I feel as if I am very afraid of even trying to live a fulfilling life. Mostly because of how I think about good things. My first thought of "What if I meet the woman of my life and marry her?" is "What if she dies or leaves me?" I basically think the worst of getting into situations that sound great on paper. "What if I get a really good job at that other spot?" "What if they fire or lay me off?" I basically don't want huge major improvements because I am afraid of losing them. Like right now, I have never been in love but I almost don't want to fall in love because I wouldn't want it to be over at some point. The thought of losing it makes me not want it in the first place. Not sure how to get around thinking like that because I feel it really holds me back. Any suggestions?
