I need real practical schizoid advice from someone who has escaped this hell.If I can't escape this I will die or go insane. I'm sure of it.Some people hypothesize that schizoidism is an early stage of schizophrenia and I'm starting to believe that might be true because I am losing my grip. Schizoidism is basically like the ultimate "mask". I am very afraid of what's bottling up underneath.When I am in social situations it's like my brain literally stops functioning. I am truly head empty no thoughts. It's such a struggle just to think of one paltry thing to say. Nothing works. I feel like I will have to genuinely fry the inhibition center of my brain with psychedelic drugs to get anywhere. I've seen what that does to people and its like cutting off your nose to spite your face. I don't think it's a real solution and I know it will make things worse for me.There is a confluence of other factors that makes all of this much worse but I just need some kind of leverage and I feel if I can get past this one thing maybe it will all become manageable and at least I won't have a complete meltdown.
>>34389738>who has escaped this hellyou don't, you only learn to cope better. Or you take medication and become a thoughtless automaton
No idea. I've been diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder and have struggled for over a decade. Still a virgin at 35. Therapy, drugs, hospital stays all useless
>>34389738The first step is to stop reading bullshits online and analyzing your full life trough the lens of "schizoid, I can't do shit". The table in your pic was devised by a dude decades ago based on a few observations and lots of assumptions. It's mostly bullshits. The reality is that data about SzPD is very scarce, and researchers have been thinking about scraping this disorder because they can't really clarify it and make it useful. I don't know about the next step, but not feeding yourself with bullshits is already a great move. Stop victimizing yourself and simply work on the various blocks in your life. You'll improve. A friend of mine has been spending the previous 15 years thinking about his ADHD and supposedly cPTSD. What did he accomplish? Nothing. Morbidly obese, jobless, his skills stagnated, empty social life, unable to do anything because he's got the belief he can't do anything, he's insufferable, highly egotistical, and so on. He's a giant waste because he keeps feeding himself with bullshits and victimizing himself instead of working with what he's got.
>>34389738unironically all mental problems stem from problems of the physical systemsince thoughts are literally just signals from your nervous systemand nervous system is triggered by your physical body and each cell within itthus, to fix problems of the mind you must cure the signals coming to themSo to fix the majority of the signals coming to your brain you must1) lose weight - optimal body fat percentage of 12-15%2) increase cardiovascular function - strengthen the power your heart pumps your blood3) finally avoid heavy sugar + fat dietsNow the problems you face become much more manageable at that pointif somehow you're a /fit/ tard who already is fit and still facing schizo and anti-social problems even after thatwell you must begin complete and utter exposure therapystop studying stop pursuing mental tasks and start pursuing social tasks
>>34389738This image is literally me. I haven't found an answer yet. I did find this podcast that made me understand a little better: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktZaynHWvzwThere is a line at the end that really stuck to me: 'What shows results for a schizoid is elaborating the self in front of a accepting, non intrusive but highly responsible other'The way I currently understand is:You need to rewire your brain. Currently it goes through the same pathway everytime. So the idea is to go do something that scares you and it will be terrifying but you will survive. The thing is just doing that by itself won't change the pathway. You need a person to reflect back to you that it is okay.I don't know if this is making any sense. The one time that I felt that I was making some progress was when I made friends with this girl and somehow she just disarmed my trigger alert system. I could just be myself around her and it made me feel like I could do that with everyone.I went to 3 therapists and they all just did cbt flowcharts and I felt like it was very useless. I did work to convince me that I needed to reach out and be more social. That was goodAlso don't belive in people saying that personality disorders can't be cured. The only reason it cannot be cured is because it is not a disease. You can change your behaviour it is HARD and it takes time
>>34393312Also what the guy is saying about the gym works in part. After doing very hard cardio most of my schizoid shutinness got way better. It does last for like 15minutes only though
>>34389738>figure out your patterns>figure out the reasoning for your patterns>start changing them"empty head without thoughts" on its own isn't schizoid. Why does that happen? Figure that out. If you can't then get therapy.
Are you an actual diagnosed schizoid?
>>34389738Pick every man who is disgruntled, every woman who is furious, every individual who is isolated, and every person who is disappointed with what the system and want it torn apart. You pick'em up and tell them: you are absolutely right. You are already halfway to do this, since you took your time to write this mini-essay on the angst of the people. You seem to have the talent to relate to pain, and that is precious and useful.This is what the enemy fears the most. They do not want people to relate to the pain of others, especially to the pain of those who have much more in common with them than the enemies have.We need discontent to fester, we need pain to become intolerable, we need to turn off the heater on this pan of frogs to +5000 Fahrenheit so we jump with claws in hand to gnaw at the cook.There is no easy solution but the spread of horror, of desperation and of the need for immediate action.In this complicated times, we need simple solutions. The two solutions are the destruction of the existing system, or the destruction of all those who cannot live in it (increasingly, every single person). Canada has given up already, and they'll tell you to kill yourself if you are struggling with rent. Modern countries import foreigners, they do not care that their youth is giving up on life. The system has given up on us already. So either we die through our own means, or we just rally every loser like us into the greatest Hail Mary civilization has ever experienced, the last manifest of the faustian spirit: the ultimate revolution that destroys Enlightenment civilization.In short, your retirement plan is now winning the next civil war.
>>34391076Then why are you still friends with him