I am 32 years old the other day I witnessed two random people fucking in an alleyway behind a liquor store. I of course had seen porn and watch it regularly but I have never EVER seen two REAL people fucking ever in my life in the flesh. The only word I can use to describe how I felt is destabilized. I feel destabilized entirely. I have not had sex but seeing it for real actually dealt more damage to me than I think porn has ever done. The primary reason being that I now know sex is very VERY real and everyone is likely doing it besides me. People are fucking all the time. and yet I can't manage to even have a relationship to even try to get that far. Seeing that made me realize how far behind I really am. Those people have probably fucked hundreds of times if they are bold enough to fuck outside. I want to go back to a time before I saw that. Because now that I know sex is real and that people will even do it outside JUST BECAUSE... My life feels fucked. No pun intended. Before, I could at least pretend like "Oh, I may get to have a relationship one day. I just haven't met the right girl." All the feelings of being completely behind have washed over me and I feel my hope bleeding out of me at light speed.I am just so bothered that what I assume to be two alcoholics fucking can get to have sex but I can't. What the fuck is missing from me? WHAT DIDN'T I LEARN!? I feel as if internally I was wired up differently because externally I look normal. Just not sure what to do. I never would have thought that seeing two people fucking in real life would fuck me up this badly. I was fine two days ago.
>>34417143No. Sex is not real. This cannot be.
>>34417143The funny thing is when you have sex youll see it as the stupid thing it is. Just two people running their parts together. Its really stupid. Its not this thing youre making it to be.
>>34417150I've known it to be real I guess. But I coped myself into thinking its insanely rare in real life and porn is just people doing the rare act because they are being paid. However, I get the feeling that people fucking is a common occurrence. Like very common. Which bothers me because if it is so common, why can't I even get to the previous steps that precede sex? I feel like I have to lobotomize myself and scour my personality because something isn't wired right in me. I can't explain it. I don't think I lack a soul but it feels my mind is cross wired.
>>34417151is it really that ridiculous? I don't think I believe it to be this MIND BLOWING experience or whatever. I imagine it as being marginally more pleasurable than masturbation but with probably quintuple the risk(pregnancy, disease etc). However, I am more bothered by what being able to have sex means as a whole. It means a woman found you attractive enough to want to even do that. It means you were able to get that far.
>>34417153JUST have sex. Literally what else do you have to do other than that? My god.
>>34417143>sex is very VERY realI don't know, anon. If it were real, don't you think we would've had it by now?
>>34417143Your attitude should be the opposite of what it currently is. If even two dirty, mentally unstable alcoholics have sex, then that means sex isn't that good. Farm animals have more sex than any person, does that make sex great and people bad? Or does that make sex lame, animalistic and lowly? There's literally nothing to admire in it if it's something that even the lowest, dirtiest and dumbest creatures alive engage in frequently, especially if their dirty and thoughtless qualities are the very same qualities that make it easy for them to have sex. Anyone can have sex on the same day that they choose to, you simply haven't chosen to because you've decided to restrict yourself to a relationship like a human being rather than prostitution like an animal. You rate sex too highly.
>>34417155>It means a woman found you attractive enough to want to even do that. It means you were able to get that far.This isn't that hard.
>>34417155It is way better than masturbating, its not even that similar. Its not mind blowing, its not like being in space. Its just a fun erotic activity that feels good. Its like dancing but sexier, funnier, more intuitive
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>>34417158This is what I coped myself into thinking so I could at least manage to live still. That cope was shattered when I witnessed real fucking.>>34417160I can understand that view point. I guess I just don't want to just randomly have sex. I don't think that would help me. What I have always told myself is that I want natural progression. So I meet a woman, we date. Like normal dates. Normal speed. Then if things progress that far, we make out first and then eventually have sex if we both like each other enough to do that. I just want normal progression. >>34417164I have heard varying descriptions. I guess its just one of those things that has a lot of variables.
>>34417168Explain your last 5 experiences with women.
>>34417172>I guess I just don't want to just randomly have sexExactly, which is what those drunks were doing in the alley. They were doing the very thing you don't want to do, the thing you wouldn't do even if you were offered money. So really, you didn't witness anything earth shattering at all. You didn't witness people doing what you wanted, you witnessed people doing something you didn't want. Disgusting sex is common and happens every day. Pure sex, which is what you want, is rare. You won't find two drunks in an alley having pure sex, because those kinds of people aren't capable of having it. You aren't missing out, is basically the point.
>>34417181Hmmm.. you mean as in dating? I haven't even dated 5 women in my life. However my last experience with a woman was very pleasant I'd say. She chose to stop dating me after maybe 4 dates but I think it was because I am boring. Which I am trying to work on. She made a comment like "Oh, every date has been at 2pm on saturday." Which is when I feel the most able to date. I don't drive at night usually so I never plan dates at night. She was actually the first woman I ever kissed. That was maybe 2 years ago. I still relisten to her voice messages because I miss her.
>>34417226I see. That makes a lot of sense. So I am not missing out because that isn't something I'd be doing anyway. That is a perspective I had not thought of. Thanks.
>>34417277You're not really trying.
Kek
>>34417143>32 years on this earth>traumatized by seeing sex IRL>has never had sexman it never even began for you
>>34417143>sex outside behind a liquor storeanon that was most likely drug related. yes, drug dealers do have a lot of sex because they take that as payment. do you want to be a drug dealer? he was basically engaging in prostitution, not real sex. they weren't doing that "just because".
>>34417321You are right. I wish I could try more often. I get like 1 date every 4-5 years. I have been on hinge for years now. Same with okcupid and bumble. Wish I could cut the dating sites because I don't feel they work well. Would rather try real life but I fear real life doesn't work well either.
>>34417151It makes life retard. It's always a transference of spiritual energy. Particularly for the woman. OP. The males do the dance in nature. You gotta try bud. Sex isn't good when it's not real. It's a glorified masturbation session with pregnancy and STD fears.
>>34417164Holy shit you sound gay as fuck broDancing is fucking gay too lmaoI know your wife needs an excuse to rub up on other dudes though. Same for your little baby girl.
>>34417728Schizo
Its over. The west has fallen. OP will have to bleach his virgin eyes now.
>>34417150this post is propaganda to convince you that sex is real so you give up your wizarding powers DO NOT FALL FOR IT
>>34417592Your profile probably sucks cock and you need to present yourself better. Get some nice clothes and some actually good pictures. Pretend you're Dan Bilzerian for 2 weeks and you can reap the rewards for years.
>>34417744Sloppy seconds wife
Bait larp demoralization thread. Fake made up shit. Ignored
>>34417143if you cheat on meee, you better leave lmao because im the one that asked them to do it
>>34417805**ever fallen for a loyalty trap?! kek
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