>>34396517
>posted from my Android phone

>>34396517
>Sorry for the weird question but I've been having strange existential thoughts lately and it's atopping me from being able to enjoy life. I'm not religious and I struggle a lot to find meaning or purpose in life. I don't believe there's a greater meaning for this life but I desperately want to believe. I really want to believe there's a bigger purpose to all of this that isn't revealed to us until death. But the universe has shown me nothing thus far.
what are you EXPECTING from the universe?
would you say you're angry or afraid or what?

ther'es probably some specific reason from your life why you started feeling this way, also

>>34396517
Because.

>>34396517
In all nothingness and infinity, the probability of this happening to you is guaranteed.

>>34396517
>Why am I a straight male?
Kinda gay that you would even bring it up.

>>34396520
nope, I have an iphone not that it really matters
>>34396521
>what are you EXPECTING from the universe?
I honestly don't even know anymore... just a sign? Literally anything? There are people who claim to be really spiritual and in touch with God or the universe or whatever and I have never felt that. I WANT to feel that.
>would you say you're angry or afraid or what?
I guess both? I am angry that this universe appears to be so cold and unfeeling. I am afraid that this is all there is and that there is nothing beyond this life other than this moment in time.
>>34396537
>ther'es probably some specific reason from your life why you started feeling this way, also
Yeah I had chronic depression and was deeply unsatisfied with the state of my life. But it has gotten to the point now where even if something good is happening for me I'm still unable to fully immerse myself in the moment. I cannot fully enjoy anything without thinking about what it all means. I guess I just feel really powerless and am desperately searching for meaning and a form of control over my life.
>>34397289
>Because.
Oh okay.

The whole question is a failure of logic. You could only ever be you with your genetics and life experience. You could not exist outside of your specific life

>>34397289
hehe yeah. gonna watch the chaser now, it's a korean thriller movie. good night all.

Why am I not a bug or a microbe?

>>34396517
Youre a robot with flesh and bones. You just so happen to be smart enough to question your existence by not to understand it

>>34398286
Indeed, for it would not be you otherwise. The you that exists does so only whilst attached to your memories and experiences and personality.

If 'you' were to be born in another time and live through different experiences, it would be 'you' only in flesh, but not in everything that is your own self.

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>>34397487
>I honestly don't even know anymore... just a sign? Literally anything? There are people who claim to be really spiritual and in touch with God or the universe or whatever and I have never felt that. I WANT to feel that.
i see
u probably can, so don't give up on it
have you ever been to a church? you might want to find local ones & see if any of them look good, try a few before giving up
>I guess both? I am angry that this universe appears to be so cold and unfeeling. I am afraid that this is all there is and that there is nothing beyond this life other than this moment in time.
i think this makes you spiritually vulnerable
it's something i see other people (some of the best, most human people) very tormented by today, and which i've seen written about
make no mistake, the world is UNNATURALLY cold right now, and so are people
but you can still find & create heat in your own life
>Yeah I had chronic depression and was deeply unsatisfied with the state of my life. But it has gotten to the point now where even if something good is happening for me I'm still unable to fully immerse myself in the moment. I cannot fully enjoy anything without thinking about what it all means. I guess I just feel really powerless and am desperately searching for meaning and a form of control over my life.
i understand
might be clinical anhedonia, or something else
just remember there are a number of drastic htings you can try to change your life, even if you can't always control it perfectly
u might also want to try martial arts or a fencing class or something like that, it might sound weird but it could help your mental state & give you something to focus on

hope you're still here

>>34396517
Your post sounds like it is written as narsistic sarcasm abuse. Like it's making up a situation to manipulate whoever reads it.

>>34396517
Your mistake is assuming that there is actually a reason for anything. There isn't. Your questions are like tossing a coin and saying "But WHY did it come down heads?" There's no greater force at work, here, it just did. You can analyse the Physics of it, sure, but that's still talking about HOW it came down heads, not why. There is no why. The universe can't show you anything, and even if it could, there is nothing to show. Fundamentally, there is no meaning or reason for anything.

As for why you are you, here and now, again, there's no reason. People in ancient Egypt wondered why they were in ancient Egypt rather than Greece, in precisely the same way that you wonder you aren't Egyptian. If there's intelligent life on Europa, they wonder why they weren't born on Callisto; there's no reason, they just weren't.

The only way to find meaning is for YOU to choose a meaning. No one else can ever give you one.

>>34396517
You?
How arrogant.

You don't exist. The idea of you is a convenience to make that body move in search of food and reproduction. Think about it carefully.

One clump of embryo cells develop into a brain. From the same clump, if the clump divides twins with radically different lives can rise. Sometimes the clump doesn't separate completely and conjoined twins that can read each other thoughts appear. Some parts of your brain, such as your emotions react in ways you don't want, some put deep fear in you. When you get sleep paralysis one part paralyzes your body while the other wants to shout and escape and wake up. When you're falling asleep one part is watchful and the other is generating nonsense like an AI, you have noticed. One part turns on the screen of your eyes and if you squatted for 30secs and rose quickly you would notice it turning off. Some people believe their mind leaves their bodies, some people believe their surroundings stop being real, some people hear voices and shit.

You are just what happens after all the parts concert in doing something. You are many. You think yourself all high and mighty for making decisions, but how can you say the decisions are truly yours? In the end even your abstract self only takes decisions the conditions of the world allows for.

You ,what you call "I", doesn't exist. You, what you call "Us", is the only possible state of being.

>>34396517
Also, for the rest of the questions, the answer is simple and has two parts:

1. Path of Least Resistance.
2. Survival of the fittest.

What exists, exists in the state of least energy expenditure. Your life is not optimal because the conditions for your existance were enough. There is no standard, you were the result of many failures and you yourself are a failure among many.

Secondly, What exists is what's possible for the present conditions. Earth bears life because it's placed in the right place. Living things are different because from random generation they get the tools they use by trial and error to survive. Your parents themselves did trial and error to raise you, and you're the least resistant outcome for the effort they put in..

Does the universe restart? Then one should ask, is it easier for the universe to restart, or to go on infinitely? Will you live again? that's to say, will all the conditions for something that you can feel part of, let alone call it yourself, be easier to be reunited in the future than let them get lost forever?

It was certainly easier to put you together for once than letting the universe exist without you.