For the past month I've been sleeping poorly. I am kinda fearful of going to sleep because I have been waking up in the night with agonising mental episodes.It's like something ominous is happening, and I can't imagine what. My head doesn't physically hurt but it's like a psychological torture. Akin to working on a factory line where you repeat actions ad infinitum and your mind wants to explode.Sometimes I think of programming problems, singles words, or shapes. And if I close my eyes they appear and mentally zap me. I need the lights on and my eyes open for about 30 minutes before the thoughts and agony subside.My heart does race. I don't sweat either. I found these could be nocturnal panic attacks. But I'm not panicking. I can breathe fine. There is just harsh mental discomfort. And it's like I've lost control to soothe bad thoughts when my eyes are closed.The good: I have not drank or did weed in 2 years. I go to the gym 4 times a week, skate, and walk lots, and my BMI is 22.3. I do not smoke.The bad: I have not had a conversation with anyone in person in 4 months. I work from home. I still feel guilty for breaking things off with my ex 6 months ago. I feel guilty for not living in the same city as my mother. She is a hoarder.
>>34399389My heart does *not race or pound
You not talking to anyone for 4 months seems most concerning to me, but I’m not sure that would be the cause.Do you think you might have sleep apnea? I’m just shooting in the dark here, but if you’re sleeping and you wake up retarded, then maybe you were literally fucking choking and gasping for air for minutes on end.Tbh this seems like really scary. Schedule a sleep apnea test just in case. While you wait for your appointment, download a sleep apnea app or something that records audio when you make noise.
>>34399476thanks bro, I will keep my lights on again tonight and look into sleep apnea. My very obese father had that. I don't really know much about ithow's your week been?
>>34399523Yeah bro, sleep apnea is serious and can kill you. Get yourself checked out.Good. I had a date a few hours ago and she was looking at me like I was a piece of cake. Though I got some bad psychological ED issues so idk how it’ll go. But also got 2 ladies who have been patient and helping me with it for a price I can afford. Although progress is very slow, there’s still progress. One of the ladies will be my Surrogate Partner Therapist. Feel free to look that up. I find it fascinating and am finally gonna do it.
>>34399592Thanks for asking btw.
