I ran away from home when I was 23. I came back a month later because I nearly died of illness. This happened in November 2023. Since then, I've been patient and rebuilding my life. I'm not a fat fuck anymore. I had extremely low self-esteem that I only got over after pushing myself to make eye contact and talk to people, especially women. I was VERY close to getting my first girlfriend but I gave her too mixed signals that we ended up confusing each other. I enrolled in college and so far have straight As. It sucks that I still have to wait 2 more years before I even have the privilege of thinking about starting my life. I still don't have a car. I had to pay for driving school an get coworkers to help me learn how to drive at 25 because not a single adult in my life thought it was a good idea to teach me any survival skill whatsoever. I taught myself how to cook. I went to the doctor by myself and paid for surgery to pull out a tooth because my teeth are fucked up from bad hygiene. 2 years just to be a normal person. That's fucking crazy. I hate every single person in my family. I hope they all rot in hell. Anyways, realistically, is it even possible for me to live on my own in a city like Los Angeles? Most rent is around 2-3K. That's discounting bills. I want to move away from family but I fear that I might be waiting for years before I even have that privilege. I don't want to be homeless again because I have no support network. If I become sick, it really will be game over for me.
the work shall set you free
I was able to escape living with my parents by moving in with my girlfriend. She now has assumed all of my moms duties like doing laundry and grocery shopping for me :)
