. like play into it haha
>>34380070You're already copping pretty well.You can't change people, the only option to have peace is to get a retard certificate and to live of neetbux.
>>34380683Unironically the best advice. You sound like you're doing just fine OP. Nothing new under the sun. Life is miserable, at least have some fun with it. Fuck with the NPC's.
