>21>male>still living with parents but paying rent>rarely look at my mothers eyes and get anxious when in the same room as her>never wondered why>thought it was my natural state>love my dadsince we moved from a house to an appartment in the city, i felt watched 24?7 because of the noise on the other rooms,and>around (13 maybe)once i woke up and she was sneaking on my computer, or my bedroom frequently.>now a privacy freak>linux, pixel 9a, only cash>i already knew that>smokes weed after 9 months sober by choice>suddenly i remember,>5/6yoshe slamming my bike (child bike) against the ground. >13/14 yoshe destroys my laptop (13/14) because i didn't want to go to language school.>11yo maybe>she destroying the door of my room with a hammer because i said i didn't want to go to the groceries.)>that was the day i thought i would die.(i locked myself on the bedroom because i remember the sounds of her steps on the corridor coming to my room really fast after i said that)Basically.i never knew i had this hammer memory.the other ones were like really foggy memories(?)>thought being anxious was part of my natural state.but now i understand everything.sorry the format i am not from here,and i started typing asap after i get all these memories instantly.it means that am still high,>i will not tell anyone about it irl for now because im still scared afweed is actually really helpful sometimes.so what now??
>>34401692Based Cocteaus enjoyer
>>34401692>weed is actually really helpful sometimes.>so what now??move out ASAPdo whatever you need to do in order to do thatsorry anon
>traumatised because your parent forced you to be productive and broke your stuffreeeal sorry that happened to you, budtime to move out and move on
seriously, there's no point in exploring any of those memories further or trying to confront your parentsyou're better off getting independent from them ASAP and figuring shit out at that pointit will be worth it & they'll feel like a much smaller part of your life eventually, OP
>>34401692You are being a fag. Mothers are bitches that help teach us what bitches are like. I got 99 problems but a bitch ain’t one, right? It is over and a nothing burger. My mom shot at me. I am not fagging over it.
>>34401692It’s all but an ark lark my friend
>>34401692Protect yourself by distancing (physically and emotionally) as much as you have to.But also recognize that those were not the actions of a fully sane woman, and she was fighting her own demons. Feel regret and pity more than hatred.
