>be me>already an adult>divorced parents since childhood>mom wont leave alone and still shout me at the smallest thing>will not be able to afford living alone at peace because european housing market is a shit>no friends since primary school and still virgin (already gave up on both things)>teachers telling me unironically that im smart but im failing at calculus and losing motivation to study>cant sleep well since last year and cant concentrate in class>while also wanting to study the career im passionate about and not be a worthless neet>lost motivation in almost everything>might fail this year>mangaanime and light novels are my only escape from reality>might actually be restarted>wanted to go to the gym but im scared of people>prolly autistic>how do I fix my life?
finish your goddamn degree (or don't I don't give a shit) and get a job so you can move out
I havent really been NEET for a few years, but there are times where I end up close to falling back into it, could be because im lazy and discontent with life. One thing that kept me going was trying to obtain a long-term goal that i cant just obtain in a day or two. I dont have it figured out, but i find myself capable of managing through compartmentalization of all my tasks. focusing on one task first and organizing the remainders later when i have "it" figured out. I spent years not really caring about my future, i never had any goals and would wake up, browse the internet, play vidya, and sleep. if i continued like that, I would have an heroed years ago. Think long, think hard. It's up to you to figure out your long term goals. Have you lost interest in your prospective field of study?Honestly, you sound like you are attempting to talk yourself out of everything. I dont really know your situation but I have been in this situation to some extent, I dont know exactly when I crawled out of that mental hole, but i think It kinda stopped after setting a bunch of long term goals. to this day, these goals still motivate me. every hamster needs a wheel
>>34394736I'm also eastern euro.Was in exact same situation except wasn't virgin/had friends. Well whatever, that didn't help. 1) Fix your sleep. Most important part. Get drugs. Atarax, trazodone lowest dosage, whatever. Depending on which eastern euro shithole you're from, they won't prescribe you this. Beg them. Lie to them. Ask ai to help you lie convincingly. Beg your mom. Whatever. If prescription drugs are no option, get OTC. Coffee/tea - decrease usage, only drink before noon. FIXING YOUR SLEEP IS PRIORITY #1. 2) Follow >>34395141 . It works, it's just how brain works, hard science. You also probably lack self-directedness, fortunately fixing dopamine is the same as fixing self-directedness. Use gym as your task to train self-directedness on. Just getting your ass. To the gym. Is all you have to do. Enter the locker room, that's it. Once you enter it, you can go back home if you are too scared of people. Go in, do what's comfortable/not scary, you'll get used to it. If it's scary, it's scary. Do what's not too scary at first. This is gradual, don't set goals like "ok im gonna take a cold shower and go to the gym and do all the exercises and then do my calculus homework" from the getgo, you'll fail and reinforce that failure pattern. Start with easy shit you can do, your job is to build and reinforce a pattern of succeeding, the scale of your success doesn't matter at all. Repeatable pattern reinforcement does.
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