>be me>sheltered by my mother for most of my adult life>has been through so much trauma and abusive relationships throughout the years>has severe paranoia to the point where i think everyone is out to get me>often sees white vans outside of my house and a cop has visited my house once with a question on if i've seen this obviously fake person>often lurks on kiwi farms and lolcow sites, shitting on the commentary community and it's hellish art section>life keeps on getting worse as i keep on getting distant from abusive siblings and parents>now linux is going to get banned in the US, thanks to a facist hellscape ran by an orangeman and his pedophiles in office>has nightmares of getting beaten and killed by my online enemieswhat should i do? should i consider running away from home? i seriously want to go to canada or mexico. or maybe somewhere where i don't have to interact with negative people all the time and i could just work a simple job and come home to relax or whatever. since i've been mentally/emotionally abused by my exes, i have opted out of the relationship game completely. like, i seriously don't want a girlfriend or whatever, even if it's tempting.i just want to start a new, clean slate. where i'm not harassed by feds and freaks.
>>34441475>has severe paranoia to the point where i think everyone is out to get me>often sees white vans outside of my house and a cop has visited my house once with a question on if i've seen this obviously fake personBruh, you sound way too mentally ill to move to another country on your own. I don't think you grasp what a tremendous process it is.My advice is get treatment for your mental health before you decide to do anything.You could also move to another states. Different states are like different countries.
>>34441492treatment is a risky process.. i mean, i know you mean well anon but, i feel like i'm not gonna cause too much chaos. i just wanna keep my head down and not be bothered too much.my uncle often tells me to distract myself by listening to music or whatever and it kinda works sometimes but, the environment i live in is very negative on me as a person.i just want to get away from everyone. start a new slate and stay away from my old one. although, i do get your concerns, anon. maybe i'll probably live in another state, if it doesn't go to shit of course.
