I need to get this out because I feel like a piece of shit. I have absolutely zero discipline, I’m addicted to porn and social media, and I procrastinate on everything until the last minute. I'm a socially awkward manlet who gives up on working out after a week. Academically sure, I get A's, but it's in a meme visual arts degree, and honestly, I suck at art. I feel like a complete fraud. I hardly have the technical expertise for the field I wanted to work in in the first place (comicbook illustration)I was diagnosed with OCD, but I don't know if that's the real problem or just a convenient excuse to be a lazy cunt. SSRIs made me suicidal, and therapy has proven useless. Meanwhile, I look at peers studying brutal majors who are fitter, better at art, and still have time to party, play video games and browse social media without it ruining their lives. I'm so desperate to be like them that I’d try anything. I wouldn't even mind selling my soul to the devil at this point if that was necessary.What are these people doing that I’m not? What am I missing? Is there some secret to life I just didn't get the memo for? Or is it a hard truth I’m just unwilling to accept? I know they aren't relying on some crazy rigid environment cold-turkey architecture that strips away all their fun. They're just functioning, thriving humans. And I'm not. I feel lost and ultimately paralyzed. There's so much information out there, so many tips and tricks and research I've already gone through but I can't seem to find a fix.
>>34443491Go to a sales seminar. Bullshiting pelope is the only skill you ever need.
>>34443491>I know they aren't relying on some crazy rigid environment cold-turkey architecture that strips away all their funThis part stands out to me as a root problem. Self-discipline and responsible behavior aren't grueling or unpleasant. And self-indulgence and laziness aren't restorative or pleasant. You need to flip those notions around, and learn how to see the energy giving satisfaction that comes with hard work, and the life draining misery that comes with shirking. You're trapped in a cycle where you feel drained because you procrastinate, but then tell yourself that you need to procrastinate more in order to get the energy you need. But that's like putting off making dinner because you're too hungry to make dinner. It's a cycle that leads to nothing other than starvation. If you can change how you look at the relationship between energy and work, I think it will help a lot.
>>34443568That is an interesting take. I will think about it
>>34443568Also thank you for taking the time to answer
